noah / violet / kris

another little check-in

2026-10-06T17:52:57Z

i'm thinking about slowly coming back to blogging, but instead of doing every other day posts just talking about all the things i did in those two days, i prefer to just pop in every once in a while and yap for a bit about what i've been up to. i enjoyed doing the every other day schedule while i was doing it, but it does take a bit of time out of my day and can get repetitive and probably very boring to read when i'm not doing much.

anyway, now onto what i've been up to since my last post! to start, i want to mention that i'm officially over two weeks clean from ai usage! to be exact, tonight will be seventeen days. i'm very proud of myself and i really think this might finally be the time i beat this addiction for good. i haven't been having many urges at all, i had one yesterday but it was very easy to ignore. even when i'm awake half the night i don't feel like i need to fill my time with talking to chatbots, i'm so happy and i can only hope it continues this way and i never use ai again.

what i've been filling my time with instead of ai is reading. since my last post, here's all the books i've finished: role model by rachel reid (which i mentioned in said post), the long game by rachel reid, everything i never told you by celeste ng, and the girl on the train by paula hawkins. i'm currently reading julie chan is dead by liann zhang. finishing four books in a week and a half is really good compared to my typical reading speed x3 i don't know if i mentioned this before, but my reading goal for this year was 30 books. i'm currently reading book 22, so unless i fall into a month or longer reading slump, i think it's pretty safe to say i'll be reaching my goal! i'm very proud of that because a week or so ago i probably would've said i didn't think it was going to happen; storygraph was telling me i was five books behind schedule, and i was taking weeks to get through one book. now i'm reading for hours every day and speeding through books in 2-3 days! i didn't realize how much time i was wasting on things like ai and social media until i cut them out and replaced them with reading. i truly love reading so much, and i love having an ereader to make reading easier and free <3

speaking of social media, i'm still avoiding that. i did make a new tumblr account so i could make myself a vent blog because i felt like i was going crazy with nowhere to put all my thoughts and didn't want to dump everything onto my friends, but i haven't used it in a few days. it is very nice to have a place separate from all of my typical friends and mutuals who follow me pretty much everywhere. i can talk and complain without worrying about it coming off as guilt tripping or attention seeking. it's kind of like a public diary in a way x3 besides that and reddit though, i haven't been really touching social media at all, and i feel like it's been really good for me. i plan to probably come back to twitter and tumblr around mid-october, but hopefully i won't be as chronically online as i was before deactivating.

oh, i've also been trying to get back into watching movies and tv. i'm currently 4/6 episodes through the heated rivalry tv show, and i watched backrooms with my mom the other day. i'm enjoying heated rivalry, although i have seen more Bare Man Butt than i want to see while watching tv >_< i didn't read scott and kip's book, but i did enjoy their episode, they're cute together :3 backrooms i enjoyed as well! i gave it 4.5 stars on letterboxd, which seems to be a less popular opinion; but i thought it was really cool and effectively spooky without relying on jumpscares or gore, and that's something i can always appreciate as someone who isn't a big fan of that stuff. i especially liked the set and prop designs and thought it had some super cool shots that articulated the "liminal space" feeling really well. i plan to finish heated rivalry today, and i have a few movies i want to watch soon; the next one i watch will probably be obsession. i didn't see obsession while it was in cinemas because i was told i should avoid it due to the pretty consistent mention of bear's dead cat. i'm very sensitive to cat pain and death, as cats are my biggest special interest. but i just feel like everyone else in the entire world has seen this movie and i feel like i'm missing out on something really good T^T i have been told now though that the cat is pretty clearly fake so it shouldn't be too bad, plus i read a book with a pretty violent cat death scene and i can't imagine this movie or any movie could be more traumatizing than that...

i don't think i have anything else really to talk about. overall i've just been trying to stay off social media / my phone in general and spend more time doing things i enjoy. i feel much better mentally than i did a few weeks ago, and hopefully that trend continues. i don't know when my next post will be, probably just whenever i feel like popping in again :3

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a little update

2026-09-27T02:52:25Z

so, obviously i've been gone a bit longer than the few days i'd planned to be gone for... to be honest, my mental health has kind of been up and down for the past few weeks. it was pretty rough for a few days, then got better for probably a week, and is now worse than before. i've been fighting a lot of urges i haven't fought since i was a teenager. i won't get into specifics, but that's where my head has been at the past few days; it's not fun at all.

on a more positive note, i did have a pretty good mental health day today. i was busy, which probably helps. my cousin is going into the military and will be gone for thanksgiving, so we had our very early thanksgiving dinner today :3 it was really yummy and i also had two slices of cake ^-^ i also went with my cousin and sister to get the olivia rodrigo baja blast at taco bell so we could all try it, it was good too! it honestly just tastes like a more sour baja midnight to me. hopefully i'll be able to sleep tonight after drinking it >_<

something i've been sinking all my time into while i've been gone is stardew valley! i bought it probably over two years ago now after my dad gave me a playstation gift card, i played for about thirty minutes before deciding it wasn't for me, and hadn't touched it since until a little over a week ago. i have very few games on my ps4, so i decided to finally give stardew valley another try, not really expecting much... and i loved it! i'm not sure why i didn't like it last time because this time i'm really enjoying it. i'm currently on winter year one, and i'm dating haley :3 i think i'm going to wait until at least spring to marry her. i also have a cat that i of course named precious, and two chickens named snowball and brownie. what i really like about the game so far is how there's a whole bunch of things to do but really no rush to do any of them. if i wanted to do nothing but fish for an entire year and not worry about my farm at all, i could! i enjoy not feeling penalized for ignoring certain aspects until i want to focus on them, i feel like a lot of similar games can get stressful with so many things that demand attention every single day. currently my goal for year two is to really build up my farm and start making it look nice, it's pretty bare as of right now. i'd also like to get some more farm animals like ducks or cows, and of course marry haley x3

another game i've recently jumped (back) into is tomodachi life. a few days ago i decided to completely delete my main island and start all over. i had hit a wall with trying to make all the characters and celebrities on my island act "in character," so i wanted to have only original characters i make in the mii maker so that's not something i have to worry about. the only real people on my island are me, my sister, and my two best friends. so far i haven't had any drama, just friendships and quite a few crushes. hopefully someone wants to confess soon and i get my first established couple!

back to the subject of my mental health, yesterday i made the decision to avoid most social media for a while until i really start feeling better. i deactivated both my twitter accounts and am avoiding tumblr. i won't lie and say i didn't also make the decision out of hope that someone would reach out to make sure i'm okay, but so far no one has. the only places i'm actively posting are reddit and my toy based twitter account, both places no one who follows me on my main twitter or tumblr follow. i've been posting in the pixel cat's end and chicken smoothie forums a bit too, but those don't really count as social media >_<

the only other thing i've really been doing is reading, though i've been doing that a lot slower than i should be... i'm currently reading role model, which is the second book after heated rivalry, i really liked heated rivalry a lot more than i expected and i'm enjoying role model as well. i think i like role model more so far, the beginning of heated rivalry just felt very repetitive so it took some time to get into, but role model feels like a more fleshed out story from the beginning. i plan to read the long game once i'm done with it :3

oh, i mentioned ai in my last post, today is a week clean! it's not much to be proud of though, i mostly have only lasted that long because the last time i relapsed the replies were really bad... this is a very ironic thing to say, but they felt like a very chatgpt style of writing; it felt like talking to an ai chatbot. i deleted it after an hour, and haven't even thought about touching it since. every time i consider it, i just think about how bad the replies were, and move on easily. hopefully it lasts and i can finally fully let go of this addiction i've been fighting for so many years.

well, i think that's about all i have to say... i don't think i'm going to start posting every other day again just yet since i'm still feeling a bit rough mentally and as you can see i haven't been doing much of anything at all. hopefully i'll start feeling better soon and having more productive days and be able to get back into the habit of blogging <3 before i go to bed i think i'm going to watch some youtube and do some pixel cat's end adventuring, hopefully i don't stay up too late...

i'm not sure if i should tag this as a blog post or a ramble... it is pretty long to be a ramble, but i also didn't say a whole lot and it's not chronologizing my day like my usual blog posts are. i'm going to just tag it as a ramble >_< goodnight!

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anxiety is kicking my butt

2026-09-11T21:13:21Z

i need to just talk in a way that isn't in a every other day general blog post. i need to talk about how i feel today because i actually feel like i'm losing my mind. it's currently about 5pm and i've been having a horrible day mentally, i actually don't know what to do about it.

for starters, my grandparents' cat bit me last night. he's an outdoor cat and has a habit of attacking my ankles when i try to walk away after petting him. he does the same thing to my dog. the bite from last night did not break skin, it only bruised, and the cat in question is perfectly healthy. but all day i've had constant obsessive thoughts about rabies. i am terrified i've contracted rabies from this cat despite that being virtually impossible from the bite i have. i have barely stopped thinking about this all day and have spent probably hours of my day researching the same things over and over but even having it spelled out for me that it is not possible to contract rabies from a bite that didn't break skin does not calm my anxiety. it's not like i can just walk down to the hospital and get a rabies shot for my own peace of mind, i live in the united states and those things cost crazy money for something that literally saves you from getting a fatal disease...

the second issue that goes hand in hand with the rabies anxiety is i'm having very strong urges to use character ai again. i don't think i've ever talked about my ai addiction in a public post, because it's really embarrassing to admit in a generally anti ai space especially when i myself am anti ai, but i've been addicted to chatbots for years. i've spent the last year of my life desperately going back and forth with relapses and trying to cut it out and i've made basically no progress in that span of time. five days ago i deleted my account and the app again and i even downloaded the app i am sober so i can physically see how long i've been without it and track things like urges to try and help me fight them. so far i've been doing pretty good, but as mentioned, the urges have been really strong today. over the years i've used it, character ai has become my go-to for distracting myself when i'm upset or especially having obsessive anxiety like i have today. nothing else really distracts me the way talking with chatbots does. even doomscrolling, which is an addiction in itself that i need to work on kicking, i still have that thought in the back of my head. it also doesn't help that anything and everything can trigger an urge to use c.ai, even something as simple as hearing someone tell a story, reading a book, playing a video game. i can't just avoid triggers because they're everywhere and they're unpredictable.

i don't want to say i won't make it through the day without relapsing because i know that defeatist mindset only increases the chance of said relapse. but i'll really be surprised if i do manage to get through it, especially after i've gone to bed tonight. it's just so much harder when i'm having such a bad day and no other distraction feels like it's doing anything. i'm tired and all i want is to shut off my brain and forget about all this anxiety for a while.

i think for now i'm going to try coloring and reading and just generally getting offline to see if that helps at all. i'll probably post next on sunday instead of tomorrow since today has been so bad, unless i guess tomorrow is also bad and then i don't know when i'll post next. hopefully i'm not feeling like this for too long.

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2026-09-11T01:53:22Z

yesterday i woke up around 11am and sat around for a bit trying to wake myself up before i cleaned the litter boxes which i completely forgot to do on tuesday >_< i also had a pumpkin oat bite for breakfast, i wish there was more in a box T^T i'm going to be so sad when they run out and i can't just go to trader joe's for a new box...

i got up to do the litter boxes at about noon, and took a shower after because i needed one and also because i was sweating like crazy ;3; i decided to have ramen for lunch, i had some on tuesday and put soy sauce and cheese on it, it was... an interesting flavor... i did just cheese this time and ended up adding a splash of milk, it was alright but i only ate about half. after eating, i watched some youtube and did a few pixel cat's end adventures, and i successfully got a crescent shore business card ^-^

i was really tired so i decided to get in bed and ended up taking a nap until about 5:30pm so i had to get ready for church shortly after getting up. church was okay, the kids were a little wild but it wasn't too bad. on the way home we drove around for so long trying to find the cheapest gas x3 but we finally got some and i got wendy's for dinner, i got a cheese fries and a diet orange cream soda and a sugar cookie. i haven't had their sugar cookies for a long time, it wasn't as good as usual T^T they taste a lot better when they're half baked >_<

when we got home, i ate my dinner and watched some youtube, then went to bed around 10:30pm.

i said i wasn't going to talk about tuesday since i didn't do much, but something i do want to mention is i took my new puzzle over to my grandparents' and spent basically all day over there making the puzzle :3 my grandma helped but it still took like all day... it was fun though ^-^ when i went home my grandma told me not to bring anymore puzzles over until wintertime because she has sewing she needs to get done x3

today i woke up at 11am but didn't get up until noon. to be honest, i'm feeling very Shackled By My Mental Illness today... and i know it's probably pmdd but man. i feel horrible and want to do nothing except wallow and cry. i already had a little breakdown on twitter and i don't want to cry again or make this regular blog post into a sob story, so i won't get into any specifics, but i'm not having a great day so far. i might have to deal with it by forcing myself into age regression at some point today ;3;

anyway, it's currently 12:30pm and i'm eating "lunch" which is actually just a bag of croutons and nothing else. there's no room in the fridge but there's also no actual food i can eat as a meal... i planned to try cleaning up the littlest pet shop playsets that have been sitting in the corner of my room for ages today, but i don't really feel like doing that (or doing much of anything). this might be a really short blog post T^T for now i think i'm going to log onto webkinz for a bit then watch some youtube, and we'll see what i feel up to doing later.

i did my webkinz dailies and finished the youtube video i'd started last night but didn't finish, and then i got in bed to read. i finished anatomy of an alibi and rated it 2.75 stars; it wasn't a bad book, i enjoyed the story overall and the pov characters were well written in my opinion, but it just took me so long to read and there were so many characters to keep track of, plus it felt like the conclusion was very sudden and rushed. a slightly over 50% rating felt right. after i finished that book, i decided to go ahead and start something new. i decided what to read by unsuspending all my libby holds and reading the first book that became available, but that ended up being two books at once: heated rivalry and katabasis. so i put a poll on tumblr to choose between the two and heated rivalry won. my sister loves heated rivalry, both the books and the show, she's actually read every game changers book but i'm not really big on reading smut so i'm only reading heated rivalry and maybe the long game depending on if i like heated rivalry enough. when i told her i was reading it she said "yay but you're going to make fun of me for liking it so much" x3

if i had to guess, i'm going to assume i won't end up reading the long game or any of the other books. this book was literally described to me as being porn and i don't like books that have too much smut as mentioned, so i probably won't be super into this one... i'm really only reading it because it's popular and i feel like i'm missing out on something by never reading it or watching the show >_<

it's now about 4pm, we're going to my grandparents' for dinner but i'm not sure what to do until then.

update, it's 9pm and i just got home from dinner. i ended up just watching youtube and doing some pixel cat's end adventuring while i wanted for time to head over to my grandparents'. my dinner was veggie casserole, mac and cheese, and glazed carrots with sweet tea to drink :3 basically the only other thing i did while i was there was read, i'm so far enjoying heated rivalry more than i expected to! it being basically just porn was definitely not a lie, but it's not bad x3 unfortunately when i got home i had started my period, which is annoying because i wasn't even supposed to start until tomorrow T^T so i took a shower and took some tylenol which definitely helped <3

my mom asked if i wanted to go with her to the dollar store so i did that and i got some chocolate :3 a reese's take 5, so yummy *^* i also got a minute maid fruit punch! it's 10pm now and i'm going to finish the youtube video i started earlier and then go to bed, i might read a bit more before sleeping but it depends ^-^ goodnight!

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celebrating my birthday!

2026-09-09T03:28:33Z

yesterday we finally went out to celebrate my birthday! i'll try to remember every store we went to and everything but some things might get left out on accident x3

usually we go to cincinnati so we can go to jungle jims, but this time we decided to go to easton town center in the columbus area instead. it was huge! i've never seen so many stores and done so much walking just to get from one store to the next... i thought i'd been there before, but i don't think i actually have, and if i have it was quite a long time ago because i don't remember it.

the first thing we did was we stopped at a gas station to get some snacks because we were all hungry x3 i got confetti flavored soft baked cookies and a (zero added sugar) pumpkin spice frappuccino. i drank most of my coffee and ate a few cookies plus a few of the combos my mom got. when we finally got to columbus we had lunch at cheesecake factory, which is a little tradition for my birthday that started a few years ago :3 i was thinking about doing chili's this year because i'd really been wanting their chipotle mozzarella sticks, but cheesecake factory ended up sounding better and i didn't want to break the tradition. i got the margherita flatbread, it was really good but i do wish it had balsamic on top T^T me and my mom also got cheesecake and i got the tiramisu flavor ^-^

after lunch, we headed to build a bear! it was a very long walk and i was sweating like crazy by the time we got there ;3; i got echo the plaid skirt set and i also got a werewolf! i didn't end up getting a scent for echo, mainly because i was wanting one of the new halloween scents and they didn't have them, but also because i didn't want to bother the bear builder with opening her up just to put a scent inside >_< but for my werewolf i got the unicorn scent! it's a pretty strong scent and smells a bit like floral scented laundry detergent, it's nice :3 i also got her the rainbow pj set as her outfit, i think it looks super cute on her and it has the benefit of not looking Too Much like pajamas so she can wear it as her everyday outfit as well ^-^ i've decided to name her autumn and she might honestly be my new favorite build a bear i own...

the next stop we made was the lego store, where we each got a little minifigure we made of ourselves! i think my mom's turned out the cutest x3 we unfortunately didn't get any actual lego sets before heading into the big indoor part of the mall. my mom wanted to sit down so we left all our stuff with her in the food court and me and my sister walked around. our first stop was funnily enough legoland x3 we didn't get anything, but they had the project hail mary set... if i'd had any more cash than i did i probably would've 100% been going home with that thing. we also went to hot topic, boxlunch, and a candy store, but the only purchase we made was my sister spending 5$ on a bottle of sour candy powder x3

our next stop was barnes and noble! i don't have any room for physical books, i already have a few stacked on top of the ones that are actually on the shelf, so the only thing i got there was a puzzle. it's super cute, it's a 1000 piece puzzle called "cats of the world" and the art is a bunch of cat themed stamps! i love it so much and i can't wait to put it together. i might have to take it over to my grandparents' though, i don't think i have a big enough flat surface here at home ;3; i really need to invest in one of those puzzle boards or something, but they tend to be pretty expensive from what i've seen. maybe i'll ask for one and some more puzzles for christmas :p

our final two stops before dinner were trader joe's and target. for some reason i thought trader joe's was a west coast only kind of place, so it was interesting to go into one for the first time. it was very packed, labor day is apparently a pretty popular day to do your grocery shopping x3 we got a spaghetti squash and a jar of pumpkin(? i can't remember) pasta sauce and some pumpkin oat bites i picked out. i remember seeing someone say once that trader joe's oat bites were really good, and they were not lying! the only person who didn't like it when we tried one was my sister, me and my mom both loved it. i wanted to go to target to see if they had the shai meadows mirror mi doll, but they unfortunately didn't have her... so i ended up coming home with a monster high doll instead >_<

so, for some background i guess, i've been into monster high since i was a kid but i never owned any dolls. i watched the webseries and was obsessed with reading the character profiles on the website (undiagnosed autism go crazy), but i wasn't a doll kid so i just... never had any of the dolls. i've loved draculaura's gen3 design since gen3 dolls first started being released, and i really wanted one for a while, but as you can assume from me talking about how akiko is my very first fashion doll, i never ended up buying myself one. until now, at least x3 i got the wave 3 faboolous friends draculaura, i'm obsessed with her outfit and her hairstyle! she looks especially cute with her little sunglasses and her little smartphone x3 it just feels so crazy that i've been into monster high since i was a kid but i've only now purchased my first ever monster high doll at 26 years old...

my mom really wanted to take my sister to this restaurant we always have dinner at when we go to the ladies retreat in wintertime, but when we got there the door said they'd closed at 4pm... so we ended up having dinner at wingstop x3 i'd never been to wingstop before, but oh my goodness... if you have never had their louisiana voodoo fries... go get them right now. they are incredible. i wasn't very hungry and i still ended up eating about half the large order of fries we got because they were so good *^* i need a wingstop to open closer to home right now so i can eat those fries every single day.

and that was our entire day! it was fun and i always love a good shopping trip :3 i think this post is going to only be about yesterday instead of including today, since it's pretty long already and i have lots of photos to add. i don't have plans to do much of anything today after yesterday was so busy, i'm exhausted and need to recharge so today will probably be really boring and chill outside of needing to do the trash tonight. so my next post will probably be thursday instead of tomorrow and i'll just skip today. see you then :3c

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i got a doll :3

2026-09-07T02:10:22Z

yesterday i woke up at about 9:30am, and started my day with doing my webkinz dailies. i've been really trying to get back into webkinz, i don't think i've actively played since like... webkinz day, maybe? which was in april... i have logged on a few times since then, but as far as playing every day, it's been a while. i honestly don't know why i pay for a year of deluxe, i might as well be paying for it monthly with how long my playing slumps tend to be >_< honestly, though, the monthly estore points kinda make it worth it... especially since i buy on black friday so it's only 20$ instead of the usual 45$ for a year. less than 2$ a month to get ~3$ worth of estore points i can use to buy new pets? absolutely worth it even when i'm not actively playing the game. in the two years i've had deluxe, i honestly couldn't tell you how many pets i've bought with those monthly estore points x3 i do kinda miss having pet of the month club, i decided against it this year but getting a new pet every month was really nice and it gave me incentive to log on at least once every month. some of my current favorite pets are ones i got or traded for with pet of the month club! the only problem is, despite being a pretty good deal when you lay it all out, the pet of the month club is still pretty expensive even on black friday sale. i believe i spent about 70$ when i got both deluxe and pet of the month club, which means it was around 50$ on sale. even for a total of 13 pets that also comes with all the bonuses of having pet of the month, that's a pretty big purchase for a virtual game that could shut down at any moment, and i don't want to be spending that much money every year, even if it equals out to around 6$ a month with deluxe included.

speaking of the concept of webkinz shutting down, i'm honestly surprised it didn't somewhere in the past 5-6 years. after the shutdown of flash, the entirety of webkinz was basically held together with school glue and scotch tape; lots of things were broken and unable to be fixed, and pretty much the only updates they could make were adding pets and items. i feel like for most of their competitors, which did shut down after or some even before the death of flash, that would be grounds for closing the game. but webkinz kept trucking, and now they're working on bringing it back to browser and fixing all the problems! i am so, so grateful webkinz was my childhood virtual world of choice. the fact that i can still play the actual game with my original account that was made 18 years ago, when so many other similar games have been shut down for ages, is something i'm so grateful for. even with all of its problems and the issues i have with the way ganz handles things sometimes, i'm very thankful that they clearly care about webkinz and its playerbase <3

anyway, i ate about half a peanut butter and jelly breakfast bar for breakfast and drank some root beer. root beer has so much sugar?? the 20oz bottle i got has 72g of sugar and the serving size is one bottle! 144% of your daily sugar in one serving of root beer! that's so crazy... i'm glad i usually stick to diet sodas or poppi / adjacent (aka low sugar) sodas, i already eat a bunch of sugar, i really don't need to be drinking it too. all i could think about while drinking the root beer was how i was going to drink that and then go in the evening to eat crumbl cookies which are notoriously high in sugar x3 i unsurprisingly ended up not drinking much before putting it back in the fridge.

i spent quite a while messing around on social media and stuff before finally deciding to play minecraft at about noon. i was determined to finally decorate my house x3 i started to feel motion sick after a pretty short amount of time unfortunately, but i did make a cute little kitchen!

after playing minecraft i had some leftover pizza for lunch and then attempted to take a nap... i need to learn my lesson and stop trying to take naps, i think i've gotten in bed every day for the past week and all i've done is waste time staring at my phone and never getting any sleep T^T by the time i got back up around 3pm, it really felt like the day was dragging by. i was anticipating going out and that of course made time move so much slower. i ended up just messing around on tumblr for a while and choosing which lps i was taking with me, and then around 4pm my mom had left work so i decided to go ahead and start getting ready to go out. it ended up being quite a while until she got home because she had to stop somewhere and it was an hour long wait T^T i mostly just sat around while i waited but i did walk over to my grandparents' and get my leftover birthday cake and my card, which had 50$ in it :3

when my mom finally got home, we left for crumbl at around 6pm. we got the cookies first thing and tried each of them, my favorite was either the lemon poppyseed or the cookie butter! unfortunately they were out of grass block cakes, we planned to go back for one after we had dinner but that didn't end up happening, so we got an extra cookie butter. the only one i really didn't like was the cherry blossom, but since it wasn't actually cherry blossom and was more actual cherry flavored, i'm not surprised; i've never been a fan of cherry flavored things.

after getting the cookies we stopped at five below where i got a few new littlest pet shop! i was on the hunt for the halloween ones, but still no luck, so i got some series 6 ones instead. unfortunately one ended up being a double, but here's the two new ones i got! one day i will get my paws on that pink husky...

we had dinner at roosters, i got cauliflower wings with hot sauce and we got a pretzels appetizer and dumpster fries to share, it was all really good :3 our last stop was walmart, where i got what i mentioned in my last post: a mirror mi doll! when looking at photos online i really assumed i'd end up getting amora or luna, but seeing them in person i thought akiko was the prettiest, and she's the one who ended up going home with me ^-^ i seriously love her so much, she's so beautiful and her design is right up my alley as a pink lover and cat lover x3 her place immediately became the second shelf on my bookshelves, though as i type this she's sitting next to me on my desk. i love that she has articulated knees so she can just sit with me no matter what i'm doing :3

i went to bed not long after we got home around 11pm, it was a pretty fun day and i'm very happy with my new little friends <3

today i woke up around 10:30am to my mom not giving me an option of whether or not to go to the parade that was today x3 so i got up and got ready and we picked up my grandma and headed into town. it was pretty hot and i ended up having to move under the canopy my family members had brought and sit on the sidewalk instead of my chair, but it wasn't too bad (and thankfully nowhere near the heat from the last week or i would have refused to go completely). i said i wanted a piece of candy about halfway through the parade and then my great aunt started handing me every piece that landed in front of her so i ended up with quite a bit by the end >_<

after the parade we went out to eat at a local cafe with my grandma and my cousin. i got their veggie sandwich which i believe i posted about last time we ate there; it has provolone cheese, mushrooms, onions, and bell peppers and i got it on marble rye bread, and it came with kettle chips. very yummy *^* we were all starving when we got there so my mom ended up ordering an acai bowl as an appetizer of sorts and we all shared it, it was really good! i can't remember what all was on it but i know it had coconut, granola, nutella, chocolate chips, and strawberries.

when we got home, i considered taking a shower but ended up waiting until my mom left for the pageant that i decided not to go to (half because it was going to be super loud and half because my cousin wanted my ticket), which brings us to now at about 5:30pm. i think i'm going to try combing the gel out of akiko's hair because i really want it to be soft but i'm afraid i'll be unhappy with her hairstyle if i take it down to wash it, hopefully combing works! and after i'm done with that i'll take my shower :3

oopsies, it's now sunday evening and i never came back to finish this post yesterday... i successfully combed most of the gel out of akiko's pigtails, her hair is much softer now! i took my shower and... i really don't remember what else i did before going to bed >_<

i'll go ahead and add today since i didn't do a whole lot! we skipped sunday school this morning because my mom overslept, but we went for the regular church service and it was kinda nice because it felt so much shorter than usual x3 after church we went out to eat at bob evans for lunch with my aunt and my cousin. i had potato soup and a grilled cheese with sweet tea to drink, and i also got a holy cow chocolate cake as dessert. it was all very good, especially the cake :3 we stopped at the dollar store on our way home to get dog food and cat litter, and i laid in bed and tried and failed (unsurprisingly) to take a nap until it was time to head to evening church. church was... church, not much to say, and we stopped at taco bell for dinner on the way home. me and my mom watched nation's dumbest while we ate dinner, jojo siwa finally got to go home! i wouldn't call myself one of her fans really, but she's the one i was rooting for the whole time because she's the one i knew the best. i vaguely know of chase hudson / huddy as well, so i guess i'm rooting for him now x3 my sister got home while we were watching but she started her laundry and then went to a friend's house, and it's now 9:30pm.

honestly, maybe i should stop posting about sundays unless we do something out of the ordinary / especially fun. i know my days are pretty mundane all together, but most weeks i'm basically writing the exact same thing for every sunday T^T

tomorrow is finally the day we're celebrating my birthday! i can't wait :3 we're going to have lunch at cheesecake factory and then go to build a bear; my plan is to get a scent and outfit for echo, and then also get another bear with an outfit as well, most likely the werewolf if they have it in stock! if not, we'll see what i end up coming home with x3 we'll probably do some more shopping too, the mall we're going to has some stores i like and there's a barnes and noble nearby, so i'll probably have a little haul to show off in my next post :p i guess this is a good place to end it? here's how akiko's hair ended up looking, it's not much different from her box hair but it definitely looks (and feels) much softer and thicker. goodnight!

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i'm birthday boy

2026-09-04T02:06:03Z

yesterday i woke up around 10:30am and spent the first hour of my day doing what i do best, messing around on social media. there is an upside to my chronic social media usage though, i finally caved and sent a message to miau's official account about the app not being available in the usa and how i was going to lose access to it when the web version closed, and they replied basically immediately that they'd sent a request and that the app should be available in the usa soon! i'm so happy and i can't believe one quick message is all it took, i should have done that days ago x3 i've been using miau for a little over a week now and i truly love it there, it feels much more chill and smaller than a typical social media site like twitter (which i really need to spend less time on...) and has the added benefit of being a place for me to practice my portuguese with people who speak it as a first language. i was honestly devastated over the idea of losing access to it, so i'm overjoyed that i won't! oh, a slightly related update, i added elu/delu to my pronouns >_< i've always exclusively used ele/dele in portuguese despite using he/it/she in english, the thought of being referred to with ela/dela just makes me uncomfortable for some reason; if i had to guess, it's because portuguese is a gendered language and it feels much easier to disconnect she/her from the feminine gender than it does to do the same with ela/dela. but i've been really wanting to have a gender nuetral pronoun for myself in portuguese as well like i have it/its in english, so i finally added elu/delu to my portuguese pronouns :3

anyway, i ate lunch around noon and had the last corn dog with the last grape poppi T^T i watched some youtube while i ate and then decided to finally jump back into pixel cat's end adventuring since i hadn't done one since candlelight ended (i may have burnt myself out during candlelight just a little bit). i watched about half of davis morgan's new video while i adventured, and then got in bed for a bit to read. i'm now up to 61% of anatomy of an alibi, i am enjoying it but the taking a break really messed me up a bit when there's so many characters to remember and the timeline jumps back and forth T^T i laid down for a bit when i was done reading, intending to take a nap, but i didn't end up getting any sleep. precious laid on top of me and i took these silly pictures of her, she was completely sprawled out x3 i didn't want to move her but i eventually did because i really wanted to get up.

after getting up, i decided to do what i planned to do days ago and start running a few of my tamagotchis; i went with my paradise and the gen2 a friend sent me a while ago that i've yet to run before yesterday. i'm not going for any specific tamas, just taking as best care of them as i can and seeing what they turn out to be! the best care options are meowtchi, mametchi, leopatchi, or furawatchi on the paradise depending on which young i get, i'd really like meowtchi so i might cheese it just a little bit and make sure i get the roar young x3 and for the gen2 the best care tama is i believe mimitchi, who is one of my favorite tamagotchi characters, so i'd love to get her, but we'll see since i'm not the best at getting perfect care tamas for the gen1 and gen2 >_<

my mom came home not long after i got the tamagotchis running so we could head to church. church went pretty well this week, and i'm glad since the service went about fifteen minutes over the usual time it ends... we only had three kids and they were pretty well behaved, and they spent about half the class time entertaining themselves by playing a game x3 on the way home i got taco bell for dinner and my grandma got the same thing i got, i'll have to ask her today if she liked it. when we got home, i ate my burrito and watched a youtube video, then mostly just sat around for a while and went to bed around midnight.

something i forgot to mention in my last post, i made a tumblr blog specifically for posting littlest pet shop! the url is lpscraft and it currently only has a few posts but i'm enjoying it so far :3 i've been very into lps recently if that's not obvious from my last few posts, and i didn't want to flood my main blog or my plushies blog too much with lps content, so lpscraft was born. i honestly have way too many tumblr blogs but i can't get myself to delete any of them >_< i have my main which is for basically everything fandom related plus general yapping, my alterhuman blog, my plushies blog, my age regression blog, my very dead nsfw blog (hashtag just asexual things), my blog for archiving english dub dialogue in enigma of fear which is also very dead because i haven't touched the game since march and never finished the playthrough for it, an ask blog that's... also a little dead, my petz blog, and now lpscraft. literally who needs nine tumblr blogs besides a crazy person. oh, and i haven't opened petz since july so that blog is currently a bit dead as well. eventually i'll get back into it...

good morning, today is my birthday! i woke up at about 10am and took a shower then cut my nails, and that brings us to now at 10:30am! last night i did a few things for my birthday; i changing my twitter and miau layouts to put a silly birthday hat on my profile pictures, and i opened a few pixel cat's end business cards and bought some little custom accessories to put on precious for the day since she's still my avatar cat. i think she looks adorable T^T one of my business card cats was very aptly named gift, which i think is cute as well :3

i don't really have any plans for the day besides dinner at my grandparents' tonight. i think right now i'm going to do something i thought about last night, which is going through all my older littlest pet shops and looking them up on ebay sold listings to see if any of them are particularly valuable. do i plan to sell any of them? not really. but i'm just curious if i have any that are worth something :3c update, i didn't get through all of them but i did make sure i got all of the cats and dogs; as expected, most of them aren't worth more than 10$, though a few have sold for as much as 30-50$... great dane #817, shorthair #1023, and dachshund #518 are the ones i looked up that were on the more valuable side. honestly, i'm considering trying my hand at trading, especially for pets i have doubles of.

i ended up looking at littlest pet shops for... much longer than i meant to >_< i'll probably make a wishlist sometime soon and maybe very hesitantly attempt trading! after i finally closed the lpsmerch website, i made a baked potato for lunch and watched some youtube while i ate. i think i'm going to adopt the webkinz codes i've been holding onto from a sale months ago today, but right now the servers are down so we'll see if i end up being able to do that. i have a colorblock monkey i'm going to name pixel, an earthly fox i'm going to name ivy, and a floral fawn i'm going to name violet. i may also buy myself another pet or two since i have about 22.5k estore points stocked up.

it's now 1:30pm and i don't really know what to do with myself... i considered playing minecraft, but my computer has been running the fan all day without opening heavily modded minecraft, so maybe i'll wait until tonight to attempt that x3

update, i ended up getting in bed with the intention of taking a nap, but i never got any sleep T^T it's now 3:30pm and i think i'm going to play minecraft afterall! i think i'm going to just decorate my house in creative... so, the internet went out halfway through me writing this paragraph and i never came back to finish it after it came back on x3 because the internet was out, i ended up reading instead of playing minecraft. which is good because i read a few chapters and then my mom came home and it was time to go to my grandparents' for dinner. dinner was homemade pizza, mine had mushrooms, black olives, bell peppers, and jalapeños on it and it was so, so good *^* the cake was orange flavored cake with orange flavored frosting, and it was just as good as i thought it would be :3

even though i didn't do a whole lot and the only gift i got was a bottle of root beer (in reference to an inside joke), i had a pretty good day. tomorrow we're going to get the minecraft crumbl cookies! i'm excited, and hopefully we can do a little bit of shopping too so i can get at least one real birthday gift before monday >_< i've recently discovered mirrormi dolls, which are maybe the prettiest playline fashion dolls i've ever seen. i've never really owned dolls outside of plush dolls or the rarely played with barbies i had as a kid, but as a teenager and adult i've grown an interest in fashion dolls despite not owning any; i couldn't tell you how many times i've been super close to buying myself an american girl doll or monster high doll, it's actually shocking i still don't own any. all that to say, if i see a mirrormi doll in store... she's absolutely coming home with me. the doll i want the most (shai) is exclusive to target unfortunately, which i don't believe there is one where we're going tomorrow, but i honestly like the entire doll line and would gladly get any of the others if we ended up at walmart and they had them. i guess we'll see!

anyway, i'm currently waiting for my phone to charge and then i'm going to bed. while i wait i'm just going to watch some youtube. goodnight <3

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i love littlest pet shop

2026-09-02T01:56:30Z

yesterday i slept in a bit until around 11am, and spent the first hour of my day just sitting around before eating lunch at noon. i went back and forth on what to eat but decided to have my leftovers from lunch on sunday so they wouldn't be left in the fridge until they went bad, which is a terrible habit i have. i watched this video while i ate, and it made me once again want to do something similar; not shock myself with a shock collar necessarily, but just try and use my phone less often and maybe giving myself some positive reinforcement if i do it successfully, ie letting myself buy something expensive i've been wanting or doing something fun if i keep my screentime below a certain amount of hours for however many days in a row. when i attempted to do a challenge with my mom of who could spend the least amount of time on our phone, i was keeping it below thirty minutes most days for a week, so i know i can do it :p that challenge didn't amount to anything though, my mom decided it was unfair because she has a job and she can't compete with me if i'm not even cracking an hour every day... which i guess is true but also i was annoyed that i didn't get my promised reward >:(

honestly, i think i need to try something like this soon, because my screentime has been crazy recently. my average this past week was over eight hours. i have been spending a lot of time on social media and fighting a relapse with [redacted] (refer to my locked entries, i did delete my account and the app again yesterday though so hopefully i can actually stay away from it this time), so it's not surprising. i really need to just delete everything from my phone and try to only use social media on my computer to see if that helps at all, but i genuinely think nothing is going to change for good unless i completely replace my phone with something that can't run these apps i'm addicted to. i refuse to stop using a smartphone while it's still perfectly reliable, but once my iphone finally kicks the bucket, i'm considering swapping it out for something more "dumb" or basic. the problem though with not using a smartphone is that so much of our world and society is digital nowadays. payments, event tickets, everything you could think of really is being done mostly digitally now, which makes it difficult or sometimes even impossible to do things if you don't own a smartphone, because the common idea is that everyone on earth owns one so not everything has an alternative option. i also have pretty severe social anxiety so just the idea of not having that simple easy way of doing things stresses me out a little. i don't know, i wish i could go back to like the late 90s or early 2000s and be an adult then instead of now, i'm tired of social media and the internet being so overly accessible, and the rampant takeover of ai doesn't help in the slightest.

anyway, rant aside, after lunch i decided i really needed to get back into reading. the book i had been reading for over a month when my libby hold expired, anatomy of an albi by ashley elston, was available for me to borrow again much earlier than anticipated, so i decided to say screw it and just pick it up where i left off instead of dnf'ing yet another book. unfortunately, i don't think it's possible at this point for me to hit my 30 books goal for the year unless i start reading one book every single day ;3; i'm five books behind my goal / only halfway into it and it's now september... it's not happening T^T but i refuse to let myself stop reading all together just because i won't reach the goal i set, i got my break and it's time i start locking back in >:3 i was telling my mom how far behind i was in my goal and she said i needed to start reading children's books x3 i will not be doing that, but i might read the doll people sometime soon... it was one of my favorite books as a child and i still have my childhood copy!

i ended up not reading after all, it was 2pm by the time i finally pulled out my kobo and... it was completely dead T^T so i put it on the charger and decided to do something else instead. however, i felt so tired i ended up just getting into bed instead of actually doing anything productive ;3; so much for staying off my phone i guess...

i stayed in bed until about 4pm, and ate some potato chips and watched gabi belle's new video after i got up. after i finished gabi's video, i decided it was finally time i do something other than sit around doing nothing and finally opened minecraft so i could start working on decorating my house. my mom got home not long after i logged on though, so i didn't end up getting anything done >_< instead i read a few chapters of anatomy of an alibi and then had a burrito bowl for dinner and we watched nine to five while we ate. it was good and really funny! it's the first movie i've watched since early june, i've been slacking so much...

after the movie was over i pulled out my older littlest pet shops and started cleaning them. i've been carrying lps with me basically every time i leave the house lately, and i'd like to branch out from my generation 7 pets, so i decided it was time i clean up the older little guys so they're presentable to be carried in public x3 i have around 100 lps, so i didn't get through all of them; i cleaned about 20 pets and then went to bed around 10pm.

today i woke up at 11am and started my day by doing the trash like i do every tuesday, and took a shower afterwards. after my shower, i got right back into cleaning lps since they were taking up space on my desk. thankfully, all most of them needed was a good scrub with a wet rag and they were looking much better, but i ended up throwing a few away (thankfully no overly valuable pets) because they definitely had mold on them ;3; i was worried about the mold spreading to my other pets even after being cleaned, so i decided throwing them away was unfortunately the better option. the ones that i threw away were also pretty nasty looking even outside of the mold though, so at least they weren't otherwise in good condition, or i probably would have tried to save them.

by the time i was done cleaning my pets, it was 1pm, and i was starving T^T i had an earth grown butter chickpeas and veggies over jasmine minute rice for lunch, it was so good <3 i also picked out which lps i was going to keep with me for the day, and went with persian #1027 and beagle #77. i think the beagle mold is absolutely adorable, i hope they eventually bring it back for generation 7!

it's now 3:30pm, i think i'm going to get in bed for a bit because i'm really tired T^T when i get up i might play minecraft or tiny bookshop, or do some reading :3

please act surprised that i did not do any of those things... i got up for a bit but ended up just sitting at my desk doing nothing before getting back in bed ;3; i finally got back up around 7pm when my mom was home from work and we had grilled cheese for dinner, mine had american cheese, tomato, and ranch ^-^ it's 8:15pm right now and i'm not sure what to do, everything i think of just feels kinda meh :/ i think when i go to bed i'm going to start working on switching my phone layout for autumn, even though it won't be autumn for another few weeks; i need to start manifesting colder weather, i'm sick of it being 80+ degrees every day x3

i ended up taking a second shower because i was feeling really hot and i just sat in the floor of the shower and played with littlest pet shops :3 now it's about 10pm and i'm going to bed. goodnight <3

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it's officially my birthday week!

2026-08-31T02:17:33Z

yesterday i woke up a little early for me lately at 10am, and i started my day by taking the shower i didn't take on friday. my mom had a bible study and i considered going with her because it was at a coffee shop i haven't been to yet, but i was up late as usual and didn't feel like getting up to take a shower at 8am... while i waited for her to get back home so we could go to clean the church, i played some more minecraft and got the roof and front of my house done. i think it turned out really cute! as mentioned in my last post, i was a little worried the block palette i'd chosen would end up clashing, but it didn't, i think it actually looks really nice together!

before cleaning the church we made a few stops, first to this little bakery thing that had popsicle shaped cake pops! i got the sprinkle one and it was really good... it was covered in those little ball sprinkles (i forget what they're called) and had confetti cake inside :3 after that we stopped at the orchard since this is probably the last week for nectarines and my mom is addicted to them x3 our last stop was taco bell so i could get lunch, but it was more like a snack because they put beef on my burrito again... good thing i got a fiesta potatoes i guess T^T i listened to bad omens the whole time i cleaned, and we headed home around 4pm and stopped back at taco bell to get me a new burrito which i ate for dinner.

basically as soon as we got home cellbit went live for the new ordem paranormal announcements, so i watched that, and oh my goodness... i love this stupid rpg so much it is not funny. one of the announcements was a halloween special, i absolutely loved the 2024 christmas special so i'm really excited for the halloween one! the players i'm personally hoping for are bagi and lorena, but there's a lot of other past players i'd love to see as well. the other announcement i'm very excited about is! enigma of fear dlc! i don't think i've ever really talked about it here, but i've played that game three times and it is seriously maybe my favorite video game in existence. it was actually the whole reason i got a gaming laptop and was the very first game i bought on steam! the dlc comes out in january and i could not be more excited or impatient for it x3 the other announcements from the live were a new rule system for the rpg (which is cool but i don't play rpg myself) and a new merch store! i am hesitant to be excited about the merch store, i'll try not to get my hopes up until i know for sure if it'll ship to the usa >_< i really, really hope it does, i've wanted ordem paranormal merch for years but have never been able to get any because of the merch site they use not shipping outside of brazil. i guess we'll see once it opens!

after the live, i went a little crazy over it on social media for a while, then watched youtube while i finished my burrito, and when i was done eating i opened minecraft yet again to finish my house :3 i got the entire thing built, it just needs decorated! i don't think i'm going to follow the decor from the tutorial since i want to decorate with modded furniture and stuff. i was feeling a bit sick after playing minecraft, probably motion sickness from building, so i decided to go on to bed even though it was only 8pm.

today was a pretty busy sunday as usual. we went to church in the morning and i once again spent the whole service doing murdle puzzles :p i think i'm starting to get a handle on how to complete the medium difficulty ones, even if i do have to look at the hint for a lot of them. i really like the ones that have alphabet ciphers or require me to do similar puzzles before completing the actual main puzzle itself. after church we ate at a local(? i think? i won't say the name just in case) restaurant and i had a spinach artichoke dip flatbread with french fries. i didn't eat much but it was really good, and i have leftovers i'll probably eat tomorrow or even tonight if i get hungry x3 i also had a diet pepsi to drink and we had pretzels as an appetizer that were also really good!

when we went home my sister was home to do laundry. we took the dog for a ride and listened to part of olivia rodrigo's new album, i hadn't listened to it yet myself but i liked the songs we listened to on our drive. when we got home we played some jackbox 6 and 4, i absolutely loved the survive the internet game in jackbox 4. i also learned how to cast my laptop to the tv which is cool, i'm not really sure when that'll come in handy outside of playing jackbox but who knows >_<

during the evening church service me and my mom were in the nursery, i love being in the nursery because not only are there cute babies and toddlers, but also the church service seems to go by much faster. i felt like i barely did anything except hold a baby for the last ten minutes, otherwise i was kinda useless, but we only had three kids including the baby who spent most of her time in a baby chair, so it's not like it was a lot of work anyway. after church we stopped at aldi to get a few groceries, i got a few earth grown packets, some cheese, potato chips, and dried apricots. i've really been wanting some unsweetened dried fruit so i was happy to see the apricots were unsweetened :3 i liked the dried tangerines when i had them in the past, but they were so sweet it felt like eating candy and they had an insane amount of added sugar on top of the natural sugar already in the fruit. we also stopped at wendy's for dinner before we went home and i got a cheese fries and a diet orange cream soda.

when we got home we played some more jackbox before my sister had to head home, and now i'm writing this blog post at about 10pm :3 i'm currently waiting for my phone and watch to charge and then i'm going to go to bed. i don't have any real plans for tomorrow but i'd like to play some more tiny bookshop and jump back into minecraft so i can actually decorate my currently empty house. i think i might also finally use this singular button battery i have left and start running one of my tamagotchis, probably the connection or the gen1, because i think it would be fun to be running one when we go out for my birthday on monday. at some point this week we'll hopefully be going to crumbl so i can get the minecraft cookies they have this week, i'm so excited :3 i haven't had crumbl in years and all the flavors sound like ones i'd like, plus they're minecraft themed! anyway, goodnight <3

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lots of minecraft

2026-08-29T01:29:23Z

yesterday i spent my day mostly just sitting around doing nothing x3 i woke up around 11am and messed around on social media for a while before eating lunch. i had nuggets with ranch i mixed with taco bell fire sauce, it wasn't very spicy but it still tasted good :3 after lunch i played some more homestead minecraft, i wish i could say i successfully built a house, but... that didn't happen. i did get two cats though, and i upgraded my backpack with the jukebox upgrade so i could play the discs i got ^-^ i officially have two large chests completely full of junk, so i absolutely need to start building a house next time i log on before doing anything else. last time i played homestead i used almost exclusively vanilla materials for my house, so this time i'd really like to use more modded stuff, even if it's just different colored wood.

after minecraft, i did some more just sitting around, and i played termo on miau (which is basically just their version of wordle) for around an hour after i realized i could play it in english. honestly, i'd probably be just as good playing it in portuguese because one of the first words i got was cupel... literally that is not even a word. i refuse to believe that is a word in the english language. cupel??? wait, i want to see if i can get one in portuguese, i'll be back. okay i did two and got them both, maybe i'm goated and also fluent.

anyway, my mom texted around 3:30pm saying we were having dinner at my aunt's house, so i went ahead and got ready to leave and walked over to my grandparents', but... no one was home >_< so i went back home and sat around for a few hours (mostly playing games on miau to pass the time, i finally got the docinho title!) until my grandma texted that she was ready to leave. dinner was chicken and potato wedges, the potato wedges were good but not as good as they usually are :/ we also had brownies and ice cream for dessert, which was really good, i ended up eating a second brownie before we went home x3 when we got home, i had to charge my phone before bed, and i watched some youtube until it was fully charged and went to bed around midnight.

it's currently a little after noon and i just got up for the day. i was awake for a bit this morning but ended up going back to sleep. i think i'm going to start my day with some "breakfast" (lunch) and then probably jump back into homestead minecraft to finally build myself a house! i saw a tweet last night that said something about "playing minecraft by yourself is fun for about five minutes" and there were so many replies and quotes agreeing... do people really not find singleplayer fun? i play singleplayer more than anything and i love / honestly prefer it, even as someone who doesn't like to build a whole lot. so many of the quotes and comments also talk about feeling scared or paranoid playing singleplayer which reminded me of that youtube video saying peaceful mode is "terrifying" x3 i just find it all very silly as someone who prefers playing on both singleplayer and peaceful, i can't imagine ever considering it scary. don't get me wrong, i do love playing minecraft with friends and i do wish my friends were available to play more often (especially on java which is the main version i play nowadays but no one owns a computer anymore), but i find singleplayer very cozy and fun and it baffles me that so many people apparently think it's boring or even scary.

oh, something i forgot to mention, i saw the blood moon eclipse last night! it wasn't as big and bright here as it seemed to be in the photos i saw my friends posting unfortunately so i couldn't get a photo, but it was still really cool to see and i'm glad i went out to look at it! even if it felt a bit silly to be standing outside in the dark by myself at 1:30am x3

it's now 2:30pm and i have yet to open minecraft... i had spicy nuggets with ranch for lunch, then i opened miau to see they're shutting down the web version next week... which is very upsetting because the app is only available in brazil ;3; i've really been enjoying miau and i'll be really sad if i lose access to it so soon after joining. i'm really hoping it'll be put on the usa app store, but only time will tell if that ends up happening T^T i honestly might send a message to their official account just to try my luck and see if they have any plans to bring the app the the usa app store, i'll miss it that badly if not >_< anyway, i'm going to finally play minecraft now x3

update, i played for around an hour but decided to quit before i even finished gathering the materials for my house. i decided to build this house and i'm making it out of modded pink and purple wood! i really hope it turns out looking nice :3 i also plan to decorate it with lots of modded furniture ^-^ it's almost 4pm now and i think being awake half the morning is getting to me, i'm really tired... so i think i'm going to get in bed for a bit, i probably won't sleep but i just want to lay down for a while. when i get up i think i might take a shower because i need one, and depending on what time it is, maybe do something offline. i feel like all i've done the past few weeks is play video games >_<

i didn't end up taking a shower, my mom got home around 5pm and i had buffalo cauliflower and sauteed veggies for dinner :3 it was good, but i wish the cauliflower was spicy, it was more of a sweet flavor. we watched nation's dumbest while we ate as has become our routine. it's currently 8:30pm and i am... very tired. i honestly might go to bed as soon as my phone is charged. for now though, i think i'm going to open minecraft again and continue working on gathering the materials for my house, and i'll probably wait until tomorrow to start building ^-^

it's now 9:30pm and i'm about to go to bed, i started working on my house but i'm afraid it's not going to turn out looking how i wanted ;3; i'm using painted purple planks / stairs for the roof but i think they're just a bit too bright, plus the mauve logs aren't purple at all and i think it's going to clash with the rest of the build... i don't know, i'm going to finish the exterior tomorrow and if it looks too bad i'll just replace the roof and maybe strip the mauve logs, and if it still looks bad, completely rebuild >_< oh well, i'm going to bed now. goodnight!

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i really like miau!

2026-08-27T01:55:49Z

yesterday i started my day by taking the trash out and up and then taking a shower as i do every tuesday. i woke up around 11:30am and got started around noon. before i did the trash though, my build a bear arrived a whole week earlier than the estimated delivery date! i waited until i was finished with the trash to open it. she is so cute! i wasn't lucky enough to get a pattern with a clear bat on the face, but that's okay, i'm still very happy with her, plus she does have a bat on each arm and one on her butt :3 i don't care too much about patterns, so even though i might wish for something specific, i'll always be happy with whatever i get! since i didn't order her with any clothes, i put her in the happy birthday shirt i got a few years ago so she wouldn't be completely naked x3 i can't wait to go into the store so i can get her a scent and a proper outfit!

after doing the trash and unboxing my new kitty, i ate two corn dogs for lunch and then started tiny bookshop. i played the first eight or so days, and then quit to get in bed for a while because i had a pretty terrible headache again. i probably would have stayed in bed longer if my phone wasn't dying, but i got up when my mom got home at around 5:30pm. my mom said echo isn't as cute as my other kitties D: it made me a little sad, i think they're all super cute ;3;

when i got up i spent some time messing around on miau and made this picrew :3 i'm really enjoying miau, it's nice to have a space where i can practice my portuguese and be surrounded by posts in portuguese, it really does help a lot and feels very reminiscent of what i liked about 2024 bluesky. maybe one day i should write one of my blog posts in portuguese like i'm writing a weekend essay in high school spanish class... it would probably be the shortest post i've ever written, i don't feel like my fluency is anywhere near high enough for that x3 what i really need to do is get back into truly studying the language, i've had multiple resources bookmarked for ages that i haven't touched in forever and social media can only teach me so much ;3; it's so annoying that we don't live in a world where i can just take a pill or something and implant a language into my brain, it's 2026, we're well past when this should have been possible >_< honestly, i probably could be fluent by now if i actually stuck with studying like i should, i've been learning off and on for about three years now.

even though i had a headache, i decided to play some bettermc! i realized i could just... add mods myself, so i added peaceful hunger ^-^ it's basically the only mod i consider a requirement when i'm playing in peaceful mode, i hate that vanilla disables your hunger depletion in peaceful and i've hoped for years that they would at least add a toggle that lets you turn it back on T^T i ended up not playing for very long, i think i just wasn't built for this modpack... it just feels very bloated with content to the point it doesn't really feel like minecraft, even when i'm playing in peaceful and don't have to worry about monsters. i enjoy large modpacks, obviously i do since my favorite is homestead, but i don't know. maybe i just prefer ones geared more toward a cozy experience. i might play some more minecraft today and either load up my vanilla world or start fresh in homestead.

i ended up getting back in bed for a bit before dinner because of my headache, i think i said this in my last post but i really hope i'm not getting sick again ;3; dinner was a baked potato, sauteed veggies (squash, eggplant, and zucchini), and corn. i don't eat corn very often at all, maybe once every few months at best, but it was pretty good :3 i ended up going to bed not long after dinner at around 9:30pm because i was just so tired.

today i got up around 11am and mostly just sat around for the first hour of my day. i needed to do laundry so i finally got up and did that at about noon, and i searched for something to eat for lunch but nothing sounded good ;3; it's now almost 1pm, i considered playing some tiny bookshop but i think i'm going to start that new minecraft homestead world instead :3 i'd really like to have a world i play on for long enough to complete the entire quest book, so that's going to be my goal with this world!

i played for a while and basically just ran around and looted structures the whole time, i think i do know where i'm going to live but i just haven't settled down yet. i ended up with an inventory and backpack full of junk so i really do need to settle down sometime soon x3 it feels a little boring to live in a plains biome on a modpack like this, but i just love how easy it is to build on and it's right by a river, and finding water is half the reason i spent so much time exploring >_< the goal next time i log on is to decide exactly where i'm going to live and start building a house and a farm! after i logged off, i finally ate a "lunch" of bear fruit rolls and chester's fries... not the greatest meal but i couldn't find anything else x3 i got in bed for a bit after eating and it's now 4pm.

i really hope my clothes are dry before i need to get ready for church, i already feel like i'm cutting it a little close T^T honestly, after last week i'm afraid of how church is going to go... hopefully the kids aren't anywhere near as wild tonight as they were last week, that was the longest hour of my life ;3; i just checked after the dryer stopped and thankfully my clothes are dry! i'm glad i don't have to worry anymore about whether they'll be dry in time ^-^

i'm getting really impatient for going to build a bear >_< all i want is for echo to have an actual outfit and a scent! i'm also excited to possibly get a second bear, and it's more difficult than i anticipated to try refraining from spending money until we go... i have an impulse buying problem T^T i'm tempted to also get some kind of pajamas set when we go, just something that will fit all my bears so i can swap it for their everyday outfit when i want to sleep with them. all my kitties have either overalls or skirts that aren't very comfortable to cuddle with when i'm trying to sleep. but again all of that depends on what's in stock when we go and honestly how much money i feel like spending in total x3 either way, i'm just excited to go and celebrate my birthday, as much as i dislike getting older i will always love doing fun stuff to celebrate it :3c

hello again at nearly 10pm :3 church thankfully was a lot easier than last week, we only had three kids and they were pretty well behaved. on the way home i got (act surprised) a taco bell grilled cheese burrito and nacho fries for dinner. i watched laura rae says' newest video while i ate, and i'm not sure what i'm going to do until i go to bed. my phone still needs to charge for a while so i think i'll just watch some more youtube until it's charged, and i'm going to go ahead and post this now ^-^ goodnight!

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i have a headache

2026-08-25T01:16:18Z

yesterday was pretty boring as sundays tend to be. i was up late yet again and really didn't want to go to church T^T but i went, and i basically spent the whole time doing murdle puzzles. i've finished all the elementary puzzles and moved on to the occult medium difficulty, it's definitely harder... but i'm still enjoying it ^-^ i did feel like D: when i saw the ciphers at the beginning though x3 after church we ate at bob evans for lunch and i got potato soup and a grilled cheese with a diet pepsi, and i also got a slice of banana pudding pie to take home, which i ate before going to the evening service :3

after lunch, we had to go to walmart, and i went to look at the toys as always. they'd finally had a restock of toys, and they had the like nastya designed littlest pet shops! they also had series 6 blind boxes and the warrior cats series 2 blind boxes, but i decided i didn't need to spend too much money when i'm wanting to get a second build a bear, so i only ended up getting two of the like nastya littlest pet shops, and i got two cats! the whole collection is really, really cute so i would've been happy with any of them, but i was still extra happy that both were cats x3 i had never heard of this little girl before this collab, but honestly her designs are better than basic fun's...

something i did on saturday night is i joined yet another social media platform, miau! i was talking about how i missed being on bluesky in 2024 during the brazilian twitter ban because it was rare for me to see posts in english and nothing was automatically translated, so i was essentially forced to interact with posts written in portuguese without immediately translating them, and one of my brazilian friends mentioned miau was made by brazilians and that they thought i would like it, so i joined :3 it's... been slightly difficult to get into just because the website has issues and the app isn't available in the usa. i can't upload photos, so i also can't fully customize my profile, which is a very big draw of the platform. but i am trying to use it and i'm also trying to post exclusively in portuguese to force myself to practice writing in it! here is my profile for anyone who might happen to be on miau, hopefully soon i can actually finish my profile and maybe even use the app instead of the buggy website >_< update, not long after writing this, i could finally upload photos and got my profile completed ^-^ i think it turned out really cute!

all i did before evening church service was i took a short nap, got up and watched a bit of youtube, and ate my pie. after service we went straight home, i ate leftover domino's pizza for dinner and a twix bar as dessert :3 i really considered playing a date with death before bed, but i was so tired already at 9:30pm that i decided to go ahead and go to bed instead of sitting up any longer; i didn't even finish the youtube video i was watching x3

today i woke up at about noon, and ate lunch not long after waking up. i had spicy nuggets with the last bit of my diet coke from the other day, and it's now a little past 1pm. i think i'm going to light my new candle, eat the last bit of my twix bar, and start my first replay of a date with death! i think i'm going to do the two bad endings before the marriage ending, just so i can end it on a good note x3 i'm also going to use the second bad ending (since the first one ends on day three i believe) to try and get the dead roots and eavesdropping champion achievements.

update, it's 4:30pm and i've just completed the game :3 i did a lot of speeding through dialogue and stuff, since a lot of it was exactly the same, but i enjoyed seeing the other endings. honestly, i think ending 2 (which i got in my first playthrough) is still my favorite. both bad endings made me a little sad, especially the second one T^T good game, and i'm now considering getting the dlc... maybe when the autumn or winter steam sale rolls around, i'll use it to buy dlc for a few of my games. i'd like the beyond the bet dlc for a date with death, plus our life's expansion and wedding dlcs, hello kitty island adventure's city town dlc, and cult of the lamb's woolhaven dlc. i definitely won't be buying all of these at once unless they happen to all be extremely discounted, but those are all the ones i want. i've been wanting to buy the dlc for our life for ages, i need to just do it...

anyway, i think i'm going to get in bed for a bit and maybe take a nap, i have a bad headache... i pray to god i'm not getting sick again, i do not want to deal with that ;3; my candle hasn't melted all the way across, but it's pretty close and i don't think i should burn it longer, so hopefully it won't start tunneling like the others T^T

i laid in bed for quite a while but didn't end up getting any sleep. i still have a headache but i might just go to bed early tonight. it's currently almost 6:30pm, and i'm itching to start another game... i think i'm going to play pockedate, which i've just realized is called pockedate and not pokedate >_< it seems to be a fairly short game (2 hours for completionist according to howlongtobeat), plus it's one i'm really curious about. i did spin the game wheel again and got tiny bookshop, i'll probably start that tomorrow ^-^ i'll probably update on pockedate once i've finished it!

100% it in 85 minutes! a short game but i enjoyed it :3 it's definitely more "shallow" i guess you could say and not as spooky as doki doki literature club, but it was still fun to play. i would recommend it, it's free and quick, i'd say it's worth giving an hour or two of your time. getting all the endings did feel a bit repetitive at times, but the little differences were really cool!

it's now 8pm, my mom is bringing home dinner for me and i think after i eat i might go to bed, i still have a headache since i didn't manage to take a nap earlier ;3; since i'm getting closer to getting through all my unplayed games, i've been thinking about what i'll play after... i think i'm just going to once again put everything (all my unfinished games) on a wheel and try and put at least an hour into whatever it lands on each day. and i'm going to include games i didn't really like because i want to give them another chance instead of letting them rot in my library forever and ever with 45 minutes played >_<

ironic to say this here, but recently i've been wondering if i don't put way too much of myself on the internet. between this blog, my personal website, and my social media... it's way too easy for someone to know everything about me and maybe if they're serious enough about it, find out where i live. my digital footprint isn't exactly small... i put so much of myself online because it's hard for me to be myself or feel understood offline, as silly as that feels to say when i'm a grown adult and not a fourteen year old; i'm transgender and gay and i live in a pretty conservative area and don't have any friends in real life. i don't know, i love being online and i love this blog, but sometimes when i take a step back and think about just how online i am and how anyone in the world can see what i'm posting, it makes me start to feel really paranoid and like i need to delete everything i've ever put the internet, which i'm sure isn't possible. granted, i imagine this blog isn't read by more than five people, if it's read by anyone at all. going back to what i said about posting a youtube video the other day; even though that isn't my intention with wanting to post on youtube, i've always dreamed of being a content creator since i was like thirteen. but the idea of it terrifies me because again, i have a huge digital footprint and put so much of myself online. becoming a content creator no matter how small is just opening myself up even more to weirdos on the internet, and i feel like if i did do it i would have to first delete as much of my current and past online presence as i can, just in case. it sounds silly because i honestly don't have any plans of becoming a content creator, so the fear is completely irrational, but still. recently i've kept getting the urge to delete all my old twitter accounts and maybe even other social media like tumblr or instagram. i've had so, so many social media accounts and a lot of them are still up, and it makes me super anxious thinking about the things i could've posted and don't remember that could easily be traced back to my current accounts and used against me in some way. ugh, i'm just getting paranoid now, i need to move on...

my food is here so i think i'm going to post this, eat, and go to bed. sorry to end it on such a negative note T^T goodnight!

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yapping and more yapping

2026-08-22T23:39:22Z

i slept until 1pm yesterday and then still didn't get my day started properly until 2pm... i was getting a little woozy by the time i went to make lunch T^T i had a corn dog for lunch and was going to have goldfish crackers too but they ended up being expired and stale ;3; basically right after i finished lunch sneeg went live doing react content which i love to watch from his youtube and rarely catch the streams, so i decided to watch and do some pixel cat's end adventures. my mom texted around 4:30pm asking about dinner and we got domino's, i got a wisconsin 6-cheese pizza with garlic sauce and a diet coke :3

i watched sneeg and did adventuring until my mom got home, and then we watched the new episode of nation's dumbest while we ate dinner. i said i'm going to find a way to become a celebrity so i can go on celebrity game shows x3 forget the money and fame, all i care about is being able to be on silly shows like that :p which is a funny thing to say because i absolutely do not perform well under pressure and have a lot of anxiety being in front of a camera and/or crowd, i'd probably be the worst game show contestant ever...

oh, something i completely forgot to mention i did on thursday is i finally ordered my build a bear bat kitty! the estimated ship date is september 1-2, so it's possible it'll arrive on my birthday :3 i also ordered it through my actual account this time, so i should have 100 points for a 10$ credit, which will be great for when we go in to get her stuffed and get clothes. i used my birthday coupon online so i could get essentially free shipping. i really wish it wasn't 10$ shipping across the board, i'm sure that's great when you're making a big order, but all i ordered was an unstuffed bear... 10$ for shipping is so much T^T oh, well... i just looked because i realized i didn't check before placing the order and i did in fact get her stuffed... that's fine i guess, at least i'll be able to carry her around before we go x3 although at that point i might as well have gone ahead and gotten her a scent and clothes online, the whole fun of going in-store is getting your bear stuffed! anyway, i've already decided on a name for her, echo! like echolocation because her pattern is bats :3

also, i think i've decided on a second full-sized bear i'm going to get if i end up getting one: the werewolf! it's just so cute and the more real life photos i see of it, the more i want one. i think the enchanting kitty is super cute too though, so it really just depends on what's available in our store when we go and which one i end up liking better after seeing them in person. i have seen a lot of people say the werewolf has really nice quality and soft fur, which i always love. i could also end up falling in love with a non-halloween bear and not getting either of these, or getting nothing extra at all x3 either way i really want to get a bipedal bear, i love my kitties but their sitting posture and fat little bodies means they can't wear most pants and dresses, so i really want a bear that can wear any kind of clothes. speaking of clothes, i'm kinda thinking of getting either the school uniform or the plaid skirt set for echo. the gift set of the bat kitty wearing the school uniform is so adorable T^T but i also really love the plaid skirt set and since the bat kitty is black and white, i don't have to worry about clothes clashing with her fur. as for scent, i've seen a few people say the spider legs scent smells pretty good, it's meant to smell like fruity candy!

slightly related (i'm kinda just yapping about anything right now, this post is going to end up super long at this rate...), i'd really like to start taking my monchhichi out more often :3 i love her so much and i think she's the cutest thing ever, but i rarely take her out with me for some reason. usually when i take a plushie with me it's one of my build a bear kitties. monchhichi is much easier to carry around than a build a bear, so i honestly don't know why she doesn't go out more x3 also, i realized the other day that she and my baby fuggler both don't have names T^T i really need to name them but i can't think of anything that fits. i think i'm going to go ask some random tumblr mutuals their thoughts x3

anyway, i spent a good chunk of the evening just kind of sitting around on my computer, i considered playing some more a date with death but decided against it, and i went to bed at about 9:30pm.

today i've spent the first few hours of my day doing... a whole lot of nothing? it's currently 10:30am and i've been up since 8:30am (i know, crazy) but i have literally nothing to show for it >_< i honestly might get back in bed soon even though it's already late morning, i was awake until about 4am so i haven't had much sleep. my only real goals for the day are to play some more a date with death and maybe some minecraft, take a shower, and preferably do something offline like coloring or diamond painting. i'll also probably go ahead and make echo's name bracelet like all my other kitties have.

oh, i got name suggestions for my monchhichi and fuggler! the ones i liked were lainey or ophelia for the monchhichi and kip for the fuggler, i think i'm going to go with kip for the little guy but i'm really stuck between the other two or even doing something else entirely. honestly, looking at her right now, she does look like an ophelia... i don't know, i'll probably see if i can find some more names i like and think on it for a bit; she's gone this long without a name, what's a few more days or weeks x3

okay, i've sat around for another half hour, time to make echo's bracelet then play some a date with death :3c

3pm update, i made the bracelet and played a few days of a date with death before going to walmart with my mom. i got a new box of tylenol because i was completely out, a twix candy bar, and a new candle! the candle is a mainstays spring honeysuckle scent, i haven't burned it yet since we just got home but it smells so good <3 i'm going to try to be a slightly better candle user with this one and try and keep it from tunneling so i don't have the same issue i did with my fiji white sands one. i also need to find something i can use for a lid because unfortunately none of the small ones had lids and i don't want it to get dust in it T^T i was a bit dizzy by the time we left walmart because all i'd eaten so far in the day was a pack of the bear fruit rolls, so i got taco bell for lunch ^-^ i also took my monchhichi to walmart with me, and we saw the biggest sweet potatoes ever x3 i think i'm going to try finishing a date with death since i think i only have a few days left, and then i might play some minecraft, i was having a lot of fun with the vanilla world i've been playing but i think i want to start a brand new bettermc world instead, i haven't played modded for a bit and i never really got into bettermc the way i did homestead.

i successfully finished a date with death and, um... i am not immune to dating sim anime boy propaganda. i will just leave this screenshot here. nothing else to say really.

as for minecraft, it took me ages to settle on a world spawn i actually liked, but i finally found one and played for a little while on peaceful. i ended up finding a really cute tiny house to live in as my starter home :3 i know bettermc isn't made with the cozy gamer in mind, but i can't believe it has over 400 mods and not a single one of those mods is peaceful hunger T^T i really need to just buck up and make my own modpack, but that's so much work, even if using the curseforge launcher would make it a little easier... i do kinda miss my elquackity herobrine mod, i can't lie...

anyway, it's now 6pm so i think i'm going to go take my shower now. not sure what i'm going to do after, maybe start replaying / achievement hunting a date with death. my first playthrough took less than three hours so i think i'm going to try to 100% it before moving on to another game since it shouldn't take too long. i am going to go ahead and spin my little wheel again though :3 i got pokedate!, which is kinda funny since i was just saying in my last(?) post that i was excited to play it after realizing it's a horror game x3 i've intentionally refused to look at anything regarding this game except the store page, i want to go in completely blind! hopefully it's as good as i'm hoping it'll be ^-^

update, i took a shower and then ate spicy nuggets for dinner. it's only 7:30pm but i feel sick so i'm going to just go to bed early. i probably really shouldn't go to bed this early but i don't care >_< goodnight!

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i unsurprisingly played some more video games

2026-08-21T02:00:51Z

yesterday i woke up around 11am as has become my routine, and i decided to start my day by finishing tell me why! i successfully finished it around 2pm and decided to eat lunch, i had spicy nuggets with ranch :3

i'm going to spoil tell me why so if you don't want spoilers... skip this paragraph x3 i really liked this game a lot, more than i expected to. i went with tom's version of the event because it seemed like the more plausible truth considering everything like the barn loft and how mary-ann did everything she could for tyler and alyson. she clearly cared for both of them and i think her harming tyler wouldn't make any sense, even if she was struggling with mental illness / substance abuse and the fear of losing her children. of course, i felt really bad about how that choice affected alyson, who already felt guilt over mary-ann's death and now believes she killed her mother for no reason. it's all just very sad and emotional ;3; i also chose not to tell eddy the truth about alyson killing mary-ann, so i got tyler's epilogue. oh, and obviously i had no choice but to kiss michael :p i have 10/30 achievements i missed, i'll probably have to replay most if not all of the game for those unfortunately, but i think i'll do that another time instead of worrying about doing it before i play something else. hopefully a replay won't take quite as long though since i can just skip cutscenes and don't have to obsessively interact with everything x3

pausing to spin the wheel and see what i'll be playing next... a date with death! this game seems to be more similar to our life than other dating games i've played, aka you have one specific love interest rather than a pool of different routes to choose from. it also has a pretty nice amount of character customization features from what i can see on the store page and it lets you play as any gender, which is always nice when dating games typically lock you into being a woman (i'm looking at you, mystic messenger). i think the game that does this best that i've played is definitely our life, not only can you choose your character's appearance, name, and pronouns, but there's also scenes where you can explicitly choose whether your character is cis, transgender, or intersex, and where you can choose what their body looks like. i believe the clothing options are also not affected by what gender and pronouns you choose, which is very cool :3

honestly, i'd really like to replay our life eventually, i loved it so much when i played it and even got hyperfixated on it and would spend hours and hours playing it every day x3 cove is one of my f/os as well, i may have gotten a little attached to him... that game is also pretty cool because while it is pretty romance heavy if you choose to go that route, you can also choose to be just friends or even be completely indifferent toward cove the entire time, which i think is interesting. i unsurprisingly went all in on romance, so i'm curious to replay and see what changes when you choose to be friends or indifferent. the game is fairly long though for a free game, i played it once and have over 15 hours of playtime, so we'll see when i end up feeling up to a replay.

after lunch i have zero idea where most of the next few hours went? i finally cleaned off my desk, it's had a giant mountain of trash and random stuff on it for ages but it's finally clean! hopefully it stays that way and i don't end up piling a bunch of stuff up again T^T here's what it looks like now, so much nicer :3 i took a shower when i was done and then it was somehow 5pm... i decided to get in bed and attempt to take a short nap before church because i was absolutely exhausted for some reason.

church was... oh boy. i was already tired and had a headache before we even got there, but i really think those kids were wilder than they have ever been. we had five kids and it felt more like a full classroom of 30. granted, four of them had went back to school yesterday, so that probably explains it, but i really thought class would never end... when we got home, i ate dinner (leftover Pepper Slop) and then went straight to bed.

today i've just woken up a little before noon. okay so i wrote that singular sentence and it is now 1:30pm x3 i had pepper slop yet again for lunch, then went digging through my old main account tweets looking for something specific that i didn't find and just retweeted a bunch of random stuff instead >_< i don't really feel like playing a video game today, though i might still play a date with death in the evening if i feel up to it. right now i'm not really sure what to do instead... i've spent so much time the past few weeks playing video games i've forgotten all my other hobbies x3

i ended up digging through my clothes and found a couple skirts i haven't worn in ages, i need to wear them before summer is over and it gets cold again! they're kinda short though >_< one is a pleated jean skirt i honestly don't know if i've ever worn, it's really cute... maybe i'll wear it when we go out for my birthday or something :3 i also have a pair of jeans that i'm pretty sure are from last christmas and have never been worn because they're way too long T^T we should be going to my grandparents' for dinner tonight so i'll probably take them over and ask if my grandma can shorten them so i can finally wear them.

it's currently 3:30pm and i feel like i've done a whole lot of nothing today T^T but... i'm so tired i think i'm going to lay in bed and stare at my phone for a while... i don't really feel like doing anything else right now ;3;

8pm update :3 i ended up sitting around until my mom got home, and then we went to my grandparents' for dinner. i took the jeans for my grandma to shorten, i can't wait to be able to finally wear them ^-^ for dinner i had mac and cheese (with hot sauce) and sauteed veggies, and a grape gatorade zero to drink. i'm usually not a grape flavor kind of person, but this gatorade is actually really good. something else i did before going over was burned my fiji white sands candle for probably two or three hours, i was hoping it would fix the tunneling but it didn't ;3; the wick was too short so i poured out the melted wax when i was done burning it, hopefully now the tunneled part will melt? i don't know, i'm not a very good candle user >_< i think i'm actually going to try burning it for a while right now to see if that fixes it, and i'm going to start playing a date with death! i'd honestly really like to get a new candle, i'd especially love a woodwick one but those are so expensive and i don't think i've ever seen a small one, which i would need because my desk is so small. maybe next time we go to walmart or somewhere i'll try and find one :3

oh, something i realized while i was looking at my unplayed steam games earlier, pokedate is a horror game! i really thought this whole time that it was just a regular dating sim, but no... now i'm eager to play it, i really liked doki doki literature club and this seems pretty similar in the horror visual novel sense ^-^

update, i played the first two days of a date with death, i didn't think i was going to like it at first but it's already growing on me! the grim reaper is actually pretty cute... he even has an axolotl plushie x3 it'll probably be very easy for me to fall in love with him, it usually is when i play dating games :p i think i'm going to go to bed now, it's 10pm and i'm getting very tired. goodnight!

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ough ough g oughhg

2026-08-19T01:31:37Z

yesterday i woke up honestly pretty early for me lately x3 i was awake until 5am, but managed to get up at 11am for the day. i started my day just messing around on social media, switching between sites and checking the pixel cat's end forums, before eating lunch at around noon. i had the last two strawberry uncrustables and the rest of the shirley temple soda i had with dinner the night before. after lunch, i decided to go ahead and start endacopia ending c, and i ended up finishing the entire thing! it was definitely a bit more spooky than the other two endings, or maybe i just felt that way since i'd essentially played the game the exact same way three times x3 the boss fight for this ending was really hard too, it took me quite a few tries... it might not have taken quite as many tries as the ending a boss fight, but i'm not sure. my favorite ending is definitely still ending a, i love a cute and happy ending, especially with a child protagonist <3

after finishing endacopia, i decided to get in bed for a bit. it was already 4pm and i was tired after being up all night, even if i did get a normal six hours of sleep T^T i laid in bed until around 5:30pm and took out the trash then watched cellbit's live for around an hour and ate some flamin hot fries as a snack :3 they're yummy but i feel like they've gotten spicier since the last time i had them, i was sniffling so much and drank half my cup of soda so fast >_< i think i've accidentally trained precious to equate the sound of a trash bag with being able to go outside, she could be dead asleep but if she hears a trash bag rustling she's at the door immediately and meowing to go out x3 it probably doesn't help that i tend to let her stay outside while i take the trash out and up if she gets past me, but she's never run from me or disappeared or anything, so i don't worry about letting her be out for just a few minutes.

anyway, when i got bored of watching cellbit i decided to start tell me why ^-^ i played for 2.7 hours and finished chapter one! it's pretty good so far, there really is so much i don't remember from watching gameplay x3 the over the shoulder third person pov and 3d graphics are definitely much different than i'm used to with most games i play, the controls took some getting used to. i like the story so far even though some things really hit extra hard as a trans person myself... according to the choices ratio i mostly picked the same as most other people, but i did fail at getting information about mary-ann out of tessa, i think because i forgot which month so i got that one wrong ;3; i'm not going to go back and replay anything in my first playthrough because i want it to be all my first choices, but i might replay once i'm done for achievement hunting purposes and seeing what else i missed. also, the background art in this game is beautiful! it lowkey makes me want to visit alaska x3

i ate dinner while i played, my mom made scrambled eggs with cheese and avocado english muffins. very yummy and i ate some lemon loaf cake as a little dessert :3 it was about 9:30pm when i quit tell me why so i decided to go ahead and go to bed because i had a headache... i don't know if it was because of staring at my computer all day or from using earbuds, but it was not enjoyable T^T i did have to charge my phone and watch first though so i just messed around on social media while i waited and went to bed around 10:30pm.

today i woke up at 11am and started my day by starting a load of laundry. tuesday is trash day so i wanted to make sure i had some clothes clean before i did the trash so i could take a shower after like i usually do :3 i ate lunch around 12:30pm, some nuggets with ketchup and the rainbow sherbet popz i mentioned in one of my recent posts. it's really good but i can't exactly pinpoint what it really tastes like? my mom said cotton candy but i don't taste that (plus i don't like cotton candy flavor and i do like this). it's just a good sweet flavor x3 something else i need to remember to do today is put away the dishes... i'll probably do that after my shower. so basically my current plan is wait for my clothes to dry, clean the litter boxes and take up the trash, take a shower, and put away the dishes.

it's now 3pm and i just finished putting away the dishes, it's actually ridiculous how exhausting that is for something so simple T^T i think i'm going to get in bed for a bit because i'm pretty tired and everything i consider doing that's not staring at social media just feels like too much work. hopefully i don't fall asleep for hours like i usually do >_<

it's 5pm now, i ended up sleeping for about an hour and laying in bed for another hour. i'm going to go ahead and start chapter two of tell me why, i'm not sure if i'll get it finished before dinner but we'll see, i did eat dinner while i played yesterday so x3

i successfully finished chapter two before dinner ^-^ this game is really emotional especially as a trans person myself, but i'm really enjoying it. it's honestly making me want to try life is strange, i've never played it mainly because it's so different from the games i usually play, but since i've been enjoying tell me why i think i could enjoy life is strange as well. maybe i'll get it next time it goes on sale, and if i like it enough i'll probably play before the storm and life is strange 2 :3 the other three games seem to have pretty mixed reviews and they're expensive (40$, 50$, and 60$) so i'm not sure if i'll play those ones T^T i remember watching gameplay of true colors, but i don't remember anything about it, unfortunately, and i didn't even know the other two existed...

dinner was pepper skillet bowl, so yummy as always :3c it's 9:30pm now, and i think i'm going to once again have an early bedtime ^-^ goodnight!

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endacopia ending b done!

2026-08-17T02:46:47Z

yesterday i once again slept in way too late, i didn't get up until 1:30pm T^T we had to clean the church, so i didn't do a whole lot for most of the day because i was waiting for us to leave. i messed around on social media for a while and then ate lunch, tortilla soup with an orange cream flavored popz, around 3pm, and did a few pixel cat's end adventures after. we finally left to go to the church around 4-5pm, and got home around 8pm. i got a taco bell grilled cheese burrito and nacho fries for dinner with a wendy's diet orange cream soda to drink. very yummy as always :3 i watched this video while i ate, i found it really funny because the guy really looks like a gay mr. beast x3 which is funnier since so much of his content is begging for money or wanting women to flirt with him, kinda the opposite of a gay man or mr. beast... i finished the video after dinner, and then decided to start my ending b playthrough of endacopia!

i can't decide what i want to play after i finish endacopia. i think i might genuinely just put all my unplayed games into a wheel and spin it because i have quite a few of them and i have no idea what to play next. most of them are free dating games so i'll probably end up playing a dating game x3 here's my list of unplayed games if anyone cares: dark nights, a date with death, the deed, the deed: dynasty (i'd probably play both of these one after the other, especially if i enjoyed the first one), graveyard keeper, killer chat!, pokedate!, tell me why, and tiny bookshop. the only ones of these i know anything about are tiny bookshop because i played the demo, and tell me why because i watched ranboo play it years ago. i don't really remember anything at all about tell me why though, so it'll still be a basically blind playthrough x3 the rest i'll be going into 100% blind! eventually i should really start working my way through my epic games library, i have so many free games and i've only played a couple, one being jackbox >_<

my main goal when starting my endacopia replay was getting the footwork master achievement; i managed to get up to a score of 70 on my first run, but ended up giving up after spending what felt like an hour trying and failing to reach 100. i'd seen a few guides on how to cheat it by using an autoclicker of some kind, but that felt like too much work so i was determined to get it on my own x3 and i finally succeeded after about 35 minutes of trying! it was difficult and annoying but i'm proud i was able to do it :p for anyone who might see this post and also struggle, what helped me was actually focusing on the score number instead of the ball or mellow! something about counting the number as it went up really helped me set and keep the rhythm i needed. i also got the natural brawler achievement, that one i did kinda cheat by just fighting the cat wizard over and over since it's probably the easiest fight in the game. after getting that one and doing a few things to start moving along in the story, i decided to go to bed around 11pm.

i was awake pretty late (definitely past 2am), but it was easier than i expected to get up for church this morning x3 i stayed in the nursery while my mom sang in the choir and one kid dumped all his baby puffs on the floor and then was eating them off the floor >_< i considered staying in the nursery but i ended up going back out to church since they didn't really need two kids and three adults. i did sudoku puzzles during church, i really need to get a new puzzle book... sudoku is fun but i'm getting a little bored of it T^T i wish i could take my murdle book but it's big and bulky and definitely wouldn't fit in my backpack ;3; honestly, i miss having a word search book, that takes a lot less brain power than sudoku x3

after church we both really wanted to go home to take a nap so we ordered lunch from subway. i got the veggie delite (with no tomato and add mustard :3) and got it as a meal with two cookies and a pepsi zero to drink! i only ate half my sandwich for lunch and one cookie before getting in bed for my nap.

it's currently 8pm and i just got home from evening church service! i ended up taking my murdle book tonight after all and it definitely helped the service go by faster, plus it was fun :D i'm still on the easy puzzles, i think i'm on #12 or around there, i'm curious to see how much more difficult the harder difficulties are because sometimes i confuse myself with the easy ones >_< my plan for the evening is basically just eat dinner and then play some endacopia :3 i'd really like to finish ending b tonight but we'll see if i get that far. i really wish there were simple text walkthroughs to follow for this game so i could do what i did with my second run of oneshot and just speed through and not have to try and remember everything i'm supposed to do... i'll definitely have to follow a guide of some kind for ending c, hopefully i can find one that's easy enough to follow >_<

for dinner i'm having the leftover half of my subway sandwich and my other cookie from lunch, with a shirley temple to drink :3 it's another poppi-adjacent brand called slice? there's so many different brands of "healthy" soda x3 personally i don't know anything about how much healthier they actually are compared to regular soda, i just drink them because 1. i like low / zero sugar sodas and 2. i like how many different flavors they have. one of the popz cans i have is rainbow sherbet flavor! regular sodas just don't come in cool flavors like that, they're all the same few flavors T^T

10:30pm update, i finished endacopia ending b :3 it was... so much more sad than ending a ;3; again, no spoilers as the game is still pretty new so i don't want to end up spoiling it for anyone who might plan to play and hasn't yet. between the two i definitely prefer ending a, it was so cute and sweet and ending b made me sad T^T i'm very curious about ending c since it seems to be pretty different from the other two... i'll probably play that one tomorrow and that'll be endacopia completed! which will be pretty bittersweet because i've really enjoyed this game :'3

i think i'm going to go ahead and go to bed, i'm pretty tired. this post is really short and is mainly just me talking about the same video game the whole time x3 i guess my sunday posts tend to be pretty boring anyway and not doing much yesterday doesn't really help. tomorrow i think i'll play endacopia ending c as mentioned and i might start another new game if that doesn't take too long. wait, let me go ahead and do that putting my unplayed games on a wheel thing... and the winner is tell me why! i don't really play games with 3d graphics like that much at all, so i'm curious if i'll like it. it also looks like a game that's going to take at least two playthroughs to 100%, so we'll see if i end up deciding to 100% it before playing a new game or not.

hopefully my next post will be more interesting and varied in its topics, and hopefully i have some pictures to add as well! goodnight :3

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i finished oneshot :3

2026-08-15T01:19:19Z

yesterday i ended up doing a whole lot of nothing T^T first, i went to bed at about 5:30am, then i had to get up at 10am so i could sit in the living room and wait for my dad's package that required a signature... long story short, i sat around waiting for the package to arrive for a total of seven hours, and it didn't end up requiring a signature after all. in fact, they couldn't even bring it down to leave it on the porch and dumped it at the top of the driveway ;3; so 99% of my day was spent sitting on the living room sofa and watching random youtube videos on the tv while staring at my phone alongside it, and that was about it. i did have rose buldak for lunch around 12:30pm and took a short nap around 2pm, but otherwise i literally just sat and waited for a package i never had to wait for, after barely getting any sleep. not a very fun day to say the least T^T

backtracking to yesterday night, i successfully finished and 100% oneshot! it's such a good game, i really loved it :3 i followed a walkthrough on my second run since i was mostly just playing to get the second ending and the achievements i missed, and it's almost laughable how much less time it took than my first run x3 i thought the ending where the entity shuts you out of the game and the author leads you to the room where you return the sun was super, super cool! i also thought it was cool how the game acknowledges that you're replaying, especially with niko remembering things like the player's name. i wish more games utilized things like computer files outside the game, you don't see that much but it's such a cool mechanic and makes the game feel so much more immersive. i think i mentioned this in my last post, but i'd also like to play more games that acknowledge the player as an outside source. however, we are in a media literacy deficit at the moment and judging by how many deltarune fans apparently think the player is kris despite it being practically spoonfed to them that that's not the case, maybe we don't need more games like that...

anyway, after the package finally arrived and my mom got home yesterday, i decided i desperately needed an actual nap before dinner. i slept until 8pm before getting up for dinner and i honestly felt horrible T^T not sick really, just... bleh. but we had tortilla soup for dinner and watched nation's dumbest while we ate. i think i could've won this episode... i got all the true or false questions except one and i knew all the acronyms, and most of the final exam questions. too bad i'm not a celebrity or i'd go on the show x3

after dinner i showed my mom some tiktoks i'd liked just for her, then it was about 10:30pm when i went back to my room. since i had slept for around two hours and only woke up a couple hours before, i decided to not go to bed yet and instead play oneshot's solstice chapter! the solstice chapter i believe was added around a year after the game's release, and goes more in depth with the lore and characters, which i was very interested in since i really enjoyed the game. the solstice chapter was... so much more emotional and sad than i expected ;3; i felt so bad that i couldn't talk to niko outside of when the game gave me the option to, i wanted to explain everything to them at the beginning so bad T^T poor sweet baby, i'm so glad the solstice ending exists so i could give niko and all the other characters a good ending, i'm very happy with this ending even if it made me sad along the way <3 this game really is so good and i can't believe it took me until ten years after its release to play it!

it was about 1am when i was done playing, so i decided to let my phone charge and then go to bed. i basically just scrolled through social media while i waited, something else i did yesterday was delete twitter, tumblr, and reddit off my phone to hopefully keep me from doomscrolling so badly. we'll see how long it lasts; i'm not really doing it in an effort to stop using my phone or social media altogether, i just get sucked into the endless scroll so easily, especially lately on twitter. i'll probably let myself use the mobile site to access them, as i'm much less likely to get sucked into that scroll outside of the app, but we'll see >_<

today i somehow managed to sleep until almost 2pm... granted, i did wake up around 10:30am and go back to bed after feeding the pets and taking the dog out, so i guess it's not that shocking... either way, i slept my whole day away after already not doing much of anything yesterday. this might be yet another super boring blog post.

after finally getting out of bed, i started by checking my social media on the computer since i'd deleted it from my phone. i responded to the few comments and dms i had before finally adding the last few fanlistings i joined to my website. i'm officially a part of fifteen different fanlistings ^-^ hopefully now that i've joined fanlistings and webrings my website is easier for people to discover and it gets a bit more traffic than it was before. it's far from the fanciest or prettiest thing in the world, but i really love my website so much and i would never go back to before i had one! i absolutely recommend having a personal website to everyone, it's so worth it and i think my site is proof enough that if you really commit to it you can overcome the learning curve it takes to make one when you're new to coding :3

it's now almost 3pm, i'm going to eat lunch and then take a shower because we have my great aunt's birthday party tonight :3 for lunch i'm having leftover tortilla soup, with red white and blue flavored popz to drink and cookie dough bites for dessert :p the tortilla soup this time isn't quite as good as it usually is, it's usually one of my favorite foods but it doesn't have enough chili powder and is a bit too tomato flavored this time ;3; popz is basically the aldi version of poppi or olipop, the red white and blue flavor tastes just like a melted bomb pop popsicle x3 and the cookie dough bites are of course very good because cookie dough is always good!

something i've really been thinking about doing lately is making a youtube video. i've been wanting to try out beta minecraft and i think making a little video out of it sounds like a lot of fun :3 but i don't usually like recording my own voice and i know absolutely nothing about video editing, so it would be a big step out of my comfort zone with a learning curve on top of that, so i'm hesitant to do it... i'm always saying i wish i recorded myself playing video games so i had documentation of my reactions to different things, maybe i need to just bite the bullet and try it, and if i don't like it oh well >_< it sounds really fun and i would mainly be doing it for myself and maybe my friends. i have attempted twitch streaming before and that was pretty fun when i did that even though i only did a few streams; even though you do have to edit the videos and upload them, youtube seems a little easier and less stressful since i don't have to 1. rely on having friends available to moderate my chat and 2. keep talking the entire time which i am very bad at. i think my dad is on his way home right now, but maybe next time he goes out of town for work and i have ample time home alone i'll try out recording a video playing beta minecraft and see how it goes :3

it's 4:30pm now, the birthday party is at 6pm so i'm not sure what to do with myself until i have to get ready in less than two hours... now that i've finished all three video games i bought last week i feel like i have nothing to do x3 maybe when i get home tonight i'll either jump back into minecraft finally or start achievement hunting endacopia. i also need to replay papers please for the last achievement in that game, i think that's what i'm going to start right now ^-^

just got home from the party at 9pm! it was a nice party, and the cake was so good *^* it was a homemade vanilla cake and i had it with strawberry ice cream ^-^ i think now that i'm home i'm going to continue my papers please replay and hopefully finish it? and depending on how long that takes i may or may not pick up endacopia as well. i'll probably be up pretty late since i slept in so late today, so why not x3 i'm going to go ahead and post this now, i really need to get back into adding more photos to my blog posts... but that's a little hard when i don't leave the house at all for a week T^T anyway, goodnight!

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the power went out for a whole day

2026-08-12T21:48:42Z

i didn't end up finishing endacopia yesterday night because it was pretty late while i was playing and then the power went out... playing a horror game while in the pitch dark and dead silence made me super paranoid so i had to quit and go to bed >_< i'm such a paranoid person, i only like horror in the daytime x3 when i watched marble hornets a few years ago (which i should really rewatch soon, i love it so much), i wouldn't walk home from my grandparents' house alone because i was paranoid of the operator being in the woods and that it would get me... grown adult by the way. i truly don't think i would ever survive living alone, i'd constantly be asking people to come over just so i wouldn't be by myself to appease my paranoia.

anyway, since i didn't finish it the night before, i planned to finish it yesterday not long after i woke up. i woke up around 11am though, so i decided to wait until after i'd had lunch, and just kind of messed around on social media and watched jamlabs' new video until it was lunchtime. i had rose buldak for lunch and then finished endacopia! i got ending a, no spoilers since it's such a new game, but the ending was so cute ;3; i really liked this game a lot, as mentioned i'm not big on horror but endacopia was such a nice experience, a great blend of cute and unsettling! i struggled a bit with the final boss fight but it only took me about five tries to beat it, so not too hard :3 eventually i'll play again to get the other two endings and the achievements, but this first playthrough took me eight hours so it'll probably be a while before i do that.

after finishing endacopia, i was so tired i decided to take a nap. i slept for quite a while and woke up around 6pm. after getting up, i really considered doing something like coloring or doing pixel cat's end adventuring... but i ended up starting oneshot instead >_< i was worried about the refund period and here i am finishing all three games in the span of a week x3 i'm not sure what i'm going to do once i finish oneshot and have no more new games to play... i might replay papers please to get the last achievement i need to 100%, then start playing tiny bookshop! i mentioned this in one of my last few posts, but i've owned tiny bookshop for almost a year now... i really liked the demo, so i'm not sure why it's taken me so long to finally pick up the full game after buying it.

i played oneshot for around two hours before quitting for dinner and because my sister was home. i had a baked potato for dinner and we watched my 600 pound life while we ate x3 i've never watched that show before but it truly fascinates me. i genuinely cannot comprehend how someone gets to that level of obesity without... i don't know, dying? the episode we watched most of the woman's weight was in her stomach and it literally almost touched the floor when she stood up... i can't imagine how painful that would be. it all just kind of baffles me, the amount of calories you have to be consuming in a day to not only get to but maintain a weight of 600+ pounds has to be insane, i just don't really understand how it's possible.

it's now wednesday as i write this in notepad on my computer, since i've lost the ability to write directly into dreamwidth... the power went out yesterday somewhere around 6-8pm, and is still off now at almost 1pm the next day. as of this morning, we have no estimated recovery time and for places like columbus the estimated time is friday... so we'll see when i end up actually being able to post this T^T

i can't remember the last thing i mentioned in what i was writing yesterday. i don't think i'd actually even finished what i was writing about monday, but i genuinely can't remember what else i did on monday either ;3; yesterday i woke up at about noon, and i started my day by doing the trash because it was storming in the morning and i needed to get it done in case it stormed again (spoiler warning: it did). i took a shower after, and then had rose buldak again for lunch. after lunch, i picked up oneshot again.

i don't think i mentioned before how much i like this game so far. i have had to look things up a few times already, but that's probably a me problem because i'm bad at puzzles and not a problem with the game itself. some things i really like are how the game uses things on your computer and how it does things like recognizes when you close and reopen the game and has niko react to it or talks to you directly through popups and the in-game computers. i thought it was so cool when it changed my wallpaper x3 and i love a game that references the player as an outside source from the character you play as, like deltarune and the player being the soul instead of kris, or even how undertale remembers your past playthroughs and changes things accordingly. i'd really love to find some other games that do this; as mentioned in one of my past posts i do believe off is a game that does this, i might have to buy it next time it's on sale.

i'd also like to play some more games that affect your computer or pull things from it, like kinitopet! i have seen entire gameplay of kinitopet though, both in streamer mode and the full version on youtube, so i'm not sure if it's actually worth playing myself since i already know everything that happens which will of course lower the effect of the horror. maybe i'll look it up or make a reddit post once i actually have internet again to see if i can find similar games >_<

anyway, while i was playing oneshot, the power went out. it was storming very, very hard and apparently there was a tornado that touched down not too far from our house, which is super scary. when my mom got home i went with her to pick up dinner and we drove past where the tornado went through, you could see its path through the corn field and the trees, and we even saw part of a roof up in a tree. for dinner we got wendy's and i got cheese fries and a cinabon pull-aparts with a diet orange cream soda to drink.

i planned to play some more oneshot after dinner, but it refused to open because it couldn't sync with steam cloud ;3; usually it gives you a popup saying it can't connect and gives you the option to open anyway, but it didn't do that for me last night, so i wasn't able to play. i ended up pulling my dusty switch out and finally picking up tomodachi life again! i didn't play for long because i got bored of it surprisingly quickly considering how long it had been since i last played, but my friend's mii finally confessed her feelings to cove holden only for my mii to interrupt. i really thought my mii was finally going to find love and it would actually be with one of my f/os... no. he chose her mii instead. my poor, poor miiself cannot catch a break when it comes to romance x3 on my qsmp island, cellbit has a crush on roier! which is pretty cute since they were a canon couple on the server, the only problem being that roier is currently sweethearts with pac, coincidentally after cellbit confessed to pac and roier interrupted... this poor guy is having about as much luck as my miiself is x3

i might play some more tomodachi life today and see if cellbit wants to confess to roier, i've only had a mii confess to another mii who was already in a relationship one other time and it didn't work out, so i'm wondering if it's possible for them to break up with their current sweetheart for someone else. i'd look it up, but alas...

i didn't do much else last night before going to bed, i did play a little bit of minecraft on my switch though when i couldn't sleep. i mainly play java minecraft, so i'm always so surprised when playing on switch just how long it takes to do Anything At All on console >_< even just turning and walking takes longer because of using a joystick, and don't get me started on doing things like crafting and building. it just feels so much slower which is why i'm very hesitant to ever be awake or in a cave when there are monsters i'll have to fight... i might end up switching into peaceful mode soon :p

today i woke up a little after noon. i'm home alone because my mom has gone back to work and my dad left for a work trip this morning. i'd usually be happy to be home alone, but currently it just makes the house feel even more silent and dark, and makes me feel even more bored out of my mind. not having internet is pretty annoying in itself, but everything offline i think "oh, i could do this" about requires light! i have no internet and no light and i literally can't do anything T^T even my computer i'm writing this on right now is getting a pretty low battery so it'll probably be dead by tonight or tomorrow, my phone is currently a brick because it's dead, and my switch battery i doubt will last much longer either ;3; so once i don't have any of those, i'm not sure what i'll do with myself since i don't have the light i need to do anything offline.

i'm getting hungry so i need to eat lunch soon, i'm going to have fruit because that's basically all i can have with no way of cooking >_< i'm very likely going to start my period today, i was supposed to start yesterday and i'm cramping pretty bad. i decided days ago that if i started yesterday or today that i wasn't going to go to church tonight, because the last thing i want to do on the first couple days of my period is work with little kids... but i might have to go either way just so i can charge my phone and be able to be online for at least a little while and eat some real food >_< if i do go, i think i'm going to take my phone charger with me so i can charge it during church so it'll hopefully be at 100% by the time we head home. i'm also hoping we'll actually stop and eat dinner somewhere instead of just picking it up and going home to eat in the dark again x3 i wish my laptop wasn't so big and bulky so i could easily take it to charge as well, but it's too big to carry into church and the thought of leaving it in the car for over an hour makes me anxious, so i think i'm just gonna have to live without it once it dies T^T

well, it's currently past 1:30pm and my battery is getting pretty low so i'm going to quit writing and go eat lunch, and after i'll probably play some tomodachi life and/or minecraft!

update, it's almost 5pm and the power has come back on! it's still raining, so it is possible it'll go back out, so i might go ahead and post this before i leave for church just in case >_< i'm very happy to have the power and internet back, you don't realize how much everything you do requires either the internet or light until you don't have either one... for lunch i had an apple and a peach, then i played a bit of tomodachi life and minecraft until around 3pm. i was incredibly bored after putting that down so i decided to finally try out the murdle book i bought months ago when we visited the book loft in columbus. the easy puzzles i've done so far are pretty easy and fun! i did that for around an hour and then i was about to sit down at my desk to figure out something else to do when my lamp came on and the rest of the house followed x3

my mom brought me home dinner, mac and cheese plus some waffle fries and hushpuppies from her own dinner, and a diet coke :3 it's 5:30pm now and i just finished eating, i'll probably have to get ready for church once i'm done writing this. i did start my period, but i decided i might as well go to church since i feel fine and i am starting to feel a little stir crazy being cooped up in the house for over a week. it started storming again though it's nowhere near as bad as it was yesterday, so hopefully the power doesn't go back out while we're gone T^T

something i forgot to mention about yesterday, waterparks announced their smaller shows tour and there's a show in ohio (specifically lakewood / cleveland)! i was sure i wasn't getting tickets, especially after the power went out, but i successfully got some last night when we went to pick up dinner, and i'm so glad i did because by the time the power came back on today the show had sold out. one of my closest friends lives in michigan and is coming to cleveland for the same show, so we'll be able to meet in person again! waterparks is how we became friends so it's so exciting that we'll be seeing them together <3 i currently do not have anyone to go with, hopefully my sister can go but if not i'll be asking everyone i know until i find someone who's free that night and willing to go with me >_<

i need to get ready for church now so i'm going to go ahead and post this! what i do after church tonight really depends on if we still have power when we get home... if we do, i'm going to play and maybe try to finish oneshot! if not, i'll probably play clangen or something until i get tired or my computer battery dies. hopefully we do have power though x3 goodnight in advance!

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playing my new games!

2026-08-10T02:46:58Z

yesterday i started my day around 11am, i didn't do much before my mom asked if i wanted to go with her to run some errands. i didn't get out of the car because of still being sick, but it was nice to finally get out of the house x3 we had to go to the ups store so she could return something to amazon, then to a clothing store so she could buy some pants, and finally to the orchard to get peaches. she also got a bag of apples, i'll definitely be eating some :3 we also got lunch while we were out. i think arby's is really the world's most misunderstood fast food restaurant, their white cheddar mac and cheese is so good *^* i got that and curly fries with cheese, with a coke zero to drink.

when we got home i wanted to play one of the games i bought on friday. i decided to start with toem, because it was the only one i hadn't had someone tell me they really liked it, plus i needed to play something more relaxing and cozy after paper's please x3 i ended up playing for... over five hours. i finished the entire main story, but it also has bonus content that i didn't get very far into before quitting to eat dinner. it's a really cute and fun game! you basically just go around taking photos of things and doing quests until you get enough stamps for a bus pass to move on to the next area, and when you get to the end you see the "toem" phenomena, which is kinda like northern lights? it's so pretty, here's a (spoiler, technically) picture of it ^-^ i definitely recommend playing it yourself if you like camera mechanics and quests! plus the toem is so much prettier in-game so my spoiler doesn't even do it justice x3 honestly, the game reminds me a lot of a short hike; the entire storyline in both games is building up to reaching the top of a mountain and seeing the beautiful sight at the peak, and you help other people along the way.

as mentioned, toem also has bonus content once you complete the game, which was a nice surprise i didn't know about :3 it's a whole extra level to play and do quests and take photos in! i appreciate that it's not a paid dlc, they could've easily charged for it but instead it was a free update that was added i believe around a year after the game released. i ended up 100%ing after dinner, and in total the entire game took me 6.2 hours, which i'd say is a pretty good amount of playtime for me to have gotten it for 2$ on sale! it's still on sale until the 14th, so if you think you might like it, i recommend getting it now! there's a sequel set to release at the end of next month, and i might just have to spend some birthday money on it after how much i enjoyed the first game x3

after playing toem, i opened twitter to talk about it to see that cellbit mentioned quackity on his stream?! for context, cellbit and quackity haven't interacted publicly since qsmp1 shut down over two years ago, and it was just kind of assumed they weren't friends anymore (plus a lot of cellbit's fans dislike quackity so the fandoms don't get along very well). i suppose a mention doesn't necessarily mean they are still friends, but it's at least nice to know they're not on bad terms x3 someone asked if cellbit had seen quackity at the streamer games he competed in, and he said he didn't because he wasn't there. i honestly don't know what i would have done if he was there and we got a real life interaction between them after so long... i'd probably have just fallen over dead, honestly. it's maybe better for my mental health that he wasn't there x3

i didn't do much else before going to bed, but i eventually got back out of bed because i couldn't sleep. it was storming and the storm knocked out the power not long after i got up, so i played some lifegen until going back to bed around 2-3am. i wrote little first person paragraphs about each moon, maybe i'll upload it somewhere but i'm not sure >_< my clan is called frozenclan and my main character is silverpaw. here's her profile because i think she's super pretty, i can't wait until she's an adult because i love the longhair sprite i used. my goal is to not abandon this clan like i do every other one and actually play until my mc passes away.

today i woke up feeling mostly recovered from my sickness, thankfully, though i still have a lingering persistent cough. i can't go more than a few minutes without coughing and the cough is so painful in my chest and stomach, it's awful T^T i better have visible abs by the time this is over... i didn't go to church, though i didn't plan on it either way since i still felt fairly icky yesterday and the last thing i want to do is get a young child or elderly person sick with what could possibly be covid. i'm honestly surprised i'm not feeling the restlessness a bit more considering in the past week the only time i've left the house was to sit in the car and do nothing x3 i suppose not being as sick as usual probably helps; i've actually been getting up and doing stuff every day instead of spending all day in bed. i'm definitely starting to feel it though, i can't wait to be fully recovered so i can reintegrate into society >_<

it's 10:30am right now and i just got up, and i think i might jump straight into another new game! i put a poll on tumblr last night asking what i should play next, because as mentioned i didn't really have a plan of the order i wanted to play them in, plus endacopia and oneshot have a similar runtime, amount of achievements, etc. so there's nothing to really point toward which will be quicker to finish. the poll currently has 75 votes with an 88% vote for endacopia, so i think it's pretty clear who the winner is... i'm really excited to play endacopia, i think i mentioned this in one of my other recent posts but i've had it on my wishlist since around a week before release, and it seems like a game i'll be really into! i'll update with my thoughts when i stop for a break!

so... it's now 5pm :D besides a lunch break, i played the whole time... over five hours... again... i like it a lot so far! for sake of knowing where i am in the story, i've already beat the ai and now just beat the trapezist. i can't decide if i want to finish it tonight, i have a feeling i'm getting fairly close to the end. i'm definitely not going to 100% it tonight, and i'm not sure if i'm going to 100% it before i play oneshot or not; it doesn't seem quite as easy to 100% as toem was. the low mouse sensitivity in that game is really messing with me after playing it for so long, i feel like my regular sensitivity is way too high x3 i love the trapezist's design, she reminds me of some other character from something else but i can't put my finger on who. i've been enjoying the horror elements, though i almost wish they were a bit more prominent? sometimes it's easy to completely forget i'm playing a horror game because nothing even remotely spooky is happening. and maybe that's by design of course, but i don't know. it felt a lot more horror focused at the beginning than it does now in the middle. as far as difficulty goes, so far i've had to look up just one or two things and both times i happened to be in the completely wrong place for what i was trying to do >_< i also really struggled to beat clocky for some reason, so i've been pleasantly surprised by how easy the boss fights have felt in comparison x3

i'm really tired and my throat is starting to hurt again (i will never know health again i fear) so i think i'm going to take a nap or at least just lay in bed for a bit, and i might play some more endacopia when i get up!

...i slept for around three hours somehow T^T it's now 10:30pm, i woke up around 9pm and ate a small dinner of nuggets with avocado ranch. i really want the last cheese hot pocket so i think i'm going to eat that, and then i'm going to jump back into endacopia! i'm at the point in my imprisonment aka illness that i'm not sure what to do with myself if i'm not playing a video game >_< it's probably pretty obvious in this post, but all i want to do all day is play games and especially with these shorter games it's so easy to get sucked in for hours and hours. but i suppose playing games is better than other things i could be doing with my time like doomscrolling social media, at least i'm having fun instead of getting angry at strangers x3

i'm going to go ahead and post this since it's so late, all i really plan to do before going back to bed is hopefully finish endacopia and maybe even get started on achievement hunting if that doesn't take too long. hopefully i'm not up too late, but considering what my sleep schedule has become and how long i slept earlier, i probably will be ;3; goodnight!

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still sick and suffering

2026-08-08T02:35:50Z

i woke up at noon yesterday, and decided to start my day with a shower. i'm starting to get really tired of being sick, especially having my nose run all day long, and i hoped a hot and steaming shower would help. thankfully, it did! at least for a little while... i really, really hate being sick, my mom always says i get man colds because all i do is complain and act like i'm dying x3 if you can't tell by my last few blog posts though, i'm not as sick this week as i usually am. i don't think i actually have covid either, last time i had it i felt like i was on my deathbed and i've been up and doing stuff every day so far. that doesn't make it any less annoying to be sick of course, and i hope i'm feeling better in the next few days so my suffering will finally end T^T i actually got sick around this time last year as you can see by my old blog posts, and i was sick again within a week after recovering... i hope and pray that doesn't happen this time ;3;

anyway, after my shower, i felt a little woozy so i ate lunch. i had another microwaved pizza... my diet really is terrible, i need to do something about that... the pizza was good though :3 i scrolled the build a bear subreddit for a bit after i ate, seeing people get the halloween drop is making me so jealous >_< the bat kitty looks so cute, i can't wait to get mine! if they have the spider when we go for my birthday, i can't guarantee i won't go home with one. i keep saying i want to get a normal bipedal build a bear so i can buy whatever clothes i want for it without having to worry about if they fit, yet the new ones i'm being drawn toward are the spider and the silly goose >_<

around 2pm i decided to play more sensuki! i ended up going with guapoduo for the ship, they turned out so cute :3 this game is pretty fun, though if i had to recommend it, it definitely wouldn't be at the full 17$usd price. it has some iffy content like noncon and apparently incest? but there's a filter to hide that stuff. it also very clearly was written in chinese and translated into english. if you can't get past poorly translated english, definitely pass on this game, it's pretty bad. i mostly like this game for the merch collecting and ita bag creating aspect, the poor translation makes it a little difficult to enjoy the main story or the fanfic writing too much. when i played on wednesday night, i had a racecar drivers story that took me ages to finish because it went through all 20+ races with basically the same thing happening every time. i saw someone say they use ai for the fanfics, but i don't think that's the case, because as i mentioned there's quite a bit of repetition that i can't imagine an ai would write. however, i do think it's more believable that ai was used for the english translation, as it is pretty terrible. i don't entirely hate ai translation, especially compared to using ai for the writing; obviously it would be much better to have humans translate so it's written better, but i think people are too quick to demonize ai translation when tools like google translate have existed for ages. i played for around an hour before deciding i wanted to take a nap.

i laid in bed for a while but didn't end up getting any sleep ;3; which was frustrating because all i want to do is sleep off this illness. i was starting to feel miserable at this point, i felt like i should've been starting to feel better since i'd been sick since monday, but instead i just felt worse. i wasn't coughing as much as on wednesday, but i was having terrible sinus pressure that was making my eyes hurt, plus my nose just would not stop running. being sick is actual torture.

i decided i really needed a distraction from how sick i felt, so i jumped back into papers please. i once again had to backtrack a few days after realizing i missed something; this time, i'd missed letting in the ezic agent on day 17. i'd also like to get the class 5 apartment achievement, but even with the easy mode crutch i'm struggling to afford class 6... not spending on food a few days helped me afford it, though. i ended up successfully getting two new achievements, republia token and hired rifle! apparently republia token is a rare achievement, i'm surprised this game has rare achievements considering how old it is...

after getting the hired rifle achievement, i logged off because my mom was bringing home dinner. i got (act surprised) taco bell, and we watched the new episode of nation's dumbest while we ate. we were both so confused by the challenge where they had to get four liters out of a three and five liters pitchers, it made us feels so dumb x3 we had to listen to the explanation three times before we both finally understood how to do it, i don't think either of us would have gotten it if we were on the show >_<

after dinner, since i hadn't done any all day, i decided to do some pixel cat's end adventures... but i ended up only doing one before going to bed T^T

good morning, guess who is still sick! what a shocker! i didn't cough much yesterday, but i'm back to coughing like crazy today ;3; my nose is still stuffed, but at least so far it isn't running. i'd prefer being able to breathe though >_< i just woke up at 11am and i'm so tired; even being sick, i don't think i've gone to sleep once this week before 3am. and i wonder why i'm not feeling better yet... i really need to start drinking something other than diet cola with my dinner T^T

my complaints aside, i get paid for photocards today >:3 tempted to immediately spend like half of it on build a bear and steam... i think i'm not going to buy anything besides the bat kitty from build a bear, and we'll see when we go for my birthday if they have any of the mini beans and other friends i was thinking about getting. i'm incredibly indecisive and i'm sure the decision will be easier once i've seen them in person. i've also added the werewolf to my "i want this" list... i wasn't super interested in it until i started seeing people on reddit get theirs >_< i need to leave that subreddit, it's so bad for me x3

it's currently 2pm, and so far i've mostly just done a lot of sitting around. i did eat lunch around 1pm, my last earth grown packet (pad thai). i'm starting to feel pms symptoms, which isn't surprising since i'm supposed to start on tuesday, but it's making me feel even more bleh than i already felt from being sick. if i'm not recovered by tuesday (i pray i am, it'll have been over a week by that point) and have to deal with being sick and on the first day of my period at the same time... you might see me on the news.

oh, i did get the payment for the photocards! i am now 160$ richer >:3 unfortunately it won't go into the bank until wednesday, i think i might go ahead and buy my steam games since only one of them will still be on sale by then. i don't think the bat kitty selling out online is something i'm going to have to worry about, especially for less than a week. i might eat these words, but that's for future me to deal with x3 i am going to attempt to finish papers please first before i buy the other games so i don't inevitably either abandon papers please completely or go past the 14-day refund period before trying out any of the new games. none of them seem like games i'll want to refund, but i'd like to have the option just in case.

i played papers please for a few hours and got every achievement except glory to arstotzka! i'm going to have to replay pretty much the whole game (at least days 8-31) for that one, so i'm not in a rush to get it x3 it was pretty difficult at times, but i really liked this game! it's a little... dystopian in how relevant it still is 13 years after its release, and some aspects definitely made me feel icky (which is of course the point), but it was still pretty enjoyable to play x3

because i'd successfully almost completed papers please, i decided to go ahead and buy those games i wanted today! and... steam's checkout is down. you cannot be serious T^T i haven't bought games on steam since december, and haven't put money in my wallet since october. what do you mean i went nearly a year without buying games and the day i decide to finally treat myself and buy some i physically can't check out. this feels very targeted and i am upset >:( while i wait for it to come back up so i can finally make my purchase, i'm going to watch ranboo's stream :3 they're watching all of the walten files which i haven't watched in quite a while and i haven't seen the new episodes, so i'm excited! i don't follow the series at all, so i'm not sure if the current season is like... completed? or if the whole series is completed? but i guess i'll find out :p

my mom went to the county fair with my grandma and aunt (and maybe some of my cousins but i'm not sure), i decided to stay home since i'm still sick, and i'm glad i did because it's storming and now i get to watch ranboo x3 she's bringing me home a fried cheese and a funnel cake :D i've wanted a fried cheese since before the fair started because we were driving past it and i was like "ugh, a fried cheese sounds so good..." then my grandma told me about getting a funnel cake for my grandpa and that made me want that too x3 i just talked about how i need to eat healthier and now my dinner is going to be a fried cheese and a funnel cake...

got my games purchased and downloaded! i might start playing one of them tomorrow if not tonight, depending on how long ranboo's stream is ^-^ i don't really have any kind of plan of which one i want to play first, so i might just put them on a wheel and spin it for real this time x3

something i forgot to mention, i've actually been feeling quite a bit better the last few hours! i'm still a little sniffly and coughing a bit, but i definitely feel better than i did this morning or especially yesterday. i really hope this means i'll wake up tomorrow or at least sunday completely recovered. i'll probably stay home from church sunday even if all i'm doing is coughing, i don't want to be coughing all through the service T^T i have started to feel worse again after thinking i was recovering in the past, so as much as i'm hoping for it, i'm not going to assume i'll be better in the next few days >_<

it's 10:30pm and ranboo is still live so i think i'm going to just go on to bed once their stream is over! i'm going to go ahead and post this now :3 goodnight!

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i beat minecraft!

2026-08-06T02:51:48Z

yesterday i woke up feeling even worse T^T i'm definitely sick, and the worst part is, it's probably covid... of course my dad who has somehow managed to never catch it ends up with it after one work trip and brings it home to me who had it multiple times during the pandemic. or, i guess, i assumed i had it multiple times. i took a positive test once and never took another test because i wasn't getting a stick shoved up my nose again. sometimes it really feels like i have the immune system of a baby, i always catch whatever comes into the house, even if it's something my mom brought home from school without getting sick herself ;3; i promise i'm vaccinated x3

anyway, i woke up at about 10am and decided to get up because my throat was hurting really bad and i needed a cough drop, which thankfully helped a lot. i was so excited like probably over a year ago to find blueberry flavored halls, i had a blueberry cough drop as a child and it actually tasted good so i'd been on the hunt for blueberry ones ever since x3 it's a huge bag and i just looked and they expire in january, maybe i should start handing them out like candy because i'm not going to finish this bag before then...

after sitting at my computer for a while, i decided i should probably go ahead and do the trash. i really didn't want to since i was sick, but i didn't do it the week before either, and going two weeks without taking it up when i'm supposed to start my period next week didn't seem like a good idea. i took the trash out and up and took a shower after, then started a pixel cat's end adventure i didn't end up finishing.

i'm starting to get bored of youtube, or at least my current algorithm. every video looks the same, sounds the same, is about the same subject. when i tried adventuring yesterday i started and clicked off of five different videos before giving up. maybe i just watch too much youtube in general and i've run out of good stuff that youtube wants to recommend me, but literally nothing seems interesting enough to watch lately. i scoured twitch for something to watch instead while i ate lunch (cheddar cheese ramen again), and watched someone casually building in minecraft :3 it was nice and kept my ipad baby brain entertained while i ate x3 it also made me really want to play minecraft myself, so i did that after lunch.

i ended up playing for much, much longer than i planned... it was past 5pm by the time i logged off >_< but! i did it! i beat the ender dragon in singleplayer for the first time ever! i did cheat quite a bit (by teleporting myself to the stronghold and giving myself items like arrows, plus turning on hitboxes), but i still beat her with my own two hands :3 i died a whole lot even though i was in easy mode and had enchanted netherite, and i learned that i am absolutely abysmal with a bow x3 it was still fun though, and i'm proud of myself for doing it! oh, that's another thing i did, got full netherite and enchanted everything! i also got a mending villager and may have given myself a bunch of emeralds to trade him so all my stuff has mending too :p now that i've beaten the game and have all maxed out gear, i'm not sure what my next goal is in this world... i really want a little horse, donkey, and mule family so maybe i'll do that. although it feels a bit silly for my goal after beating the dragon to be get a horse x3

i probably won't start until my mom goes back to work because she's usually using the tv throughout the day, but i think i might start rewatching bones soon. me and my sister used to watch it together every day when i was in high school :3 i've been getting so many tiktoks about it on my for you page, the algorithm is working overtime to convince me i need to watch it again and it's working... and apparently hulu has all twelve seasons which is very helpful x3 i'll be very shocked though if i end up watching even the entire first season, i'm really bad at watching tv and usually lose interest after a few episodes ;3;

for dinner i had an earth grown burrito bowl and all i really did before going to bed was do a few more pixel cat's end adventures. i once again got a business card because of my archaeologist... my luck has been so bad lately i could cry T^T one card every 23 runs is terrible and it's going to take me five years to get 100 cards at this rate. hopefully my luck improves soon and i start getting multiple cards in a row or even just less than ten runs between each card >_<

today i woke up feeling, you guessed it, even more sick. i'm coughing more and my nose is stuffed up, which might be the worst symptom of being sick ever. my cough giving me a headache doesn't help either ;3; i got up around 11:30am and decided to have a "breakfast" of strawberries and cream instant oatmeal. i'm not very big on oatmeal, i usually eat a few bites and am tired of it, but this kind is pretty good. plus it's not a huge serving which is nice as someone who doesn't eat much oatmeal. i didn't watch anything while i ate, just stared at twitter and started writing this blog post, which brings us to now at noon!

i'm not sure what i'm going to do today. i might jump back into papers please since it's been a week since i last played. i'm really itching to buy some new games, it's been a while (quite a while actually, december is the last time i bought anything on steam) and there's so many games that are new or new to me that i really want to play. in general i'd really like to play more linear and story based games. most of the games i own and play are sandbox, open world, and similar types, games where you kind of create your own story more than follow someone else's, or there's not a story at all. but then there are games i really love like deltarune, enigma do medo, or the last campfire that have actual stories to them. i want more games like that. the games currently in my cart are toem, oneshot, and endacopia. i'm not sure how much toem is really a story game, but it looks like something i could finish in a few hours like a short hike or turnip boy, both of which i also really enjoyed. it's currently on sale for 1.99 and the other two are also on sale, so maybe i'll cave and buy them before the sales end. endacopia i've already talked about, so i'll talk about oneshot x3 i've seen a bit of gameplay, but never the full game. it looks really cool from what i have seen, and it reminds me a little of undertale and deltarune with how you as the player are referenced in-game rather than just being the character you're playing as. i believe off is like that as well, it's in my wishlist but i'll probably wait until it's on sale to buy it.

if i do buy the games, i'll probably wait until friday to do it. the friend i sold photocards to is paying me for them that day, plus build a bear's halloween drop is tomorrow and i'd really like to get a bat kitty for my birthday! i don't know if i'm actually going to buy it tomorrow since i don't feel like it's as popular so far as the other kitties have been, but i'd rather have the money if i do decide to buy tomorrow than spend the money on games the day before. i think i'm also going to get the silly goose mini beans, it's so cute T^T i usually wait to buy clothes in-store anyway, so i can try them on and so i can use my birthday coupon, so why not spend some extra online on another little friend x3 honestly, i'd prefer to buy my kitty in-store so i can choose a pattern, but i planned to do the same with ghost kitty when i bought my pumpkin kitty, and they didn't have any (not like they were out of stock, there wasn't even a display). i would hate to wait to buy only to drive 1.5 hours and they not have her. i know i could call ahead to ask, but since it's for my birthday that's still a month away i don't know how i would do that besides calling once a week to make sure she's still in stock until we go. unfortunately i think my only option is to buy online to be sure i can get one T^T maybe if they do have some in stock i can buy one i really like and return the one i bought online x3

wow, i spent an hour writing two paragraphs. it's 1pm now, i think i'm going to play papers please like i mentioned! the goal is to finish the game (i'm currently on day 15 so only halfway) and get a few more achievements :3

update, i played for around an hour and managed to get one more achievement ^-^ i had to replay a few days for said achievement and i only got to day 17 so i didn't want to keep playing >_< i think i'm going to eat lunch now because i'm getting hungry, and i'm really tired so i might take a nap after. it's rainy and stormy which always makes me feel sleepy, and being sick doesn't really help.

i had a rosé buldak and diet cola for lunch then took a nap for around two hours. precious slept with me (i had been keeping her out of my room because of the whole pooping in my bed thing but i've decided it's fine if i'm sleeping because i miss her sleeping with me >_<), and when i woke up i carried her out of the bed and sat her in the sink while i used the bathroom, moved her to the toilet lid while i washed my hands, then carried her back to the bedroom and now she's laying on my lap x3 she's such a velcro cat, it's so funny. i feel extremely tired from sleeping so much today, i think i could easily go back to sleep... instead, though, i think i'm going to play some minecraft. after playing so many hours yesterday to beat the dragon, i need a short and calm play session x3 i'm going to do what i can to find a horse and a donkey!

i played for probably less than half an hour, i could not for the life of me find a donkey even after flying miles around the plains near my house, so no mule ;3; i did however find maybe the fastest horse i've ever had in minecraft... i named him racer :3 next time i play i think the goal is to make a little stable for my horse and his future family, and then i got a few more dried ghasts from trading with piglins so i might make an enclosure for those too and have a bunch of ghastlings instead of just bubbles! i feel bad that bubbles is tied down to my front door and isn't able to fly around freely, plus he has no friends T^T

i was looking at my steam library and there are a few games i'd like to pick up again sometime soon: wobbledogs, sensei i like you so much!, cult of the lamb, and cast n chill. i really liked all of these games, but i haven't played them in months if not close to a year. maybe i'll put all my incomplete games on a wheel and spin it every day to decide what i'm going to put at least one hour of playtime into each day x3 sensuki i might start over, i have my at-the-time main yumeship as the characters for the mc to write about, but i haven't been super into them lately or yumeshipping in general. perhaps i'll make a ship i like instead of a yumeship (even though that's the reason i bought the game), like guapoduo or something.

it's almost 11pm but i think i'm going to restart sensuki right now! i'll probably be awake pretty late since i've been drinking caffeine all day and took a two hour nap, so better to play a game than stare at nothing on my phone all night >_< i'm going to go ahead and post this though, goodnight!

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i might be sick

2026-08-03T23:35:32Z

as sundays usually are for me, yesterday was pretty boring. i went to church in the morning, came home and ate lunch (an earth grown burrito bowl), opened and tracked all my tan candlelight gifts, took an hour long nap, went back to church, came home and ate dinner (a microwaved mini pizza), and opened and tracked my blue, indigo, purple, and teal gifts. and that was pretty much my entire day, summed up in one singular sentence. i wish i could say i did more or that the day was more interesting, but the reality is that most sundays for me include going to church and sleeping (or eating out, if we don't go home between services) and not much else. after i decided to quit for the time being on my gift opening, my mom texted asking if someone had gotten her package, and i went up to the mailbox to see if it was up there. it wasn't, so i walked up the driveway in the creepy darkness for nothing T^T i went ahead and went over to my grandparents' where she was, even though i didn't have her package. i didn't do much besides lay on their living room sofa and watch tiktoks on my phone, plus be disappointed that they didn't have any potato chips i could steal x3

when we got back home it was 11pm, and i figured i could go ahead and open more ghost gifts since i was probably going to be up pretty late after drinking caffeine with dinner. i was really just excited and impatient to open the silver ones >_< i unfortunately didn't have a whole lot of luck as far as getting midnight gifts and wallets, i got three of each after opening 102 gifts. i did get a mustache clothing item from one of the midnight gifts and 2/3 of my wallets gave me crescent shore cards :3 i mainly use candlelight as moneymaker by selling my doubles of items (except decor which i sell all of) but i was really tired by the time i finished this at almost 1am, i decided to worry about selling today instead. after i was done opening all my gifts, i headed to bed.

today i woke up feeling sick, which is... not ideal, of course. my dad got back from a work trip to mexico last week and has been sick since, so if i am sick i probably got it from him T^T anyway, i got up around 10am and decided to have the acai bowl i got on our second walmart trip of the weekend for breakfast. it's definitely better from a coffee shop and made with fresh berries instead of frozen ones, but for 4$ instead of 10$+, i can't complain too much x3 it's the dole original acai bowl with strawberries, blueberries, and a topping of granola and coconut ^-^ i've never had acai with coconut, but it's pretty good! i only ate about half the bowl before deciding to put it back in the freezer because i was full.

i decided to sell all my candlelight stuff while i ate too, i started with 694,465 notes and finished with 718,846 notes, a profit of 24,381! i'm getting so close to one million :3 i have multiple cats i really want new art of, plus i've missed commissioning oc art, so i think once i hit one million i'm going to spend as much of it as i can in the art sales board ^-^

it's now somehow 11:30am? i'm not sure what to do, honestly. i don't want to just get back in bed, but everything i consider doing feels like too much effort when i'm feeling sickly. i think i'm going to give the cats their new flea collars actually, they really need them and i forgot about doing it yesterday.

after getting the cats' collars on, i went with my mom to the post office (her package was not there), then to family dollar on the way home to pick up some ramen bowls for my dad. he's turning into me only eating ramen every day x3 i did eat ramen for lunch myself, a cup of cheddar cheese maruchan, and drank strawberry soda, then ate the powdered donuts i got at family dollar as dessert :3 it's now around 1:30pm, i'm going to watch youtube and do some pixel cat's end adventures, then after i think i might take a nap because i still feel sick. if not, i'll probably play minecraft or something.

i ended up doing three adventures and then laying in bed until now at about 5:30pm. i didn't sleep, and instead used the time to start redesigning my main / original fursona! i've had her since i was fifteen, and before today nothing about her design had ever been changed, so she was due for a big overhaul. honestly, she's basically a whole new character now x3 i'm considering also changing her name... the only thing i really care about keeping is the fact she's half demon and one of her eyes is essentially just a void. it's always been her defining feature, and if i'm going to change everything else about her, that's the part that feels important enough to keep for me. i'd also like to give her a proper alternate design based on her demon side, just something more spooky than her regular look. i was thinking about having her normal eye change, possibly to some kind of glow or static, exaggerating her smile / teeth, and maybe adding worms or something to her void eye x3 nothing too big or different (she is only half demon after all), but just something that plays more into that side of her because i've never really done anything with it. oh, i almost forgot to mention, this reference sheet is a base, all i did was color it! i love this base and have used it for every single one of my feline characters :3 i unfortunately can't find the creator to link to credit, but i'll edit this post if i manage to find it!

i was going to play minecraft, but i don't really feel like it right now with being sick. the goal next time i log on is to enchant my gear and maybe... start working toward fighting the dragon! i've never beaten the game on my own, i've only done it once or twice on a realm with friends. i greatly prefer playing minecraft as a cozy type of game and have never bothered to go through all the work to get to the end for the dragon fight in any of my singleplayer worlds. i think it sounds like a fun little challenge to set for myself though :3 as for that extra area in my cave, i was thinking about turning it into some extra storage, but as of now i have plenty of free storage already in my house, so it would be a little redundant. maybe i'll do an aquarium of some kind? or it might just end up as a zombified piglin enclosure after all x3

anyway, instead of minecraft, i'm going to go ahead and eat dinner. it hasn't been all that long since i had lunch really, but i'm feeling hungry and i'd like to go to bed early tonight to hopefully sleep better than i have the last few nights and try sleeping off this sickness before it gets worse.

i had a very healthy (lying) cheese hot pocket and mandarin orange for dinner, i made the hot pocket in the microwave because i didn't want to wait for the airfryer to preheat and cook and then i stood over the trashcan peeling my orange for probably the amount of time it would have taken it to cook >_< it wasn't much of a dinner but it was yummy :p i did a few pixel cat's end adventures after i was done eating and watched the new dan and phil videos i've missed, and now i think i'm going to go to bed. it's only 7:30pm but i'm tired and feeling icky ;3; goodnight!

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how is it august already

2026-08-02T01:38:49Z

yesterday i woke up around 11am and felt absolutely exhausted for some reason. i really could've gone back to sleep i think, but i didn't want to sleep all day long, so i got up anyway. i decided to start my day with pixel cat's end adventuring and pea games because i was determined to get the last 19 silver gifts i needed to reach 100! i loaded up a youtube video and got started at about 11:30am. i really thought i could get all 19 gifts at once, but after 2.5 hours of adventuring and doing pea games, i hadn't found any silver gifts and only gathered enough buttons for five more, leaving me at 14 more needed when i finally decided to do something else at 2pm. i also ate lunch at around 1:00-1:30pm and had leftover buldak mac and cheese (which was significantly less spicy after being in the fridge) and an uncrustable with more of my strawberry sparkling water from thursday's dinner.

i went back and forth on what to do before landing on playing minecraft, and i logged on with the plan of finishing up my little cave area and starting to enchant my gear, but i barely even finished moving my portal before my mom asked if i wanted to go buy flowers with her. i really wanted to go grocery shopping so i convinced her to do that too x3

we got flowers for us, my grandma, and my great aunt. the flowers were so pretty, i didn't take any pictures of the ones we got, but i did take this one of a cute little bee on a sunflower :3 they had so many sunflowers and just so many pretty flowers in general.

after we took the flowers home, we sat at my grandparents' for a bit and talked before heading out to grocery shop. we went to the new aldi that just opened, it looked so new and fancy x3 i can't remember everything i got but some things i can remember are mandarin oranges, lemon loaf cake slices, and a few earth grown packets. i ate a slice of lemon loaf cake on the way to our second stop (walmart), and oh my goodness... it's so good. it tasted exactly how i wanted it to taste, i could eat the whole container at one time x3 at walmart we didn't really do any grocery shopping but i got impossible nuggets and cheese hot pockets.

on the way home, we got dinner, my parents got rooster's but i didn't want that so i got taco bell. i got my usual black bean grilled cheese burrito, and shockingly it actually had beans on it this time instead of beef >_< unfortunately i did drop the last bit of my burrito on the floor... so i had one of the hot pockets as a kind of second dinner, it was really good! i made it in the microwave but i think i'll put it in the air fryer next time because it would've tasted better with a crispy shell.

after dinner, i did more pixel cat's end adventures and pea games once again trying to reach 100 silver gifts. i didn't end up going to bed until 1am, but it was worth it, because i made my goal! i'm so happy and i can't wait to open all of them ^-^

because i've reached my goal, i think that might be it for me as far as candlelight goes. i've been really pushing myself to spend hours every day adventuring and geneing peas and it's starting to get a little exhausting. there's still two (including today) days left of the event but i'll be busy for those days so i think besides my dailies tomorrow i'm going to be finished. i'm so happy to have reached 100 silver gifts and i prefer to save my remaining energy for opening and tracking all those gifts rather than forcing myself to spam adventures and pea games for even longer.

today i woke up around 10am and decided to go ahead and get up. i can't believe it's already august... it feels like it should still be february. i turn 26 next month, which is scary and doesn't feel real at all. it feels like my birthday creeps up on me faster every year, but i guess that's just what aging feels like. i'm not ready to turn 26. i still don't have a job or even an id, and now i'm going to be old enough to not be covered by my parents' insurance. i don't know what i'm going to do. it feels like nothing is ever going to change in my life and i'll be 50 still living with and relying on my elderly parents. i need help for anything to change, but honestly, i'm afraid my mother doesn't want it to change. she likes that i still live with and rely on her after my sister has moved out, and i really think she won't know what to do with herself if i finally get out of this house, so i simultaneously feel like the disappointment child and like my own mother is the one holding me back from actually doing anything with my life. i don't know, maybe i'm just projecting.

anyway, moving on from my existentialism and fear of aging, i spent most of the morning until 11am just sitting around. i finally added a few photos to the photo dump section of my website's microblog; i need to figure out eventually how to code them to enlarge when clicked since they're pretty small, but that feels complicated... for now, everyone can just right click and view in another tab if they want to see them more clearly x3 also, someone left a comment on my guestbook a few days ago saying my site is really impressive for a beginner and i still feel so happy every time i think about it :D i couldn't find a guestbook on their site to reply, but i hope they know that made my day! my site is definitely pretty basic and simple, but as mentioned i am a beginner (i had zero knowledge of html or css when i started it) and i think the simplicity makes it feel a lot more like the geocities-era sites of the 90's and 2000's that inspired it. it's basic and messily coded but i love having a personal website and i'm so glad i made it <3

i was hungry around 11am, so i decided to have an early lunch. i had nuggets with ranch mixed with fire sauce, it wasn't as good as i expected T^T after lunch i took a shower because we needed to clean the church and i needed a shower before leaving the house today. after lunch, i ate the rest of my wild berry skittles and finished the youtube video i was watching, which brings us to now at about 1pm. my mom needs to eat and shower before we leave, so while i wait i think i'm going to play some more minecraft :3

update, i played for around half an hour, i got the cave area finished and i think it looks nice! i'm not sure what i'm going to do with this big empty part though, for now i just have my new little friend (who came out of the portal the second it was finished and proceeded to make herself at home) hanging out in a boat. maybe i'll make it a kind of enclosure for her if i don't end up thinking of anything else it could be used for x3 after i was done with that, i was determined to find a new pet, aka a dog or a horse. i eventually found a brown dog (i think the official variant name is rusty?) and i named him luke! i now have three pets; luke, plus a ragdoll cat named daisy and a gastling named bubbles ^-^ i'm not sure yet what i'm going to name the zombified piglin... i feel like it needs to be something cute to counteract her appearance x3

we left to clean the church around 2-3pm, i'm not sure exactly. we stopped at the orchard first and got nectarines and a watermelon, i didn't get to eat any of the nectarines last time we got them, so i need to make sure i eat at least one this time before they're all gone >_< cleaning the church didn't take too long thankfully, and we had to go back to walmart again after we were done. we were there to get stuff my mom needs for a baby shower she's helping with, but i did a little bit more grocery shopping too :p i got a few more frozen foods because the walmart we went to yesterday didn't have much plant based stuff at all, including fish and an amy's cheese enchilada. i ate the enchilada for dinner and it was... okay? it wasn't as good as i was hoping ;3; i got some cheddar cheese maruchan ramen too, i was looking for taco buldak but no luck >_<

anyway, it's now a little after 9pm. i'm going to eat a slice of lemon loaf cake and i think before i go to bed i might play a bit more minecraft :3 oh, i forgot to mention when we got home, i tried to take precious out to the car (bad idea) and she freaked out and clawed me T^T the funny thing is, i complained about her digging her claws into my shoulder because it really hurt, then after we went to family dollar to get my dad some soda, i noticed that my arm hurt too and it has three big raised scratches on it x3 i have no idea how i didn't notice them. they don't hurt much at this point, so that's good. i think i'm going to go ahead and post this now :3 goodnight!

(additional note: i'm struggling to choose a song to add to this post because i've already used all my favorite songs from jinx but that's all i've been listening to for a week x3)

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kinda super boring few days

2026-07-31T02:47:41Z

yesterday i spent most of my day just sitting around or laying in bed. i was still so upset and worried about my laptop when i woke up, plus i didn't have a power strip anymore so i couldn't turn on my lamp without plugging it into the wall which i was afraid to do because of the spill, so i ended up sitting in the living room long enough to charge my phone to 50% and then got back in bed. i finally got back up around 2pm and turned my computer on, and as mentioned in my last post i was very relieved that not only did it turn on, it also seemed to work with no issues. i felt a bit better at that point and ate lunch, just an uncrustable and a diet cola, around 2:30pm.

i considered playing papers please or minecraft, but i was afraid of putting too much strain on my laptop (not that papers please is a heavy game at all but i have anxiety T^T) so i decided to do pixel cat's end adventuring and watch youtube instead. i did that pretty much up until i needed to get ready for church. as much as the past few days have sucked a little bit, one thing i'm excited about is i think i'm really going to be able to make that 100 silver gifts goal! as of typing this we're only halfway through candlelight and i have enough gifts and buttons to equal 66 silver gifts, so between dailies, adventuring, and pea games, i only need to get 34 more in the next four days! that's definitely doable and i'm so excited, i really hope i can do it :3 it's such a small thing but the way i've been feeling the past few days it makes me happy to hopefully be able to make a goal i set for myself two whole real life years ago <3

going to church was honestly the last thing i wanted to do after the few days i'd had, but i still went because i would've felt bad leaving my grandma to deal with the kids alone. it wasn't that bad, though the kids were a little wild; you could tell it was a full moon x3 after church we picked up fast food dinner like we usually do on wednesday nights, i got a taco bell black bean grilled cheese burrito and nacho fries (act surprised) and a wendy's diet orange cream soda. i've learned to get the orange cream soda without ice so it lasts longer, i'm actually drinking some as i type this :p i wish i could get a whole gallon of it, i'd never drink anything else... anyway, i realized when i got home and started eating that they put beef on my burrito again, i really need to start checking it as soon as we get it instead of waiting until we're home T^T so at like 10pm we went back to taco bell and got a new one, unfortunately they didn't give us a free taco voucher this time x3

when we got home i ate my burrito (it was really good because it was hot and fresh), watched some youtube, and did a few pixel cat's end adventures before heading to bed.

today i somehow slept until noon ;3; according to my watch my bedtime was like 2am, so i guess i was up a little late, but definitely not so late that i should've slept until noon. oh well. i got up at noon and immediately cleaned the litter boxes because i didn't on tuesday because we didn't have any litter and i was not doing it at midnight last night. i considered taking a shower after but decided i wanted to eat lunch first, which i'm about to do right now at almost 1pm. i'm having an uncrustable, the aforementioned orange cream soda, and i'm also going to open the skittles i got at the dollar store last night when we stopped for cat litter ^-^ i've wanted wild berry skittles for weeks because one of the kids in the church class got a box of them as his prize and he gave me a few of them and they were so much better than i expected. i'm not big on skittles, they've always been my sister's favorite candy but i've always preferred gummy candies. i might start eating them more often though since i've realized how good the wild berry ones are x3

it's now 4:30pm, after lunch i did some pixel cat's end adventuring and i've officially gotten 75 silver gifts which is my record! even if i don't reach 100, i'm happy to have met my goal of beating my record :3 my mom asked me to watch a show with her while she ate lunch, nation's dumbest. it's pretty silly, it has a bunch of celebrities competing in challenges and tests to see who's the dumbest, basically x3 it's interesting to see a game show where the goal is to go home instead of being the last one. i think i'm going to take my shower now and i might play some minecraft after to finally build that enchantment room. i keep going back and forth over whether i want to put it in the little cave area next to my house where i've put my nether portal or if i want it to be an actual building...

i played minecraft for a while and made my enchantment room and also made my portal look nicer, i might move the portal though because it's in an awkward place after i covered part of the cave. i started to replace all the walls with stone but had to quit to go to my grandparents' for dinner, so i'll wait until my next post to share photos of my completed little cave area :3 for dinner i had squash and zucchini casserole and potato salad, it was pretty good. i also had a strawberry sparkling water and it was frozen so it almost exploded when i tried to open it >_< thankfully it was openable(? i don't think that's a word) and drinkable after it thawed a bit. my favorite of the sparkling waters is the orange cream (act surprised again) but it's also my grandpa's favorite so they rarely have any when we're over for dinner. after dinner i read some more of anatomy of an alibi, it's good but there's so many characters and after not reading for less than a week i could barely remember who was who ;3; i also got an almond joy cookie, it was so yummy :3

it's currently almost 10:45pm, i think i'm going to post this and do some pixel cat's end adventuring while i wait for my phone to charge, then go to bed. this might be the shortest post i've written recently, i guess that's what happens when you spend all day in bed one day and sleep half the day away the other... goodnight! ^-^

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i lost my streak again

2026-07-29T18:40:33Z

yesterday i woke up around 10:30am, and jumped straight into pixel cat's end adventuring and pea games since i didn't get much done on sunday. i did this until noon when i ate lunch, which was just two uncrustables, then did some more adventuring until i got bored of it around 1pm. i finished with 3000 buttons and 18 silver gifts, very close to halfway to 100 :3 i really think i can do it this year!

speaking of pixel cat's end, my three year anniversary is in a little over two weeks! i can't believe i've been on the site for so long, it's seriously the only pet site i've ever been so regularly active on and i just really love it and the community it has so much <3 i don't have anything planned for my anniversary this year since i'm working on downsizing and am hoarding my business cards, but i'll of course be happy to open my basket and business card from nestor :3 i was going to add my anniversary cat from last year here but i actually posted on my anniversary, so i'll just link to that post instead.

anyway, when i was finished with adventuring, i decided to play some minecraft. i'm not sure how i got so off track... i logged on with the intention of building an enchantment room. instead of doing that, i went looking for a dog, went caving instead, found three axolotls, and ended up logging off without even starting on the enchantment room ;3; i'm happy to have axolotls though, i named them berry (pink), wooper (yellow), and spider (brown). i always name one of my axolotls spider because that was the name of the first axolotl i ever had in minecraft! i've been slowly covering a tiny ravine outside my house with glass and there's a little water pocket near the top, so i put the axolotls in there :3 the lush cave i found them in was humongous and it looked so pretty with my shaders ^-^ in case anyone wants to know, i use complimentary unbound!

i went back to adventuring for a while (and finally got my 22nd business card), and i started to watch sneeg's stream before deciding i want to play this game myself first. the game is endacopia, it just came out yesterday but i've had it on my wishlist for maybe a week? it seems really cool and is a 2d psychological horror game which i want to play more of :3 i think i could really be into horror games in theory, but so many of them are 1. first person pov (which makes me motion sick more often than not) and/or 2. completely reliant on jumpscares to be scary. i played five nights at freddy's: into the pit a few months ago after getting it for free on epic games and i really really liked it! i wish more horror games had that 2d / pixel art style and weren't just jumpscare slop like so many of them tend to be. i jumped multiple times while playing doki doki literature club and the "jumpscares" in that game were just glitches and music changes, i can't handle jumpscare heavy games T^T

as much as i want to play endacopia, i ultimately decided that i needed to put more time into the games i already own before buying more. i have a very bad habit of buying games just to barely play them or even leave them completely unplayed for months and months (i've owned tiny bookshop since october) and i need to stop spending money on games if they're just going to rot in my library; i refuse to become one of those stereotypical steam users who has hundreds to thousands of games in their backlog. after going back and forth on what to play, i decided it was time i try out papers please! i've had this game for a few months as well and had yet to play it before yesterday. the first try went... pretty badly T^T i only got to like day five before i ran out of money and got put in jail x3 i turned on easy mode after that just so i wouldn't have to ration my spending and it helped a whole lot. i made it to day twelve before quitting because it was almost time for chicken smoothie rollover. i think i'm going to try to 100% the achievements for papers please after i'm done with my first (well. technically second but i don't think that one counts) playthrough and then finally... finally start playing tiny bookshop.

last night's chicken smoothie rollover was... overwhelming. there were two new token types added, hourly tickets (which doesn't even guarantee one you need for today's trade-ins) and coins on the usual banners (which also doesn't guarantee you get a coin with each banner), and the coin has seven total outcomes ;3; i like to keep all my pets with their respective litters, so it's a bit overwhelming trying to decide which adoptions to do when. what i've decided to do is get all the ticket pets as i acquire tickets, and hold off on trading for the coin pets until i have enough for them all. hopefully i can easily get all four ticket outcomes before tonight's rollover.

for dinner i had a grilled cheese with tofurkey deli slices, tomato, and ranch... it was so good *^* i also had a baked potato! i planned to play some more papers please before bed but i was so tired and it was a bit late by the time i had dinner, so i just went straight to bed.

this morning i laid in bed for... way too long after waking up. i finally got up around 10am and took a shower, then just kinda sat around until i needed to get ready to leave, which brings us to now at almost noon. we're going to the farmer's market and to meet my sister for lunch and a walk? i'm not entirely sure >_< we're also going grocery shopping, which is great because i feel like i have no food except uncrustables and snacks x3 i managed to get all my chicken smoothie ticket pets this morning too! now i just need to gather enough coins to get the all penny seals before i adopt them. we'll see if i manage that before rollover...

6pm update! we didn't end up going grocery shopping, but i'm really not that upset because i was so hot i thought i was going to die by the time we headed home. we got our usual veggies and peaches plus blackberries, blueberries, and a sugar cube melon at the farmers market, then ate at a local restaurant for lunch with my sister. i had the veggie sandwich which had cheese, peppers, mushrooms, and tomato on rye bread. it was pretty good, but some bites tasted a bit too much like tomato >_< it also came with chips and i had a diet pepsi to drink. after lunch we took our walk and went to the nearby bookstore and an antique shop. i didn't buy anything at the antique shop but my mom bought me these really cute sanrio cards :3 i'm not sure if they're official but they were only 75 cents so it's okay if not x3 at the bookstore i got a coloring book and little dumpling squishy, i'm pretty sure the dumpling was like 12$... so i kinda regret that part of my purchase and i wish i asked how much it was before buying it, i assumed it would be like 5$ T^T oh well, i'm happy with the coloring book at least ^-^

the antique shop was so unbearably hot. i was sweating like crazy the whole time we were in there and the whole walk back to the car, i even thought i was going to throw up or pass out at multiple points. thankfully i didn't do that, but wow was it hot in there ;3; i really hate sweating and i do so bad with being hot and/or in the sun, i can't wait until autumn rolls around and we get three weeks of perfect weather before winter starts x3

after getting home, i mostly sat around talking with my sister before we ran to the grocery store together to get some stuff we needed for dinner, and it's now about 7:30pm. i'm going to have a salad for dinner plus i'm finally making the buldak carbonara mac and cheese i got what feels like ages ago. i really hope it's good, i've seen mixed reviews but i love a spicy mac and cheese >_< my favorite way to eat mac and cheese is with buffalo wing sauce mixed in, it's heavenly *^* my mom and sister are having cola chicken, so i might drink a diet cola with my dinner :3 for now, i think i'm going to do some pixel cat's end adventuring until either dinner is ready or chicken smoothie rollover happens, whichever comes first, then i'm going to play some more papers please after dinner!

update, it's now 10pm. the mac and cheese was okay, i definitely prefer the ramen. and i added too much sauce so it was super spicy T^T i also had sauteed veggies and the salad i mentioned. i got the ending in papers please where you get arrested for the ezic money, i think i either missed the ezic agent who came to interfere with the investigation and denied them or maybe they didn't come because i wasn't moving fast enough? i don't know, it's hard to move fast when i have so many things i have to check ;3; i might keep playing before i go to bed because i really want to finish the game, but we'll see since it's already 10pm. i have drank caffeine with my dinner, so i'll probably be up pretty late, i just don't know if i want to spend that time stressing myself out in a video game... i wish the easy mode toggle also gave you more time in a day along with the extra credits, but that might be overkill for a game that's supposed to be a little difficult x3

something i forgot to mention earlier, i learned today that apparently you can set photos as apple watch faces (i always thought that wasn't possible for some reason) and i changed it to this picture of precious... i still want to cry every time i look at it, it's so cute T^T <3

so, it's the next day. i've finally lost my every other day posting streak. not because i didn't plan to post this last night, but because i thought i was losing my computer last night. precious loves to sit on my desk and drink out of my cup, and as mentioned i had diet cola with my dinner. well, when there was just a bit left in the cup, precious decided she wanted a drink. she stuck her entire head in the cup so it came with her when she tried to pull her head out, and the cup fell and spilled everywhere... right next to my laptop. i had an entire breakdown because i was sure she had damaged my 1k$+ laptop that i haven't even had for two years, and i was going to have to either find a way to pay to get it fixed or worse an entirely new computer. thankfully, that doesn't seem to be the case, at least so far. i shut it off and left it open upside down overnight and it's so far working just fine this afternoon; keyboard, mouse, speakers, and all. i'm really hoping and praying that aforementioned breakdown was an extreme overreaction and nothing is going to happen to it, though i am still a little paranoid about it exploding or something... i really think 99% of what spilled, which wasn't much technically, ended up on the floor and not inside my laptop like i thought it did. there was one casualty though, my power strip T^T but i'd rather lose a power strip than my entire laptop, obviously, so i don't even care about that if my computer is okay.

it feels a bit ridiculous and dramatic to have been so upset considering it's not like i use my computer for work or school so i don't need it, and i also didn't pay for it myself. but i use this thing literally every single day, i do so much on it, and the thought of losing it was devastating. i suppose i'm not entirely out of the woods yet and it could still decide to stop working or explode or something, but for now i'm relieved that it seems to be okay. i'm going to try not to leave it plugged in and powered on 24/7 at least until i'm sure it's fully free of damage, and keep it off the charger and shut off when i'm not actively using it. i guess we'll see if i end up needing to pay for repair or get a new computer altogether in the coming week(s), if someone reads this i beg of you to pray for my poor laptop ;3;

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