still sick and suffering
Aug. 7th, 2026 10:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
leafkinzi woke up at noon yesterday, and decided to start my day with a shower. i'm starting to get really tired of being sick, especially having my nose run all day long, and i hoped a hot and steaming shower would help. thankfully, it did! at least for a little while... i really, really hate being sick, my mom always says i get man colds because all i do is complain and act like i'm dying x3 if you can't tell by my last few blog posts though, i'm not as sick this week as i usually am. i don't think i actually have covid either, last time i had it i felt like i was on my deathbed and i've been up and doing stuff every day so far. that doesn't make it any less annoying to be sick of course, and i hope i'm feeling better in the next few days so my suffering will finally end T^T i actually got sick around this time last year as you can see by my old blog posts, and i was sick again within a week after recovering... i hope and pray that doesn't happen this time ;3;
anyway, after my shower, i felt a little woozy so i ate lunch. i had another microwaved pizza... my diet really is terrible, i need to do something about that... the pizza was good though :3 i scrolled the build a bear subreddit for a bit after i ate, seeing people get the halloween drop is making me so jealous >_< the bat kitty looks so cute, i can't wait to get mine! if they have the spider when we go for my birthday, i can't guarantee i won't go home with one. i keep saying i want to get a normal bipedal build a bear so i can buy whatever clothes i want for it without having to worry about if they fit, yet the new ones i'm being drawn toward are the spider and the silly goose >_<
around 2pm i decided to play more sensuki! i ended up going with guapoduo for the ship, they turned out so cute :3 this game is pretty fun, though if i had to recommend it, it definitely wouldn't be at the full 17$usd price. it has some iffy content like noncon and apparently incest? but there's a filter to hide that stuff. it also very clearly was written in chinese and translated into english. if you can't get past poorly translated english, definitely pass on this game, it's pretty bad. i mostly like this game for the merch collecting and ita bag creating aspect, the poor translation makes it a little difficult to enjoy the main story or the fanfic writing too much. when i played on wednesday night, i had a racecar drivers story that took me ages to finish because it went through all 20+ races with basically the same thing happening every time. i saw someone say they use ai for the fanfics, but i don't think that's the case, because as i mentioned there's quite a bit of repetition that i can't imagine an ai would write. however, i do think it's more believable that ai was used for the english translation, as it is pretty terrible. i don't entirely hate ai translation, especially compared to using ai for the writing; obviously it would be much better to have humans translate so it's written better, but i think people are too quick to demonize ai translation when tools like google translate have existed for ages. i played for around an hour before deciding i wanted to take a nap.
i laid in bed for a while but didn't end up getting any sleep ;3; which was frustrating because all i want to do is sleep off this illness. i was starting to feel miserable at this point, i felt like i should've been starting to feel better since i'd been sick since monday, but instead i just felt worse. i wasn't coughing as much as on wednesday, but i was having terrible sinus pressure that was making my eyes hurt, plus my nose just would not stop running. being sick is actual torture.
i decided i really needed a distraction from how sick i felt, so i jumped back into papers please. i once again had to backtrack a few days after realizing i missed something; this time, i'd missed letting in the ezic agent on day 17. i'd also like to get the class 5 apartment achievement, but even with the easy mode crutch i'm struggling to afford class 6... not spending on food a few days helped me afford it, though. i ended up successfully getting two new achievements, republia token and hired rifle! apparently republia token is a rare achievement, i'm surprised this game has rare achievements considering how old it is...
after getting the hired rifle achievement, i logged off because my mom was bringing home dinner. i got (act surprised) taco bell, and we watched the new episode of nation's dumbest while we ate. we were both so confused by the challenge where they had to get four liters out of a three and five liters pitchers, it made us feels so dumb x3 we had to listen to the explanation three times before we both finally understood how to do it, i don't think either of us would have gotten it if we were on the show >_<
after dinner, since i hadn't done any all day, i decided to do some pixel cat's end adventures... but i ended up only doing one before going to bed T^T
good morning, guess who is still sick! what a shocker! i didn't cough much yesterday, but i'm back to coughing like crazy today ;3; my nose is still stuffed, but at least so far it isn't running. i'd prefer being able to breathe though >_< i just woke up at 11am and i'm so tired; even being sick, i don't think i've gone to sleep once this week before 3am. and i wonder why i'm not feeling better yet... i really need to start drinking something other than diet cola with my dinner T^T
my complaints aside, i get paid for photocards today >:3 tempted to immediately spend like half of it on build a bear and steam... i think i'm not going to buy anything besides the bat kitty from build a bear, and we'll see when we go for my birthday if they have any of the mini beans and other friends i was thinking about getting. i'm incredibly indecisive and i'm sure the decision will be easier once i've seen them in person. i've also added the werewolf to my "i want this" list... i wasn't super interested in it until i started seeing people on reddit get theirs >_< i need to leave that subreddit, it's so bad for me x3
it's currently 2pm, and so far i've mostly just done a lot of sitting around. i did eat lunch around 1pm, my last earth grown packet (pad thai). i'm starting to feel pms symptoms, which isn't surprising since i'm supposed to start on tuesday, but it's making me feel even more bleh than i already felt from being sick. if i'm not recovered by tuesday (i pray i am, it'll have been over a week by that point) and have to deal with being sick and on the first day of my period at the same time... you might see me on the news.
oh, i did get the payment for the photocards! i am now 160$ richer >:3 unfortunately it won't go into the bank until wednesday, i think i might go ahead and buy my steam games since only one of them will still be on sale by then. i don't think the bat kitty selling out online is something i'm going to have to worry about, especially for less than a week. i might eat these words, but that's for future me to deal with x3 i am going to attempt to finish papers please first before i buy the other games so i don't inevitably either abandon papers please completely or go past the 14-day refund period before trying out any of the new games. none of them seem like games i'll want to refund, but i'd like to have the option just in case.
i played papers please for a few hours and got every achievement except glory to arstotzka! i'm going to have to replay pretty much the whole game (at least days 8-31) for that one, so i'm not in a rush to get it x3 it was pretty difficult at times, but i really liked this game! it's a little... dystopian in how relevant it still is 13 years after its release, and some aspects definitely made me feel icky (which is of course the point), but it was still pretty enjoyable to play x3
because i'd successfully almost completed papers please, i decided to go ahead and buy those games i wanted today! and... steam's checkout is down. you cannot be serious T^T i haven't bought games on steam since december, and haven't put money in my wallet since october. what do you mean i went nearly a year without buying games and the day i decide to finally treat myself and buy some i physically can't check out. this feels very targeted and i am upset >:( while i wait for it to come back up so i can finally make my purchase, i'm going to watch ranboo's stream :3 they're watching all of the walten files which i haven't watched in quite a while and i haven't seen the new episodes, so i'm excited! i don't follow the series at all, so i'm not sure if the current season is like... completed? or if the whole series is completed? but i guess i'll find out :p
my mom went to the county fair with my grandma and aunt (and maybe some of my cousins but i'm not sure), i decided to stay home since i'm still sick, and i'm glad i did because it's storming and now i get to watch ranboo x3 she's bringing me home a fried cheese and a funnel cake :D i've wanted a fried cheese since before the fair started because we were driving past it and i was like "ugh, a fried cheese sounds so good..." then my grandma told me about getting a funnel cake for my grandpa and that made me want that too x3 i just talked about how i need to eat healthier and now my dinner is going to be a fried cheese and a funnel cake...
got my games purchased and downloaded! i might start playing one of them tomorrow if not tonight, depending on how long ranboo's stream is ^-^ i don't really have any kind of plan of which one i want to play first, so i might just put them on a wheel and spin it for real this time x3
something i forgot to mention, i've actually been feeling quite a bit better the last few hours! i'm still a little sniffly and coughing a bit, but i definitely feel better than i did this morning or especially yesterday. i really hope this means i'll wake up tomorrow or at least sunday completely recovered. i'll probably stay home from church sunday even if all i'm doing is coughing, i don't want to be coughing all through the service T^T i have started to feel worse again after thinking i was recovering in the past, so as much as i'm hoping for it, i'm not going to assume i'll be better in the next few days >_<
it's 10:30pm and ranboo is still live so i think i'm going to just go on to bed once their stream is over! i'm going to go ahead and post this now :3 goodnight!
anyway, after my shower, i felt a little woozy so i ate lunch. i had another microwaved pizza... my diet really is terrible, i need to do something about that... the pizza was good though :3 i scrolled the build a bear subreddit for a bit after i ate, seeing people get the halloween drop is making me so jealous >_< the bat kitty looks so cute, i can't wait to get mine! if they have the spider when we go for my birthday, i can't guarantee i won't go home with one. i keep saying i want to get a normal bipedal build a bear so i can buy whatever clothes i want for it without having to worry about if they fit, yet the new ones i'm being drawn toward are the spider and the silly goose >_<
around 2pm i decided to play more sensuki! i ended up going with guapoduo for the ship, they turned out so cute :3 this game is pretty fun, though if i had to recommend it, it definitely wouldn't be at the full 17$usd price. it has some iffy content like noncon and apparently incest? but there's a filter to hide that stuff. it also very clearly was written in chinese and translated into english. if you can't get past poorly translated english, definitely pass on this game, it's pretty bad. i mostly like this game for the merch collecting and ita bag creating aspect, the poor translation makes it a little difficult to enjoy the main story or the fanfic writing too much. when i played on wednesday night, i had a racecar drivers story that took me ages to finish because it went through all 20+ races with basically the same thing happening every time. i saw someone say they use ai for the fanfics, but i don't think that's the case, because as i mentioned there's quite a bit of repetition that i can't imagine an ai would write. however, i do think it's more believable that ai was used for the english translation, as it is pretty terrible. i don't entirely hate ai translation, especially compared to using ai for the writing; obviously it would be much better to have humans translate so it's written better, but i think people are too quick to demonize ai translation when tools like google translate have existed for ages. i played for around an hour before deciding i wanted to take a nap.
i laid in bed for a while but didn't end up getting any sleep ;3; which was frustrating because all i want to do is sleep off this illness. i was starting to feel miserable at this point, i felt like i should've been starting to feel better since i'd been sick since monday, but instead i just felt worse. i wasn't coughing as much as on wednesday, but i was having terrible sinus pressure that was making my eyes hurt, plus my nose just would not stop running. being sick is actual torture.
i decided i really needed a distraction from how sick i felt, so i jumped back into papers please. i once again had to backtrack a few days after realizing i missed something; this time, i'd missed letting in the ezic agent on day 17. i'd also like to get the class 5 apartment achievement, but even with the easy mode crutch i'm struggling to afford class 6... not spending on food a few days helped me afford it, though. i ended up successfully getting two new achievements, republia token and hired rifle! apparently republia token is a rare achievement, i'm surprised this game has rare achievements considering how old it is...
after getting the hired rifle achievement, i logged off because my mom was bringing home dinner. i got (act surprised) taco bell, and we watched the new episode of nation's dumbest while we ate. we were both so confused by the challenge where they had to get four liters out of a three and five liters pitchers, it made us feels so dumb x3 we had to listen to the explanation three times before we both finally understood how to do it, i don't think either of us would have gotten it if we were on the show >_<
after dinner, since i hadn't done any all day, i decided to do some pixel cat's end adventures... but i ended up only doing one before going to bed T^T
good morning, guess who is still sick! what a shocker! i didn't cough much yesterday, but i'm back to coughing like crazy today ;3; my nose is still stuffed, but at least so far it isn't running. i'd prefer being able to breathe though >_< i just woke up at 11am and i'm so tired; even being sick, i don't think i've gone to sleep once this week before 3am. and i wonder why i'm not feeling better yet... i really need to start drinking something other than diet cola with my dinner T^T
my complaints aside, i get paid for photocards today >:3 tempted to immediately spend like half of it on build a bear and steam... i think i'm not going to buy anything besides the bat kitty from build a bear, and we'll see when we go for my birthday if they have any of the mini beans and other friends i was thinking about getting. i'm incredibly indecisive and i'm sure the decision will be easier once i've seen them in person. i've also added the werewolf to my "i want this" list... i wasn't super interested in it until i started seeing people on reddit get theirs >_< i need to leave that subreddit, it's so bad for me x3
it's currently 2pm, and so far i've mostly just done a lot of sitting around. i did eat lunch around 1pm, my last earth grown packet (pad thai). i'm starting to feel pms symptoms, which isn't surprising since i'm supposed to start on tuesday, but it's making me feel even more bleh than i already felt from being sick. if i'm not recovered by tuesday (i pray i am, it'll have been over a week by that point) and have to deal with being sick and on the first day of my period at the same time... you might see me on the news.
oh, i did get the payment for the photocards! i am now 160$ richer >:3 unfortunately it won't go into the bank until wednesday, i think i might go ahead and buy my steam games since only one of them will still be on sale by then. i don't think the bat kitty selling out online is something i'm going to have to worry about, especially for less than a week. i might eat these words, but that's for future me to deal with x3 i am going to attempt to finish papers please first before i buy the other games so i don't inevitably either abandon papers please completely or go past the 14-day refund period before trying out any of the new games. none of them seem like games i'll want to refund, but i'd like to have the option just in case.
i played papers please for a few hours and got every achievement except glory to arstotzka! i'm going to have to replay pretty much the whole game (at least days 8-31) for that one, so i'm not in a rush to get it x3 it was pretty difficult at times, but i really liked this game! it's a little... dystopian in how relevant it still is 13 years after its release, and some aspects definitely made me feel icky (which is of course the point), but it was still pretty enjoyable to play x3
because i'd successfully almost completed papers please, i decided to go ahead and buy those games i wanted today! and... steam's checkout is down. you cannot be serious T^T i haven't bought games on steam since december, and haven't put money in my wallet since october. what do you mean i went nearly a year without buying games and the day i decide to finally treat myself and buy some i physically can't check out. this feels very targeted and i am upset >:( while i wait for it to come back up so i can finally make my purchase, i'm going to watch ranboo's stream :3 they're watching all of the walten files which i haven't watched in quite a while and i haven't seen the new episodes, so i'm excited! i don't follow the series at all, so i'm not sure if the current season is like... completed? or if the whole series is completed? but i guess i'll find out :p
my mom went to the county fair with my grandma and aunt (and maybe some of my cousins but i'm not sure), i decided to stay home since i'm still sick, and i'm glad i did because it's storming and now i get to watch ranboo x3 she's bringing me home a fried cheese and a funnel cake :D i've wanted a fried cheese since before the fair started because we were driving past it and i was like "ugh, a fried cheese sounds so good..." then my grandma told me about getting a funnel cake for my grandpa and that made me want that too x3 i just talked about how i need to eat healthier and now my dinner is going to be a fried cheese and a funnel cake...
got my games purchased and downloaded! i might start playing one of them tomorrow if not tonight, depending on how long ranboo's stream is ^-^ i don't really have any kind of plan of which one i want to play first, so i might just put them on a wheel and spin it for real this time x3
something i forgot to mention, i've actually been feeling quite a bit better the last few hours! i'm still a little sniffly and coughing a bit, but i definitely feel better than i did this morning or especially yesterday. i really hope this means i'll wake up tomorrow or at least sunday completely recovered. i'll probably stay home from church sunday even if all i'm doing is coughing, i don't want to be coughing all through the service T^T i have started to feel worse again after thinking i was recovering in the past, so as much as i'm hoping for it, i'm not going to assume i'll be better in the next few days >_<
it's 10:30pm and ranboo is still live so i think i'm going to just go on to bed once their stream is over! i'm going to go ahead and post this now :3 goodnight!
