noah / violet / kris

yesterday i woke up a little early for me lately at 10am, and i started my day by taking the shower i didn't take on friday. my mom had a bible study and i considered going with her because it was at a coffee shop i haven't been to yet, but i was up late as usual and didn't feel like getting up to take a shower at 8am... while i waited for her to get back home so we could go to clean the church, i played some more minecraft and got the roof and front of my house done. i think it turned out really cute! as mentioned in my last post, i was a little worried the block palette i'd chosen would end up clashing, but it didn't, i think it actually looks really nice together!


before cleaning the church we made a few stops, first to this little bakery thing that had popsicle shaped cake pops! i got the sprinkle one and it was really good... it was covered in those little ball sprinkles (i forget what they're called) and had confetti cake inside :3 after that we stopped at the orchard since this is probably the last week for nectarines and my mom is addicted to them x3 our last stop was taco bell so i could get lunch, but it was more like a snack because they put beef on my burrito again... good thing i got a fiesta potatoes i guess T^T i listened to bad omens the whole time i cleaned, and we headed home around 4pm and stopped back at taco bell to get me a new burrito which i ate for dinner.

basically as soon as we got home cellbit went live for the new ordem paranormal announcements, so i watched that, and oh my goodness... i love this stupid rpg so much it is not funny. one of the announcements was a halloween special, i absolutely loved the 2024 christmas special so i'm really excited for the halloween one! the players i'm personally hoping for are bagi and lorena, but there's a lot of other past players i'd love to see as well. the other announcement i'm very excited about is! enigma of fear dlc! i don't think i've ever really talked about it here, but i've played that game three times and it is seriously maybe my favorite video game in existence. it was actually the whole reason i got a gaming laptop and was the very first game i bought on steam! the dlc comes out in january and i could not be more excited or impatient for it x3 the other announcements from the live were a new rule system for the rpg (which is cool but i don't play rpg myself) and a new merch store! i am hesitant to be excited about the merch store, i'll try not to get my hopes up until i know for sure if it'll ship to the usa >_< i really, really hope it does, i've wanted ordem paranormal merch for years but have never been able to get any because of the merch site they use not shipping outside of brazil. i guess we'll see once it opens!

after the live, i went a little crazy over it on social media for a while, then watched youtube while i finished my burrito, and when i was done eating i opened minecraft yet again to finish my house :3 i got the entire thing built, it just needs decorated! i don't think i'm going to follow the decor from the tutorial since i want to decorate with modded furniture and stuff. i was feeling a bit sick after playing minecraft, probably motion sickness from building, so i decided to go on to bed even though it was only 8pm.

today was a pretty busy sunday as usual. we went to church in the morning and i once again spent the whole service doing murdle puzzles :p i think i'm starting to get a handle on how to complete the medium difficulty ones, even if i do have to look at the hint for a lot of them. i really like the ones that have alphabet ciphers or require me to do similar puzzles before completing the actual main puzzle itself. after church we ate at a local(? i think? i won't say the name just in case) restaurant and i had a spinach artichoke dip flatbread with french fries. i didn't eat much but it was really good, and i have leftovers i'll probably eat tomorrow or even tonight if i get hungry x3 i also had a diet pepsi to drink and we had pretzels as an appetizer that were also really good!

when we went home my sister was home to do laundry. we took the dog for a ride and listened to part of olivia rodrigo's new album, i hadn't listened to it yet myself but i liked the songs we listened to on our drive. when we got home we played some jackbox 6 and 4, i absolutely loved the survive the internet game in jackbox 4. i also learned how to cast my laptop to the tv which is cool, i'm not really sure when that'll come in handy outside of playing jackbox but who knows >_<

during the evening church service me and my mom were in the nursery, i love being in the nursery because not only are there cute babies and toddlers, but also the church service seems to go by much faster. i felt like i barely did anything except hold a baby for the last ten minutes, otherwise i was kinda useless, but we only had three kids including the baby who spent most of her time in a baby chair, so it's not like it was a lot of work anyway. after church we stopped at aldi to get a few groceries, i got a few earth grown packets, some cheese, potato chips, and dried apricots. i've really been wanting some unsweetened dried fruit so i was happy to see the apricots were unsweetened :3 i liked the dried tangerines when i had them in the past, but they were so sweet it felt like eating candy and they had an insane amount of added sugar on top of the natural sugar already in the fruit. we also stopped at wendy's for dinner before we went home and i got a cheese fries and a diet orange cream soda.

when we got home we played some more jackbox before my sister had to head home, and now i'm writing this blog post at about 10pm :3 i'm currently waiting for my phone and watch to charge and then i'm going to go to bed. i don't have any real plans for tomorrow but i'd like to play some more tiny bookshop and jump back into minecraft so i can actually decorate my currently empty house. i think i might also finally use this singular button battery i have left and start running one of my tamagotchis, probably the connection or the gen1, because i think it would be fun to be running one when we go out for my birthday on monday. at some point this week we'll hopefully be going to crumbl so i can get the minecraft cookies they have this week, i'm so excited :3 i haven't had crumbl in years and all the flavors sound like ones i'd like, plus they're minecraft themed! anyway, goodnight <3

yesterday i started my day by taking the trash out and up and then taking a shower as i do every tuesday. i woke up around 11:30am and got started around noon. before i did the trash though, my build a bear arrived a whole week earlier than the estimated delivery date! i waited until i was finished with the trash to open it. she is so cute! i wasn't lucky enough to get a pattern with a clear bat on the face, but that's okay, i'm still very happy with her, plus she does have a bat on each arm and one on her butt :3 i don't care too much about patterns, so even though i might wish for something specific, i'll always be happy with whatever i get! since i didn't order her with any clothes, i put her in the happy birthday shirt i got a few years ago so she wouldn't be completely naked x3 i can't wait to go into the store so i can get her a scent and a proper outfit!

after doing the trash and unboxing my new kitty, i ate two corn dogs for lunch and then started tiny bookshop. i played the first eight or so days, and then quit to get in bed for a while because i had a pretty terrible headache again. i probably would have stayed in bed longer if my phone wasn't dying, but i got up when my mom got home at around 5:30pm. my mom said echo isn't as cute as my other kitties D: it made me a little sad, i think they're all super cute ;3;

when i got up i spent some time messing around on miau and made this picrew :3 i'm really enjoying miau, it's nice to have a space where i can practice my portuguese and be surrounded by posts in portuguese, it really does help a lot and feels very reminiscent of what i liked about 2024 bluesky. maybe one day i should write one of my blog posts in portuguese like i'm writing a weekend essay in high school spanish class... it would probably be the shortest post i've ever written, i don't feel like my fluency is anywhere near high enough for that x3 what i really need to do is get back into truly studying the language, i've had multiple resources bookmarked for ages that i haven't touched in forever and social media can only teach me so much ;3; it's so annoying that we don't live in a world where i can just take a pill or something and implant a language into my brain, it's 2026, we're well past when this should have been possible >_< honestly, i probably could be fluent by now if i actually stuck with studying like i should, i've been learning off and on for about three years now.


even though i had a headache, i decided to play some bettermc! i realized i could just... add mods myself, so i added peaceful hunger ^-^ it's basically the only mod i consider a requirement when i'm playing in peaceful mode, i hate that vanilla disables your hunger depletion in peaceful and i've hoped for years that they would at least add a toggle that lets you turn it back on T^T i ended up not playing for very long, i think i just wasn't built for this modpack... it just feels very bloated with content to the point it doesn't really feel like minecraft, even when i'm playing in peaceful and don't have to worry about monsters. i enjoy large modpacks, obviously i do since my favorite is homestead, but i don't know. maybe i just prefer ones geared more toward a cozy experience. i might play some more minecraft today and either load up my vanilla world or start fresh in homestead.

i ended up getting back in bed for a bit before dinner because of my headache, i think i said this in my last post but i really hope i'm not getting sick again ;3; dinner was a baked potato, sauteed veggies (squash, eggplant, and zucchini), and corn. i don't eat corn very often at all, maybe once every few months at best, but it was pretty good :3 i ended up going to bed not long after dinner at around 9:30pm because i was just so tired.

today i got up around 11am and mostly just sat around for the first hour of my day. i needed to do laundry so i finally got up and did that at about noon, and i searched for something to eat for lunch but nothing sounded good ;3; it's now almost 1pm, i considered playing some tiny bookshop but i think i'm going to start that new minecraft homestead world instead :3 i'd really like to have a world i play on for long enough to complete the entire quest book, so that's going to be my goal with this world!

i played for a while and basically just ran around and looted structures the whole time, i think i do know where i'm going to live but i just haven't settled down yet. i ended up with an inventory and backpack full of junk so i really do need to settle down sometime soon x3 it feels a little boring to live in a plains biome on a modpack like this, but i just love how easy it is to build on and it's right by a river, and finding water is half the reason i spent so much time exploring >_< the goal next time i log on is to decide exactly where i'm going to live and start building a house and a farm! after i logged off, i finally ate a "lunch" of bear fruit rolls and chester's fries... not the greatest meal but i couldn't find anything else x3 i got in bed for a bit after eating and it's now 4pm.

i really hope my clothes are dry before i need to get ready for church, i already feel like i'm cutting it a little close T^T honestly, after last week i'm afraid of how church is going to go... hopefully the kids aren't anywhere near as wild tonight as they were last week, that was the longest hour of my life ;3; i just checked after the dryer stopped and thankfully my clothes are dry! i'm glad i don't have to worry anymore about whether they'll be dry in time ^-^

i'm getting really impatient for going to build a bear >_< all i want is for echo to have an actual outfit and a scent! i'm also excited to possibly get a second bear, and it's more difficult than i anticipated to try refraining from spending money until we go... i have an impulse buying problem T^T i'm tempted to also get some kind of pajamas set when we go, just something that will fit all my bears so i can swap it for their everyday outfit when i want to sleep with them. all my kitties have either overalls or skirts that aren't very comfortable to cuddle with when i'm trying to sleep. but again all of that depends on what's in stock when we go and honestly how much money i feel like spending in total x3 either way, i'm just excited to go and celebrate my birthday, as much as i dislike getting older i will always love doing fun stuff to celebrate it :3c

hello again at nearly 10pm :3 church thankfully was a lot easier than last week, we only had three kids and they were pretty well behaved. on the way home i got (act surprised) a taco bell grilled cheese burrito and nacho fries for dinner. i watched laura rae says' newest video while i ate, and i'm not sure what i'm going to do until i go to bed. my phone still needs to charge for a while so i think i'll just watch some more youtube until it's charged, and i'm going to go ahead and post this now ^-^ goodnight!

i didn't end up finishing endacopia yesterday night because it was pretty late while i was playing and then the power went out... playing a horror game while in the pitch dark and dead silence made me super paranoid so i had to quit and go to bed >_< i'm such a paranoid person, i only like horror in the daytime x3 when i watched marble hornets a few years ago (which i should really rewatch soon, i love it so much), i wouldn't walk home from my grandparents' house alone because i was paranoid of the operator being in the woods and that it would get me... grown adult by the way. i truly don't think i would ever survive living alone, i'd constantly be asking people to come over just so i wouldn't be by myself to appease my paranoia.

anyway, since i didn't finish it the night before, i planned to finish it yesterday not long after i woke up. i woke up around 11am though, so i decided to wait until after i'd had lunch, and just kind of messed around on social media and watched jamlabs' new video until it was lunchtime. i had rose buldak for lunch and then finished endacopia! i got ending a, no spoilers since it's such a new game, but the ending was so cute ;3; i really liked this game a lot, as mentioned i'm not big on horror but endacopia was such a nice experience, a great blend of cute and unsettling! i struggled a bit with the final boss fight but it only took me about five tries to beat it, so not too hard :3 eventually i'll play again to get the other two endings and the achievements, but this first playthrough took me eight hours so it'll probably be a while before i do that.

after finishing endacopia, i was so tired i decided to take a nap. i slept for quite a while and woke up around 6pm. after getting up, i really considered doing something like coloring or doing pixel cat's end adventuring... but i ended up starting oneshot instead >_< i was worried about the refund period and here i am finishing all three games in the span of a week x3 i'm not sure what i'm going to do once i finish oneshot and have no more new games to play... i might replay papers please to get the last achievement i need to 100%, then start playing tiny bookshop! i mentioned this in one of my last few posts, but i've owned tiny bookshop for almost a year now... i really liked the demo, so i'm not sure why it's taken me so long to finally pick up the full game after buying it.

i played oneshot for around two hours before quitting for dinner and because my sister was home. i had a baked potato for dinner and we watched my 600 pound life while we ate x3 i've never watched that show before but it truly fascinates me. i genuinely cannot comprehend how someone gets to that level of obesity without... i don't know, dying? the episode we watched most of the woman's weight was in her stomach and it literally almost touched the floor when she stood up... i can't imagine how painful that would be. it all just kind of baffles me, the amount of calories you have to be consuming in a day to not only get to but maintain a weight of 600+ pounds has to be insane, i just don't really understand how it's possible.

it's now wednesday as i write this in notepad on my computer, since i've lost the ability to write directly into dreamwidth... the power went out yesterday somewhere around 6-8pm, and is still off now at almost 1pm the next day. as of this morning, we have no estimated recovery time and for places like columbus the estimated time is friday... so we'll see when i end up actually being able to post this T^T

i can't remember the last thing i mentioned in what i was writing yesterday. i don't think i'd actually even finished what i was writing about monday, but i genuinely can't remember what else i did on monday either ;3; yesterday i woke up at about noon, and i started my day by doing the trash because it was storming in the morning and i needed to get it done in case it stormed again (spoiler warning: it did). i took a shower after, and then had rose buldak again for lunch. after lunch, i picked up oneshot again.

i don't think i mentioned before how much i like this game so far. i have had to look things up a few times already, but that's probably a me problem because i'm bad at puzzles and not a problem with the game itself. some things i really like are how the game uses things on your computer and how it does things like recognizes when you close and reopen the game and has niko react to it or talks to you directly through popups and the in-game computers. i thought it was so cool when it changed my wallpaper x3 and i love a game that references the player as an outside source from the character you play as, like deltarune and the player being the soul instead of kris, or even how undertale remembers your past playthroughs and changes things accordingly. i'd really love to find some other games that do this; as mentioned in one of my past posts i do believe off is a game that does this, i might have to buy it next time it's on sale.

i'd also like to play some more games that affect your computer or pull things from it, like kinitopet! i have seen entire gameplay of kinitopet though, both in streamer mode and the full version on youtube, so i'm not sure if it's actually worth playing myself since i already know everything that happens which will of course lower the effect of the horror. maybe i'll look it up or make a reddit post once i actually have internet again to see if i can find similar games >_<

anyway, while i was playing oneshot, the power went out. it was storming very, very hard and apparently there was a tornado that touched down not too far from our house, which is super scary. when my mom got home i went with her to pick up dinner and we drove past where the tornado went through, you could see its path through the corn field and the trees, and we even saw part of a roof up in a tree. for dinner we got wendy's and i got cheese fries and a cinabon pull-aparts with a diet orange cream soda to drink.

i planned to play some more oneshot after dinner, but it refused to open because it couldn't sync with steam cloud ;3; usually it gives you a popup saying it can't connect and gives you the option to open anyway, but it didn't do that for me last night, so i wasn't able to play. i ended up pulling my dusty switch out and finally picking up tomodachi life again! i didn't play for long because i got bored of it surprisingly quickly considering how long it had been since i last played, but my friend's mii finally confessed her feelings to cove holden only for my mii to interrupt. i really thought my mii was finally going to find love and it would actually be with one of my f/os... no. he chose her mii instead. my poor, poor miiself cannot catch a break when it comes to romance x3 on my qsmp island, cellbit has a crush on roier! which is pretty cute since they were a canon couple on the server, the only problem being that roier is currently sweethearts with pac, coincidentally after cellbit confessed to pac and roier interrupted... this poor guy is having about as much luck as my miiself is x3

i might play some more tomodachi life today and see if cellbit wants to confess to roier, i've only had a mii confess to another mii who was already in a relationship one other time and it didn't work out, so i'm wondering if it's possible for them to break up with their current sweetheart for someone else. i'd look it up, but alas...

i didn't do much else last night before going to bed, i did play a little bit of minecraft on my switch though when i couldn't sleep. i mainly play java minecraft, so i'm always so surprised when playing on switch just how long it takes to do Anything At All on console >_< even just turning and walking takes longer because of using a joystick, and don't get me started on doing things like crafting and building. it just feels so much slower which is why i'm very hesitant to ever be awake or in a cave when there are monsters i'll have to fight... i might end up switching into peaceful mode soon :p

today i woke up a little after noon. i'm home alone because my mom has gone back to work and my dad left for a work trip this morning. i'd usually be happy to be home alone, but currently it just makes the house feel even more silent and dark, and makes me feel even more bored out of my mind. not having internet is pretty annoying in itself, but everything offline i think "oh, i could do this" about requires light! i have no internet and no light and i literally can't do anything T^T even my computer i'm writing this on right now is getting a pretty low battery so it'll probably be dead by tonight or tomorrow, my phone is currently a brick because it's dead, and my switch battery i doubt will last much longer either ;3; so once i don't have any of those, i'm not sure what i'll do with myself since i don't have the light i need to do anything offline.

i'm getting hungry so i need to eat lunch soon, i'm going to have fruit because that's basically all i can have with no way of cooking >_< i'm very likely going to start my period today, i was supposed to start yesterday and i'm cramping pretty bad. i decided days ago that if i started yesterday or today that i wasn't going to go to church tonight, because the last thing i want to do on the first couple days of my period is work with little kids... but i might have to go either way just so i can charge my phone and be able to be online for at least a little while and eat some real food >_< if i do go, i think i'm going to take my phone charger with me so i can charge it during church so it'll hopefully be at 100% by the time we head home. i'm also hoping we'll actually stop and eat dinner somewhere instead of just picking it up and going home to eat in the dark again x3 i wish my laptop wasn't so big and bulky so i could easily take it to charge as well, but it's too big to carry into church and the thought of leaving it in the car for over an hour makes me anxious, so i think i'm just gonna have to live without it once it dies T^T

well, it's currently past 1:30pm and my battery is getting pretty low so i'm going to quit writing and go eat lunch, and after i'll probably play some tomodachi life and/or minecraft!

update, it's almost 5pm and the power has come back on! it's still raining, so it is possible it'll go back out, so i might go ahead and post this before i leave for church just in case >_< i'm very happy to have the power and internet back, you don't realize how much everything you do requires either the internet or light until you don't have either one... for lunch i had an apple and a peach, then i played a bit of tomodachi life and minecraft until around 3pm. i was incredibly bored after putting that down so i decided to finally try out the murdle book i bought months ago when we visited the book loft in columbus. the easy puzzles i've done so far are pretty easy and fun! i did that for around an hour and then i was about to sit down at my desk to figure out something else to do when my lamp came on and the rest of the house followed x3

my mom brought me home dinner, mac and cheese plus some waffle fries and hushpuppies from her own dinner, and a diet coke :3 it's 5:30pm now and i just finished eating, i'll probably have to get ready for church once i'm done writing this. i did start my period, but i decided i might as well go to church since i feel fine and i am starting to feel a little stir crazy being cooped up in the house for over a week. it started storming again though it's nowhere near as bad as it was yesterday, so hopefully the power doesn't go back out while we're gone T^T

something i forgot to mention about yesterday, waterparks announced their smaller shows tour and there's a show in ohio (specifically lakewood / cleveland)! i was sure i wasn't getting tickets, especially after the power went out, but i successfully got some last night when we went to pick up dinner, and i'm so glad i did because by the time the power came back on today the show had sold out. one of my closest friends lives in michigan and is coming to cleveland for the same show, so we'll be able to meet in person again! waterparks is how we became friends so it's so exciting that we'll be seeing them together <3 i currently do not have anyone to go with, hopefully my sister can go but if not i'll be asking everyone i know until i find someone who's free that night and willing to go with me >_<

i need to get ready for church now so i'm going to go ahead and post this! what i do after church tonight really depends on if we still have power when we get home... if we do, i'm going to play and maybe try to finish oneshot! if not, i'll probably play clangen or something until i get tired or my computer battery dies. hopefully we do have power though x3 goodnight in advance!

as sundays usually are for me, yesterday was pretty boring. i went to church in the morning, came home and ate lunch (an earth grown burrito bowl), opened and tracked all my tan candlelight gifts, took an hour long nap, went back to church, came home and ate dinner (a microwaved mini pizza), and opened and tracked my blue, indigo, purple, and teal gifts. and that was pretty much my entire day, summed up in one singular sentence. i wish i could say i did more or that the day was more interesting, but the reality is that most sundays for me include going to church and sleeping (or eating out, if we don't go home between services) and not much else. after i decided to quit for the time being on my gift opening, my mom texted asking if someone had gotten her package, and i went up to the mailbox to see if it was up there. it wasn't, so i walked up the driveway in the creepy darkness for nothing T^T i went ahead and went over to my grandparents' where she was, even though i didn't have her package. i didn't do much besides lay on their living room sofa and watch tiktoks on my phone, plus be disappointed that they didn't have any potato chips i could steal x3

when we got back home it was 11pm, and i figured i could go ahead and open more ghost gifts since i was probably going to be up pretty late after drinking caffeine with dinner. i was really just excited and impatient to open the silver ones >_< i unfortunately didn't have a whole lot of luck as far as getting midnight gifts and wallets, i got three of each after opening 102 gifts. i did get a mustache clothing item from one of the midnight gifts and 2/3 of my wallets gave me crescent shore cards :3 i mainly use candlelight as moneymaker by selling my doubles of items (except decor which i sell all of) but i was really tired by the time i finished this at almost 1am, i decided to worry about selling today instead. after i was done opening all my gifts, i headed to bed.

today i woke up feeling sick, which is... not ideal, of course. my dad got back from a work trip to mexico last week and has been sick since, so if i am sick i probably got it from him T^T anyway, i got up around 10am and decided to have the acai bowl i got on our second walmart trip of the weekend for breakfast. it's definitely better from a coffee shop and made with fresh berries instead of frozen ones, but for 4$ instead of 10$+, i can't complain too much x3 it's the dole original acai bowl with strawberries, blueberries, and a topping of granola and coconut ^-^ i've never had acai with coconut, but it's pretty good! i only ate about half the bowl before deciding to put it back in the freezer because i was full.

i decided to sell all my candlelight stuff while i ate too, i started with 694,465 notes and finished with 718,846 notes, a profit of 24,381! i'm getting so close to one million :3 i have multiple cats i really want new art of, plus i've missed commissioning oc art, so i think once i hit one million i'm going to spend as much of it as i can in the art sales board ^-^

it's now somehow 11:30am? i'm not sure what to do, honestly. i don't want to just get back in bed, but everything i consider doing feels like too much effort when i'm feeling sickly. i think i'm going to give the cats their new flea collars actually, they really need them and i forgot about doing it yesterday.

after getting the cats' collars on, i went with my mom to the post office (her package was not there), then to family dollar on the way home to pick up some ramen bowls for my dad. he's turning into me only eating ramen every day x3 i did eat ramen for lunch myself, a cup of cheddar cheese maruchan, and drank strawberry soda, then ate the powdered donuts i got at family dollar as dessert :3 it's now around 1:30pm, i'm going to watch youtube and do some pixel cat's end adventures, then after i think i might take a nap because i still feel sick. if not, i'll probably play minecraft or something.

i ended up doing three adventures and then laying in bed until now at about 5:30pm. i didn't sleep, and instead used the time to start redesigning my main / original fursona! i've had her since i was fifteen, and before today nothing about her design had ever been changed, so she was due for a big overhaul. honestly, she's basically a whole new character now x3 i'm considering also changing her name... the only thing i really care about keeping is the fact she's half demon and one of her eyes is essentially just a void. it's always been her defining feature, and if i'm going to change everything else about her, that's the part that feels important enough to keep for me. i'd also like to give her a proper alternate design based on her demon side, just something more spooky than her regular look. i was thinking about having her normal eye change, possibly to some kind of glow or static, exaggerating her smile / teeth, and maybe adding worms or something to her void eye x3 nothing too big or different (she is only half demon after all), but just something that plays more into that side of her because i've never really done anything with it. oh, i almost forgot to mention, this reference sheet is a base, all i did was color it! i love this base and have used it for every single one of my feline characters :3 i unfortunately can't find the creator to link to credit, but i'll edit this post if i manage to find it!


i was going to play minecraft, but i don't really feel like it right now with being sick. the goal next time i log on is to enchant my gear and maybe... start working toward fighting the dragon! i've never beaten the game on my own, i've only done it once or twice on a realm with friends. i greatly prefer playing minecraft as a cozy type of game and have never bothered to go through all the work to get to the end for the dragon fight in any of my singleplayer worlds. i think it sounds like a fun little challenge to set for myself though :3 as for that extra area in my cave, i was thinking about turning it into some extra storage, but as of now i have plenty of free storage already in my house, so it would be a little redundant. maybe i'll do an aquarium of some kind? or it might just end up as a zombified piglin enclosure after all x3

anyway, instead of minecraft, i'm going to go ahead and eat dinner. it hasn't been all that long since i had lunch really, but i'm feeling hungry and i'd like to go to bed early tonight to hopefully sleep better than i have the last few nights and try sleeping off this sickness before it gets worse.

i had a very healthy (lying) cheese hot pocket and mandarin orange for dinner, i made the hot pocket in the microwave because i didn't want to wait for the airfryer to preheat and cook and then i stood over the trashcan peeling my orange for probably the amount of time it would have taken it to cook >_< it wasn't much of a dinner but it was yummy :p i did a few pixel cat's end adventures after i was done eating and watched the new dan and phil videos i've missed, and now i think i'm going to go to bed. it's only 7:30pm but i'm tired and feeling icky ;3; goodnight!

yesterday i spent most of my day just sitting around or laying in bed. i was still so upset and worried about my laptop when i woke up, plus i didn't have a power strip anymore so i couldn't turn on my lamp without plugging it into the wall which i was afraid to do because of the spill, so i ended up sitting in the living room long enough to charge my phone to 50% and then got back in bed. i finally got back up around 2pm and turned my computer on, and as mentioned in my last post i was very relieved that not only did it turn on, it also seemed to work with no issues. i felt a bit better at that point and ate lunch, just an uncrustable and a diet cola, around 2:30pm.

i considered playing papers please or minecraft, but i was afraid of putting too much strain on my laptop (not that papers please is a heavy game at all but i have anxiety T^T) so i decided to do pixel cat's end adventuring and watch youtube instead. i did that pretty much up until i needed to get ready for church. as much as the past few days have sucked a little bit, one thing i'm excited about is i think i'm really going to be able to make that 100 silver gifts goal! as of typing this we're only halfway through candlelight and i have enough gifts and buttons to equal 66 silver gifts, so between dailies, adventuring, and pea games, i only need to get 34 more in the next four days! that's definitely doable and i'm so excited, i really hope i can do it :3 it's such a small thing but the way i've been feeling the past few days it makes me happy to hopefully be able to make a goal i set for myself two whole real life years ago <3

going to church was honestly the last thing i wanted to do after the few days i'd had, but i still went because i would've felt bad leaving my grandma to deal with the kids alone. it wasn't that bad, though the kids were a little wild; you could tell it was a full moon x3 after church we picked up fast food dinner like we usually do on wednesday nights, i got a taco bell black bean grilled cheese burrito and nacho fries (act surprised) and a wendy's diet orange cream soda. i've learned to get the orange cream soda without ice so it lasts longer, i'm actually drinking some as i type this :p i wish i could get a whole gallon of it, i'd never drink anything else... anyway, i realized when i got home and started eating that they put beef on my burrito again, i really need to start checking it as soon as we get it instead of waiting until we're home T^T so at like 10pm we went back to taco bell and got a new one, unfortunately they didn't give us a free taco voucher this time x3

when we got home i ate my burrito (it was really good because it was hot and fresh), watched some youtube, and did a few pixel cat's end adventures before heading to bed.

today i somehow slept until noon ;3; according to my watch my bedtime was like 2am, so i guess i was up a little late, but definitely not so late that i should've slept until noon. oh well. i got up at noon and immediately cleaned the litter boxes because i didn't on tuesday because we didn't have any litter and i was not doing it at midnight last night. i considered taking a shower after but decided i wanted to eat lunch first, which i'm about to do right now at almost 1pm. i'm having an uncrustable, the aforementioned orange cream soda, and i'm also going to open the skittles i got at the dollar store last night when we stopped for cat litter ^-^ i've wanted wild berry skittles for weeks because one of the kids in the church class got a box of them as his prize and he gave me a few of them and they were so much better than i expected. i'm not big on skittles, they've always been my sister's favorite candy but i've always preferred gummy candies. i might start eating them more often though since i've realized how good the wild berry ones are x3

it's now 4:30pm, after lunch i did some pixel cat's end adventuring and i've officially gotten 75 silver gifts which is my record! even if i don't reach 100, i'm happy to have met my goal of beating my record :3 my mom asked me to watch a show with her while she ate lunch, nation's dumbest. it's pretty silly, it has a bunch of celebrities competing in challenges and tests to see who's the dumbest, basically x3 it's interesting to see a game show where the goal is to go home instead of being the last one. i think i'm going to take my shower now and i might play some minecraft after to finally build that enchantment room. i keep going back and forth over whether i want to put it in the little cave area next to my house where i've put my nether portal or if i want it to be an actual building...

i played minecraft for a while and made my enchantment room and also made my portal look nicer, i might move the portal though because it's in an awkward place after i covered part of the cave. i started to replace all the walls with stone but had to quit to go to my grandparents' for dinner, so i'll wait until my next post to share photos of my completed little cave area :3 for dinner i had squash and zucchini casserole and potato salad, it was pretty good. i also had a strawberry sparkling water and it was frozen so it almost exploded when i tried to open it >_< thankfully it was openable(? i don't think that's a word) and drinkable after it thawed a bit. my favorite of the sparkling waters is the orange cream (act surprised again) but it's also my grandpa's favorite so they rarely have any when we're over for dinner. after dinner i read some more of anatomy of an alibi, it's good but there's so many characters and after not reading for less than a week i could barely remember who was who ;3; i also got an almond joy cookie, it was so yummy :3

it's currently almost 10:45pm, i think i'm going to post this and do some pixel cat's end adventuring while i wait for my phone to charge, then go to bed. this might be the shortest post i've written recently, i guess that's what happens when you spend all day in bed one day and sleep half the day away the other... goodnight! ^-^

yesterday i woke up around 10:30am and had a nature valley peanut butter and jelly bar for breakfast. after breakfast i planned to take a shower, but my mom needed one because she was going out with work friends so i ended up just kind of sitting around until lunchtime, and i had a maruchan cheddar cheese ramen cup :3 i finally got my shower at around 2pm, and decided to play minecraft afterwards.

i opened minecraft with the intention of playing on my vanilla 26.1 world i've been playing, but i ended up checking out the 26.3 snapshot instead. the dappled forest biome is so pretty! the poplar wood is very pretty as well, i'll definitely be making a new world once the update is out and building a poplar and pale oak house in a dappled forest ^-^ i really like the abandoned camp structures too, and they have some really cool stuff; the first one i went to had a fishing pole, two bows, a copper axe and some copper armor, and a flint and steel for lighting the campfire. the abandoned camps definitely make the world feel more lived in, and i honestly hope they add more new structures like it in future drops. i haven't played on 26.2 yet, but the addition of friends and world invites to java is a huge game changer! i need to convince my friends to play on java with me sometime soon, it'll be nice to not have to rely on shaky free server hosting websites just so we can play together x3

i explored for about twenty minutes before deciding i was done with minecraft and i really needed to start working on catching up on my event pets collection on chicken smoothie before the summer event starts. i'm kind of hoping it doesn't start during candlelight so i don't have two separate events to focus on at once, but the chances of that are pretty slim since it's already the end of july >_< i'll be surrendering myself to five and twenty minute timers for a whole week... anyway, i sent lots of trades and decided to post in some forum games alongside waiting for replies. i ended up successfully trading for all the event pets i needed except one! the 18th birthday dragon has unfortunately been very difficult to find anyone even willing to trade it, let alone actually get it without massively overpaying for a common rarity pet ;3; hopefully one day soon i can finally get my hands on it! coming back to this paragraph later to add that the summer event was announced to start the same day as candlelight (aka tomorrow)... so basically the first week of the summer event i'm going to be multitasking all day while running pixel cat's end adventures x3

by the time i was done messing around on chicken smoothie, it was somehow already almost 4pm... after some back and forth on what to do, i settled on actually playing on my 26.1 minecraft world. i didn't log on with any kind of plan, but i've been talking about making a hostile mob farm on every world i've played recently and have yet to do it even once, so i decided to start building one. i'm usually not someone who likes to build farms, i really enjoy mining and exploring and the fun of that is sucked out when i have whatever i need readily available through farms, but i love collecting music discs and a hostile mob farm is the easiest way to get the ones dropped by creepers. i unfortunately didn't have anywhere near enough iron to make hoppers for a farm, so i started out with going mining.

i ended up not doing much besides mining >_< i found a huge cave and went home with much more than just iron... including 35 diamonds! i switched into peaceful while i explored and there was a thunderstorm, i love thunderstorms on peaceful because i don't have to worry about getting attacked or needing to sleep, and the rain and thunder sounds are so relaxing <3 i also, upon getting back home and opening one of my furnaces to smelt the iron i just went mining for, realized i already had 40 iron sitting in the furnace T^T so basically i went mining for no reason, but i won't complain about the diamonds x3 i smelted the iron and gold i got from the cave and crafted the hoppers i needed for the farm, then logged off to go to my grandparents' to celebrate my mom's birthday!

we didn't do a whole lot compared to last year, but we had alfredo, garlic bread, veggies, and honeydew / cantaloupe for dinner, then cake. the cake was just slices from a local bakery, i ate half a slice of white cake and it was pretty yummy :3 before dinner, i started reading a new book! it's anatomy of an alibi by ashley elston, i've read five chapters as of typing this and it's good so far. i'm two books behind my goal even after finishing my last book, which isn't good... hopefully i can read this one and the next fairly quickly and get caught back up again. i also, while walking back home to get something, fell and twisted my ankle T^T it really hurt and honestly still hurts now. hopefully it'll feel better soon and it's just hurting because it hasn't been long since it happened. i can still walk just fine, so it's definitely not sprained or anything.

when i got home it was around 10pm and i decided to do my usual nightly pixel cat's end adventuring while i waited for my phone and watch to charge before going to bed.

today i woke up around 12:30pm... i did, however, get out of bed at 1am to listen to waterparks' new album, jinx! i really loved it, my favorites of the non-singles are nobody but you, gwen stefani, and mirage. there's only two songs i think i might not listen to much if at all again; tell me why and girls need guns. tell me why i just... didn't really like. it reminds me a bit of the song wobble by patent pending that awsten features on, which i have always disliked. girls need guns i didn't dislike, but it made me so upset i genuinely do not think i can listen to it a second time. most of the song is a recorded phone call from awsten's mom talking about abortion rights and women's autonomy and as someone who comes from a conservative family, i know my mother would never think like that and it really made me sad. overall though, i love the album and it might genuinely be a new second favorite (i don't think anything can top greatest hits).

i ate lunch around 2pm and had the last packet of rosé buldak. after lunch, i decided to jump straight into minecraft so i could finally build that mob farm! i ended up building it in creative because i didn't want to spend ages mining cobblestone. it was very effective very quickly! after only a few minutes, i have all but three music discs and lots of doubles ^-^ getting the other discs is going to be pretty difficult, especially lava chicken unless i cheat by spawning in a chicken jockey... i'll probably do some peaceful nether exploration to try finding a bastion next time i play x3 pigstep is probably my favorite disc, so i'd love to find it!


it's now once again almost 4pm somehow. i suppose waking up at 12:30pm does make the day go by faster >_< i'm not sure if we're going out to dinner or anything to celebrate my mom's birthday or not, so i'm not sure what to do now that evening is getting close. well, right after i typed this my dad asked about going to dinner and i guess we're going tomorrow instead, so that answers that question x3 i think i'm going to get in bed to read for a bit because everything else i consider just feels like too much effort T^T

update, i read for about an hour up to 25% before getting back up because sneeg is live finishing shift at midnight, and i really want to watch the rest of his playthrough after spending about three hours watching the first half.

it's now 10:30pm, i finished sneeg's playthrough of shift at midnight and watched a bit more of his stream before we decided we were going to get rooster's for dinner and i went with my mom to pick it up. i got cauliflower wings with hot sauce, and we stopped at taco bell on the way home so i could get a drink (baja blast) and some nacho fries because i asked for fries with my food and my dad didn't add them to the rooster's order T^T i ate all of my nacho fries and most of my wings while i started finishing ranboo's desktop explorer vod from the other day. chicken smoothie's rollover is at 8pm for me so the summer event has started, it's a museum theme! i love museums so i love this theme, and i can't wait to see what cool pets we get throughout the event :3 i'm hoping for some cute skeleton pets like a museum display!

i probably won't sleep much tonight after drinking a baja blast, but that's okay because i want to have lots of time to get started on candlelight and also gather tokens on chicken smoothie. pixel cat's end time is the same as my own timezone, so rollover is at midnight. i want to get at least a few adventures and pea games done before going to bed. considering the summer event overlaps it, i doubt i'm going to end up successfully getting 100 silver gifts by the end of the week, but i'm still going to try my best, at the very least i want to beat my record of 75 >_< the update thread has already been posted and there's a new gift type! it includes really cute animal mask clothing items and memoir trinkets :3 i have a collection of all the trinkets that's been completed for a while, so i'm always happy to see new ones be added, and i love dressing up my cats. the only problem is the more gift types there are, the less likely i am to get silver gifts from dailies and ghost battles, so i have to collect more buttons to buy them.

anyway, it's already almost 11:30pm, so i'm going to go ahead and post this! probably all i'm going to do before going to bed is gather some more tokens on chicken smoothie and do a few adventures and pea games on pixel cat's end while finishing ranboo's vod ^-^ goodnight!

yesterday was overall a pretty uneventful day. i woke up around 10:30am and just kind of scrolled social media for an hour before deciding to eat lunch around noon. i had a rosé buldak again and when i was done eating we went to the hospital to meet my cousin's new baby! she is so cute and tiny, she literally looks like a baby doll T^T holding a newborn baby kinda stresses me out because they're just so small and fragile and i'm afraid i'll somehow accidentally hurt them, but i held her for a little bit because she was asleep. she was so warm i ended up having to trade her off after not very long because she was burning me up x3 i'm glad i got to see her, unfortunately my sister had to leave before we got there but i'm sure she was overjoyed to be able to hold a baby :p

it didn't feel like we were at the hospital for very long but it was already almost 3:30pm when we got home. i decided to play minecraft and was determined to get to the nether and find myself that dried ghast! i successfully made it to the nether and ended up trading for the dried ghast, which i didn't even know was possible! i prepared to spend a long time searching for a fossil and didn't even barely leave the area around my portal x3 i also got a tears music disc from a ghast and saw a zombified piglin chicken jockey, both of which i also didn't know was a thing... i think i need to spend more time in the nether >_<



after playing minecraft, we were having dinner at my grandparents' like we do every thursday, so i did some pixel cat's end adventuring and watched youtube while i waited to go over to their house. we had chinese food for dinner and i had veggie chow mein and white rice, it was really good :3 i went back home shortly after we ate and unfortunately found a tick on me when i got home... it thankfully wasn't attached (it probably fell out of a tree while i was walking across the yard) but it successfully freaked me out and i had to take a shower or i was going to die T^T

when i was done with my shower, i decided to go ahead and go to bed and read for a while before sleeping. i've now read ten chapters of margo's got money troubles, and i think i can confidently say i do enjoy it! however, there are a few admittedly small details that kind of bother me. this book was published in 2024 so is presumably set between the years of 2020 and 2024, and margo is 20 years old and (until having her baby) in college... but she's never heard of onlyfans or fortnite? she's never used tiktok because "you can watch videos on insta"? she definitely comes off as more of a 30+ year old millennial than a genz 20 year old in more than a few ways ;3; and maybe that's by design, but it just feels unrealistic for a 20 year old college girl to have never even heard of onlyfans or fortnite. despite my annoyances with that, i do enjoy the book overall and i can't wait to finish it ^-^

today we're going to build a bear! last month, build a bear had a sale where a lot of their plushies were only 15$. i've had my pumpkin kitty for nearly a year now, and have wanted the rose and ghost kitty basically since the day they were released; when i saw these 40$ kitties were included in the 15$ sale, i knew i had to get both of them! i ended up spending 40$ total, which is essentially the same as getting two for the price of one and free shipping. definitely worth it, and i'm so excited to get them stuffed today! i don't have any plans for outfits like i did when i got spice, so we'll see what i end up getting :3c

10pm update, we are finally home <3 we started our day going to a coffee shop and i got an iced chai with lavender syrup. it was really good, i've been missing lavender since biggby only has it as a seasonal flavor ;3; after that we went to the amish to get lunch, i got a sandwich with pretzel bread, pepper jack and swiss cheeses, pickles, and mustard; salt and pepper potato chips; and an orange flavored sweet tea. i only ended up eating half of half of my sandwich because it had so much cheese it was almost exhausting to chew to eat T^T after lunch we continued to cincinnati to go to build a bear!

it took me ages to decide on an outfit for my rose kitty. i really wanted her to have a dress, but every single dress i tried on her was way too tight and looked bad. i ended up going with the love tshirt and the red sequin tutu, and for ghost kitty i got the grey zip up hoodie and pastel rainbow tutu! i also got them the strawberry and lavender scents respectively. i think they both look super cute and they ended up with outfits i was very happy with :3 i did spend nearly 45$ on just scents and outfits, but i think it was worth it x3 their names are cupid and specter!


after build a bear we didn't really walk around the mall much but me and my sister went to this snack shop and ended up getting our mom a kitkat drink (i didn't like it when i tried it) and some chocolate mochi for us all to share, and then we left for jungle jims. i didn't get a big haul like i usually do, mainly because the typical trip is for my birthday and this wasn't like that x3 i got a new pair of sanrio acrylic chopsticks (pompompurin; i already own pochacco and hello kitty), a violet crumble chocolate bar, an aero chocolate bar, a bowl of jjajang instant tteokbokki, banana kicks puffs, pickled onion monster munch, and a strawberry soda. we also got one of the "fruit bucket" mini ice cream tubs, which we unfortunately had to eat all of immediately because we live two hours away from jungle jims, and it was really good! my favorites were the blueberry and banana. we also went to five below before heading home, where i got a tamagotchi poop time blind bag and pulled one of my favorite tamas, mimitchi; and two littlest pet shop series 6 blind boxes where i pulled the red panda and the moose. they're both pretty cute, but the moose is definitely my favorite of the two.

we ate dinner at chipotle, i always get a bowl with white rice, black beans, sofritas, corn, pico, and rice. i feel like i barely ate any of it but it was good as usual. i drank a coke zero as well so i'll probably be up pretty late tonight, but i have nothing to do tomorrow so that's okay x3

overall i had a pretty good day! there were a few times where i started to feel a little miserable because i'm definitely about to start my period (i was actually supposed to start sunday...) and i was feeling woozy and cramping a bit, but it didn't make the day any less enjoyable >_< i think before going to bed i'm going to watch some youtube and eat some more of my chipotle, and i might do some pixel cat's end adventuring too. goodnight ^-^

...well. it's been well over a month since my last post here. i've been thinking for weeks about how i really need to get back into blogging because i have been really missing it, but that's as far as i get; i think about it and then forget about it for a few days and repeat. hopefully this post will actually get me back into it, i don't want to claim i'll start posting every other day again already because obviously that hasn't had a good track record in the past, but i'm going to try to start posting at least once a week again. i've thought a lot about what my first post back would be about. i considered making it solely about the prowler tour (which as you can see by the title, will be talked about) because i planned to come back the sunday after, but it's now been another week and a half and i really have a lot of mundane things i'd like to talk about as well, so a very general and unorganized post it is.

we'll start with the big one, which is of course the prowler tour. i saw waterparks on november 29th for the first time in six years! they hadn't toured to ohio since the fandom tour, which was also the last time i saw them as traveling out of state for concerts is very difficult, especially when i can't drive and have to make sure i have someone else who can to go with. anyway, it was super fun and i'm so glad we got to go! i went with my dad and sister and we got there around 2:30pm, about four hours before doors opened. it was extremely cold, much colder than i remember it being at the fandom tour which was on december 1st, and they didn't even let us in until twenty minutes past when they were supposed to T^T my knees were absolutely shot before we even got inside because of standing in the cold / on concrete for so long, i didn't think i was even going to make it through the openers but i somehow survived the whole show. the openers were winona fighter and heart attack man, i really liked winona fighter's set and saved one of their songs to my playlist. unfortunately we started way too close to the pit so heart attack man's set mostly consisted of trying to stay upright for me :p i also almost had a crowd surfer dropped on my head during their set which was... so fun (lie). thankfully by the time waterparks came out we were able to move closer to the side and there were no more issues with the pit or surfers. my dad spent basically the whole show helping lift surfers, i don't know how he could move the next day x3 our surprise songs were last heaven, glitter times, bones of 92, you'd be paranoid too, and snow globe! i was very happy with them, especially glitter times and snow globe. i think my favorite song to hear live that i hadn't heard before might have been funeral grey or if lyrics were confidential. my body hurt so bad by the time we left, it hurt my hips and knees just to lift my legs to walk up the steps out of the pit ;3; i got a hoodie as my merch which i'm very happy about, my fandom tour hoodie is one of my favorite clothing / merch items i own so i was very happy to get a new one :3

awsten and otto made a song awsten called "84 years (waiting for our husbands to come back from war)" after talking about how long it had been since they toured to ohio, it was very silly and i still keep having it get stuck in my head randomly. i really hope that they keep touring here in the future, i know the band probably doesn't have much say in it but awsten talking about it gave me hope... also, i was very happy lucky people got picked over 21 questions, i would've been happy with either of them but lucky people is my comfort song and so far i've heard it played every time i've seen waterparks or awsten live, it means so so much to me <3

oh, i almost forgot to mention this, but we made some friends during the show too! there was a girl and guy in front of us who talked to us through the show and between sets, they were super nice and also gave us bracelets (mine says red guitar and i think my sister's says group chat). they also asked me if i was okay after the crowd surfer incident, and played spongebob clips on their phone for us to watch between sets x3 i really wish i had asked for their social media because it would be nice to be able to follow them, but i unfortunately didn't think about it :(

speaking of social media, moving on! i'm officially back on tumblr! i changed my main blog from a taylor swift fandom blog to a general / personal blog for me to just yap and post about all the different fandoms i'm in; so far, it's really helped me stay active. my interest in specific fandoms fade or change regularly, so i think my main blog always being fandom related is really what made me struggle so much with staying regularly active on tumblr as a whole. i've really been liking it so far, i'm honestly considering completely abandoning my main twitter accounts (which i haven't used in months) and moving fully to tumblr and my private twitter. here's a screenshot of my main blog's layout because i like it a lot ^-^


just a few days ago i finally jumped into the world of vinyl face plush dolls and bought a baby three billionaire cats blind box at walmart. this has already started an addiction as i expected... i pulled the one named baifu, and got the exact face that's on the box. something i think is super cute about baby three is that not only is the doll you pull random, but the faces are also randomized; they have different eyes, hair colors, and facial expressions. i've seen some very, very cute ones on reddit and i've been obsessively looking at sites like kikagoods that sell them at a lower price than walmart. of course, buying at walmart is easier, so i will probably end up getting my second one at walmart anyway (or target, as i am very interested in getting one of their quirky ox exclusive set). multiple people have already asked me if baifu is a labubu... which i'm not surprised by, but if you've seen a labubu they definitely do not look all that similar x3 anyway, this little guy is absolutely adorable and is absolutely going to start a collection i can't really afford.


another thing that's fairly recent is my mom got advent calendars for me, my sister, and my cousins. mine has little christmas themed diamond painting keychains, they're super cute! here's today's and yesterday's because i did yesterday's today since i didn't have time yesterday. i was a bit disappointed when i opened today's because it was a duplicate of the one from sunday... hopefully this is a factory error and there's not more duplicates, it would suck to start getting them when we're only about halfway to christmas. so far i've enjoyed the ones i've gotten and they've been pretty fun to put together. i'm really hoping to get at least one new big diamond painting kit for christmas because i really enjoyed doing the jaguar one from a few months ago!


the next thing i want to talk about is my wrapped and recaps! i can't say i'm surprised by my spotify wrapped results, especially the top two artists; bad omens and waterparks. my other top artists were pvris, wayv, and taylor swift. my top songs were specter by bad omens, take me first by bad omens, ponta solta by anavitoria, dial tone by catch your breath and the drain by bad omens, and my top genre was of course metal. my top albums were a bit silly, it's three bad omens albums, white noise by pvris, and... lofi phantasy by danandphilbeats x3 i genuinely laughed out loud when i saw the danandphilbeats album next to the other four. my twitch recap results are honestly the ones that i had the least expectations for, i didn't feel like i watched a whole lot of any certain channels this year so i didn't have any ideas of who would be in my top channels. i was happy to see ranboo was once again my top channel for the fifth year in a row :3 the other four were cellbit, tubbo, aimsey, and themightynebby. nebby first streamed in april and was last live four months ago and i didn't even watch all of her streams if that tells you anything about how much twitch i watched this year. i would really love for her to start streaming again though, i loved watching her streams and being active in her chat. there's not much else to really say about twitch recap besides it's not very shocking my top categories were just chatting and minecraft x3 lastly is youtube recap; my top channels were evil pinely, swell entertainment, dan and phil, jackmanifoldvods, and flurrymoon. i watch every single upload from four out of five of those channels (excluding jackmanifoldvods), so this result isn't surprising at all. evil pinely is my go-to channel to watch while eating lunch because he uploads there basically every day around the time i eat lunch. i was in the top 2% of viewers and watched fifty-five of his videos this year. i think jackmanifoldvods is really only in there because i went through a phase of watching his ghost video reaction vods while grinding pixel cat's end adventures. my top games were minecraft, split fiction, the sims 4, that's not my neighbor, and the sims 3. i can attribute some of those to one specific video or channel, so that really says a lot about how much minecraft content i actually consume x3

something i've gotten very much back into since my last post is petz 4! i first played it sometime around july, i wish i could remember how i discovered it and what got me into it to begin with considering it's a twenty-six year old game that i didn't grow up playing, but i unfortunately can't. i fell out of it for a bit but got back into it in late october and now have around thirty petz! i don't want to flood this already long post with photos of my petz so here's a link to my crew page on my website. i think my favorites of all my petz are precious, toast, glitch, sadie, and pumpkin! i admittedly haven't opened the game in a few days, mainly because i know i need to start organizing my petz and making profiles or external folders to store some of them in and i don't want to have to deal with that T^T i've really enjoyed naturally raising my petz and breeding them to see what kind of cute or silly creatures i can create.

just a couple days ago the minecraft mounts of mayhem update was released, and with it i started my very first forever world! i haven't done much on it so far, but i found a place to live and set myself some soft rules to follow of things i can't do; use cheats like keepinventory and /locate, switch difficulties, or use tutorials when building. because i want this to be a forever world, i don't want to make it too easy for myself to get important and big things, i'd rather take it slow and move at my own pace without rushing. i also want to try not using keepinventory because i use it every single time i play and i feel like it's more okay to lose things in a forever world where i'll have all the time in the world to reobtain items. the no tutorials rule is because i feel like i rely on tutorials way too much and want to force myself to be creative and build my own stuff even if they're not the greatest works of art :p my early game plans are to build a little house, get a pet or two, and eventually make an xp / hostile mob farm to make getting those resources easier, plus i'd like to collect music discs and that's how i got the creeper-dropped ones on an old realm with friends.

wow, this post is so long, i really was gone for a long time! the last thing i wanted to talk about is the fact that i finally shut down confessparx. confessparx is the waterparks anonymous confessions account i ran on intstagram for about six years; i started it on december 3rd 2019 and closed it on december 1st 2025. i decided to close it because especially in the past year i've felt like it has done nothing but cause me stress and anxiety, plus constantly seeing negativity about my favorite band for six solid years was understandably a bit draining. i'm honestly shocked it lasted as long as it did and was able to keep well over one thousand followers through those years and three separate accounts, i really assumed it would die within the first few months of its existence. everyone was very kind about the closing, the post announcing it got over 450 likes and forty comments, all of poeple being very nice and understanding about my decision. it genuinely felt like a huge weight off my shoulders to announce the account's shut down, as much as it saddened me to close that chapter of my involvement in the fandom.

and that's about all i can think about to talk about! my next post (which hopefully won't be in another two months) will hopefully be much shorter and easier to read than this one x3 i've really missed long form blogging <3

i technically broke my every other day posting streak since my last post was just a ramble and not an actual blog post, but i've genuinely been doing next to nothing every day because of being sick. i haven't even felt particularly terrible, either; i just haven't had the energy to do anything except lay in bed or stare at my computer.

that said, i've unfortunately quit my social media and phone detox prematurely. i redownloaded the twitter app on my phone and haven't cared about keeping my screentime down. this is partly because of being sick and not having the energy to do much else, but mostly because i've been struggling immensely with sleeping at night (which i know is definitely not good for my quick recovery from whatever illness i have)... multiple times this week i've gone to sleep around 4am and it's only wednesday. i don't think i've been to sleep before 2am at all since friday night, actually. hopefully once i'm no longer sick and have gotten my sleep schedule back in line, i'll get back to trying to limit the time i spend on social media and my phone. i ended last week with an average of 46 minutes a day and i'd hate for that to be a one time thing T^T

my days have kind of blended together due to being sick and not leaving the house at all, so i'll just talk about things i remember doing this week in general x3

i've been listening to and thinking about wayv a lot the past few days, i'm not really sure where this has come from but i can't imagine a day where i don't still love wayv. i've been a fan of them for a little over five years now and have considered them my ult group for basically that whole time, they truly are stuck with me for life :p i finally listened to their newest mini album and ten's japanese mini, both are so good! i think my favorites from each are ice tea / sad eyes and silence / burn it up. i've been listening to quite a bit of bad omens and waterparks as well, but that's not really surprising at all x3

yesterday was the first day i really felt like doing anything that wasn't online so i worked on my diamond painting a bit, i'm getting pretty close to finishing it! i'm actually not sure what i'm going to do with it once i do finish it, maybe frame it and find somewhere on my wall to hang it? either way i'm honestly really proud of myself for sticking with it long enough to finish it :3 i'm usually very bad about abandoning bigger projects like this so even though it's just a diamond painting it's a big thing that i've gotten so far into it. i'll probably spend the next few months finding tiny plastic diamonds in my carpet, though...

i finally caved and refollowed sneegsnag on twitch this week. as mentioned in recent posts, i've been watching his true crime videos while i do other things, and i eventually started watching his livestreams through youtube as well. the last stream he did he changed youtube to only the vertical orientation, partly due to wanting people to watch on twitch instead, so i did exactly that. i used to watch sneeg pretty regularly in 2021 and 2022 so i'm far from a new viewer, maybe i was destined to come back :p eventually i'll do the same thing with jack manifold, i've been watching his vods on youtube for a good while but still have yet to get back into watching his streams. not sure if anyone is streaming today, but if it's anything interesting i'll probably watch while i work on my diamond painting again.

it's officially one week until my birthday! i'm not particularly looking forward to or dreading it either way, i care more about the celebration part of it during the following weekend x3 i bred one of my newer pixel cat's end couples for some beans that will be born on my birthday, trade and north wind twins! i'd love to breed some more (update from later: i ended up making room to breed a new cat i got with one of my current favorite cats!) but unfortunately i'm almost completely out of space for new cats... my traveling is one away from being full, i think i need to start giving cats away or at least listing them for very cheap on the recruitment board ;3; i knew i would reach capacity eventually, especially now that i've been playing for over two years, but it's still annoying T^T

what else have i done this week... i've gotten very fixated on taco bell's strawberry passionfruit agua refresca, which might be partly to blame for my lack of sleep... it's so good though T^T i also started a new minecraft world, i'm using the origins mod and playing as a merling! it's actually such a peaceful and easy origin to play as, i made my home in a little cave and i have all the food i'll ever need from fish ^-^ i think i might add some mods that add more mobs to the ocean and river biomes just to make it feel less empty. i've been writing a lot too, i've written around two thousand words of a deltarune / krusie fic that i'll hopefully finish and upload to ao3 soon. i'll definitely put the link in my next blog post after i do!

i don't really know what i'm going to do today. i'm still feeling sick, so probably not much if i had to guess. i honestly might end up having to go to the doctor because my cough is in my chest and is causing me a lot of chest pain :( i hate going to the doctor and would much rather wait my sicknesses out, i guess i can't avoid it every time ;3;

whoops, forgot to finish and post this last night T^T now i really did lose my posting streak... oh well x3

most of my day yesterday ended up being spent watching youtube and twitch... i watched sneeg's stream for a few hours and did some more diamond painting as mentioned plus some pixel cat's end adventuring, then switched to ranboo when he went live, but ended up leaving because i wasn't really interested in the game he was playing (i just really dislike shooter games). i also watched quackity's stream, though he ended early due to internet issues </3 so, so much twitch and youtube...

other than watch videos and streams all day, i also colored a page in my coloring book and attempted to start playing umamusume pretty derby. i say attempted because i haven't really played many gacha games so everything about it was incredibly confusing. i think it's cool that the girls are based on real race horses though, very strange but interesting concept. i didn't end up going to the doctor and i probably won't unless i'm still sick on sunday because that will be over a week since i first started feeling bad. hopefully i'll be feeling better by then though, i'm tired of being sick and having this stupid cough.

another blog post with no photos... still feels weird, but isn't as surprising this time since i didn't do much this week :p hopefully i'll have more to talk about by my next post!