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yesterday i slept in a bit until around 11am, and spent the first hour of my day just sitting around before eating lunch at noon. i went back and forth on what to eat but decided to have my leftovers from lunch on sunday so they wouldn't be left in the fridge until they went bad, which is a terrible habit i have. i watched this video while i ate, and it made me once again want to do something similar; not shock myself with a shock collar necessarily, but just try and use my phone less often and maybe giving myself some positive reinforcement if i do it successfully, ie letting myself buy something expensive i've been wanting or doing something fun if i keep my screentime below a certain amount of hours for however many days in a row. when i attempted to do a challenge with my mom of who could spend the least amount of time on our phone, i was keeping it below thirty minutes most days for a week, so i know i can do it :p that challenge didn't amount to anything though, my mom decided it was unfair because she has a job and she can't compete with me if i'm not even cracking an hour every day... which i guess is true but also i was annoyed that i didn't get my promised reward >:(

honestly, i think i need to try something like this soon, because my screentime has been crazy recently. my average this past week was over eight hours. i have been spending a lot of time on social media and fighting a relapse with [redacted] (refer to my locked entries, i did delete my account and the app again yesterday though so hopefully i can actually stay away from it this time), so it's not surprising. i really need to just delete everything from my phone and try to only use social media on my computer to see if that helps at all, but i genuinely think nothing is going to change for good unless i completely replace my phone with something that can't run these apps i'm addicted to. i refuse to stop using a smartphone while it's still perfectly reliable, but once my iphone finally kicks the bucket, i'm considering swapping it out for something more "dumb" or basic. the problem though with not using a smartphone is that so much of our world and society is digital nowadays. payments, event tickets, everything you could think of really is being done mostly digitally now, which makes it difficult or sometimes even impossible to do things if you don't own a smartphone, because the common idea is that everyone on earth owns one so not everything has an alternative option. i also have pretty severe social anxiety so just the idea of not having that simple easy way of doing things stresses me out a little. i don't know, i wish i could go back to like the late 90s or early 2000s and be an adult then instead of now, i'm tired of social media and the internet being so overly accessible, and the rampant takeover of ai doesn't help in the slightest.

anyway, rant aside, after lunch i decided i really needed to get back into reading. the book i had been reading for over a month when my libby hold expired, anatomy of an albi by ashley elston, was available for me to borrow again much earlier than anticipated, so i decided to say screw it and just pick it up where i left off instead of dnf'ing yet another book. unfortunately, i don't think it's possible at this point for me to hit my 30 books goal for the year unless i start reading one book every single day ;3; i'm five books behind my goal / only halfway into it and it's now september... it's not happening T^T but i refuse to let myself stop reading all together just because i won't reach the goal i set, i got my break and it's time i start locking back in >:3 i was telling my mom how far behind i was in my goal and she said i needed to start reading children's books x3 i will not be doing that, but i might read the doll people sometime soon... it was one of my favorite books as a child and i still have my childhood copy!

i ended up not reading after all, it was 2pm by the time i finally pulled out my kobo and... it was completely dead T^T so i put it on the charger and decided to do something else instead. however, i felt so tired i ended up just getting into bed instead of actually doing anything productive ;3; so much for staying off my phone i guess...

i stayed in bed until about 4pm, and ate some potato chips and watched gabi belle's new video after i got up. after i finished gabi's video, i decided it was finally time i do something other than sit around doing nothing and finally opened minecraft so i could start working on decorating my house. my mom got home not long after i logged on though, so i didn't end up getting anything done >_< instead i read a few chapters of anatomy of an alibi and then had a burrito bowl for dinner and we watched nine to five while we ate. it was good and really funny! it's the first movie i've watched since early june, i've been slacking so much...

after the movie was over i pulled out my older littlest pet shops and started cleaning them. i've been carrying lps with me basically every time i leave the house lately, and i'd like to branch out from my generation 7 pets, so i decided it was time i clean up the older little guys so they're presentable to be carried in public x3 i have around 100 lps, so i didn't get through all of them; i cleaned about 20 pets and then went to bed around 10pm.

today i woke up at 11am and started my day by doing the trash like i do every tuesday, and took a shower afterwards. after my shower, i got right back into cleaning lps since they were taking up space on my desk. thankfully, all most of them needed was a good scrub with a wet rag and they were looking much better, but i ended up throwing a few away (thankfully no overly valuable pets) because they definitely had mold on them ;3; i was worried about the mold spreading to my other pets even after being cleaned, so i decided throwing them away was unfortunately the better option. the ones that i threw away were also pretty nasty looking even outside of the mold though, so at least they weren't otherwise in good condition, or i probably would have tried to save them.

by the time i was done cleaning my pets, it was 1pm, and i was starving T^T i had an earth grown butter chickpeas and veggies over jasmine minute rice for lunch, it was so good <3 i also picked out which lps i was going to keep with me for the day, and went with persian #1027 and beagle #77. i think the beagle mold is absolutely adorable, i hope they eventually bring it back for generation 7!


it's now 3:30pm, i think i'm going to get in bed for a bit because i'm really tired T^T when i get up i might play minecraft or tiny bookshop, or do some reading :3

please act surprised that i did not do any of those things... i got up for a bit but ended up just sitting at my desk doing nothing before getting back in bed ;3; i finally got back up around 7pm when my mom was home from work and we had grilled cheese for dinner, mine had american cheese, tomato, and ranch ^-^ it's 8:15pm right now and i'm not sure what to do, everything i think of just feels kinda meh :/ i think when i go to bed i'm going to start working on switching my phone layout for autumn, even though it won't be autumn for another few weeks; i need to start manifesting colder weather, i'm sick of it being 80+ degrees every day x3

i ended up taking a second shower because i was feeling really hot and i just sat in the floor of the shower and played with littlest pet shops :3 now it's about 10pm and i'm going to bed. goodnight <3

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